About 'davedajobauk'

[davedajobauk]

Adding contrast now, to my last post

I add, that after 'shopping' this-afternoon
~in, the obvious absence, of snow and ice (?) in case you hadn't heard
I took one bite of a cold Steak pie [Mostly Pastry] and, did the 'up-chucking routine'
all-over again (ergo: my 'following, in Mary's footsteps' ~inkling by-comparison)

I will try-again, later
AND, maybe chew (for longer) so, reducing 'lumps'

Going forward, I am ready, with my food processors /blenders

 

[rebornfree]

I hope things are getting better now Dave. How are you bro'?

 

[davedajobauk]

Thanks for the update Dave!

Thank you for the update Dave. I will continue to pray.

Thank you for the update, Bro. Dave. Glad that you have been eating better also.

I hope things are getting better now Dave. How are you bro'?

Yesterday, everything stayed-down
(although, we came 'close' with some excessive-salivation)

I won't be doing-any 'TREATMENT'
It isn't, 'by any means'
~an enjoyable, or, even-comfortable 'ride'
and CURE's (?) are as those, achieved by use of 'Snake-Oil' ..... zilch!!!

I conclude, that 'a stent'
would permit ingestion of nutrition via esophagus
Requiring analgesia to site in due course
With the 'Peg', as a-backup

In this way, I can expect to see every-sunrise that I am meant to see
Without,
'hurrying it along', or, 'wishing, I COULD'
iow:
It is my hope, to DIE, just the once
and not, like Mary ~feel like:
"I would rather be dead" _for anything up to a week (after chemo)

 

[davedajobauk]

and God Bless-you Tigger Bro'

 

[Tigger45]

Thanks, God bless you too Dave!

 

[rebornfree]

Thanks for letting us know Dave. Is it not worth going to the doctor, to get what help you can, even if you don't want certain treatment? It might be something less serious than you imagine which could be dealt with easily.

How is your mother Tigger 45?

Prayers for both of you.

 

[davedajobauk]

Awww Bless your loving / caring concern Sue Sis'

I cannot see past, my getting ready for bed sleep TONIGHT
and WAIT AND SEE whether MORNING WILL SHINE AGAIN for-me (?)


While my family would like for me, to spend my 'last days', nearby them
There are no guarantees that my return to Bristol, will actually be accomplished

IF, a tumour IS discovered
(around / within my esophagus) There is No-Cure
and, my 'announced-choice' of 'treatment' ~is considerably more-comfortable
than 'Radiation-Sickness' and 'Chemotherapy Poisoning'
With analgesia becoming-essential ~when the tumour grows large enough
to invade the space being used by my Lungs and Heart
~I am HAPPY that I have made a good-decision for me


Besides, I AM 70, Natural-causes, could intervene at any-time now ??

 

[davedajobauk]

A cancer cell, is 'a normal cell'
that has been subjected to cellular-changes at, the genetic level
Reversal of those changes, is not presently possible

Affected cells, that ARE, KILLED_OFF
must be weighed against the healthy cells that ARE LOST (also killed)
Chemo and Radiation treatments also affect the effectiveness of our Immune Systems

It is, The Quality Of Life, that I can look-forward to
that influences my view (it's affects upon Mary ?)


ETA:
Like Mary, I have no wish to be 'hosed-down' ~following a visit to the toilet

 

[Tigger45]

Thanks for letting us know Dave. Is it not worth going to the doctor, to get what help you can, even if you don't want certain treatment? It might be something less serious than you imagine which could be dealt with easily.

How is your mother Tigger 45?

Prayers for both of you.

Thanks for asking about my mother. We went to lunch today. She said she was fine but she’s not one to complain.

 

[davedajobauk]

Mary wasn't either, but there were times I caught up with her 'crying'

I do hope to catch-up with her one day ~She owes-me twenty-one and a half years
Right from before our engagement, I had announced, that I wanted at-least 30 years with her

 

[davedajobauk]

I had a 'phone-enquiry' from WAYNE @ Lancashire SSAFA this-morning
He again asked, if, I "had heard ANYTHING FROM BRISTOL ?"
concerning possible 'suitable accommodations', down there


I had-to reply, in the 'negative' of-course, as there are housing-shortages
across the whole of the country
He said: he would get onto the Bristol office, and see how the situation, is at present

I have had many of these boxes 'packed'
this past more-than TWO YEARS


Will I get there, or won't I _ "Zat iz ze question"


Have You Seen Me?

 

[davedajobauk]

Yesterday is already a Dream



Tree of Love Interactive

 

[rebornfree]

Good news about the SSAFA phone call Dave. Continued prayers about this.

Re your health. Do you know that it is cancer? I can understand you might not want chemotherapy etc., but is that not a decision for further down the line? Have you ruled out a more minor condition which could be treated by antacids or something similar?

 

[davedajobauk]

Antacids, would they say
influence the effectiveness of my Heart meds Ramipril 10mg / ADALAT 40 mg
My pharmacist prevented May my neighbour from buying for-me, Vick's Sinex Spray ~for a stuffy-nose I had ages-ago for reason, it would render my 'beta-blocker' inadequate
[Bisoprolol Fumerate]


Yes what are the odds, that 'we' (Mary and I)
could eat, sleep, breathe, chat and surf in THE SAME ENVIRONMENT
for some SEVEN YEARS almost
and, also-shared snacks, water-bottles, shared (divided) meals and, same bedding
same bedroom-window open 24/7 thru wind rain and shine, same washing machine
and detergents ? YET (somehow) NOT BE, in the presence of the similar 'TRIGGER'
[carcinogen] ? However, 'taken-up'

Mary too, enjoyed-meals that included creamy mash instead of boiled potatoes
During the last year... 2015 I used the food processor after cooking
for ALL Vegetables and meats on Mary's plate
We grew to love Butternut Squash soup, Leek and Potato Soup and stews
where, the precooked meats and juices were pre-processed
in-advance of, stew preparation
So 'okay' there wasn't ANY "lumps" but, it had EVERYTHING IN
even if, virtually indistinguishable from, any other-ingredient

I am well aware of the blessing that Mary was to me
But, was she also a LESSON...? "Watch and Learn"

It must be almost a year since her son Denis, the last of Mary's family visitors to-call
changed his job and ceased calling altogether [Mum, is not here ?]

Pssssssst!! I would very-much, like to 'go' whilst deep IN MY SLEEP
But, I will go along-with whatever reveals-itself

The Serenity Prayer
by Reinhold Niebuhr
doles out the principle attributes required for, 'overcoming' (attitude adjustment ?)

The Serenity Prayer
by Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)
Complete, Unabridged, Original Version.

God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.




God bless

your Bro'
dave

 

[Rescued One]

Awww Bless your loving / caring concern Sue Sis'

I cannot see past, my getting ready for bed sleep TONIGHT
and WAIT AND SEE whether MORNING WILL SHINE AGAIN for-me (?)


While my family would like for me, to spend my 'last days', nearby them
There are no guarantees that my return to Bristol, will actually be accomplished

IF, a tumour IS discovered
(around / within my esophagus) There is No-Cure
and, my 'announced-choice' of 'treatment' ~is considerably more-comfortable
than 'Radiation-Sickness' and 'Chemotherapy Poisoning'
With analgesia becoming-essential ~when the tumour grows large enough
to invade the space being used by my Lungs and Heart
~I am HAPPY that I have made a good-decision for me


Besides, I AM 70, Natural-causes, could intervene at any-time now ??

But you don't know what your illness is, do you?

 

[davedajobauk]

I AM in the 'right ballpark'
All physical-symptoms have not been missing in me

If it is a similar metastatic beastie
then one of the last things, to begin-with would be, to set it FREE
(with a BIOPSY ?) to-wander ~SPREAD as it did with Mary
I have lived, with that THING (within, arms-reach) for 22 months ?
I have watched-it, deprive Mary of the strength, for life

By the time you notice that food has begun to 'back up'
this side, of your esophagus
it has already obstructed the alimentry canal (?)
already taken the place of good tissue in that place ?
I haven't heard of post-cancer esophageal reconstruction, being 'carried-out'


When coffee too just sits there daring-you
to attempt-to drown-yourself
with just-another half-mouthful of 'coffee' that won't go down

Today, I ate cereal [uncooked, as-always]
a cereal breakfast-bar, a tin of Heinz Tomato Soup
2 Toasted Crumpets (no visible carbon)
3 mugs black coffee
1 Mug of Horlicks
2 Mueller's Fruit Corners Red-Cherries pack
a Full Round of Ham Sandwich
I masticated it all 'thoroughly' before swallowing and avoided that
'throwing-up' again today \o/

"You might not be prone (susceptible) to the 'same trigger' as your Mary"

TRUE!!
I have previously survived /recovered-from a breast tumour behind my left nipple
after THREE MONTHS of chemo only months BEFORE, my 'emigration' to-Manchester

Peter, 'was afraid he would drown ?

If somehow, I lost the ability to cough
I could 'drown' in Bronchial Pneumonia ?
developing from my 'Bronchi-Ectasis' just saying

Which way we will each 'pass' is, it-seems, a Moot point (until it's happening)

Dread ? Fear ? Anxiety ? in me ? None!!

Back in 2005, I prepared to take my own life
[too-long, a-story, to give background, now]
I 'made' a hangman's noose and tied it into the roof of my garden shed
10 feet 6 inches from the floor
An Adult Male voice in the darkness of the shed (where I was alone)
passed through-me and the shed as I stood below it
ie: before climbing, to-'peace'

"Leave it until-morning, things will be different then"
the voice said, in a manner that overflowed with confident-prediction
[I repeat, I WAS ALONE out there]

I 'obeyed'
I had a marvellous rest, I even overslept
It was the now former spouse that woke me
~in a manner so-reminiscent of 'the girl on the bed' in that film called
The Exorcist (?)
Her voice almost masculine at-times and seemingly, coming
from deep-behind her tonsils / adenoids

"I want a divorce!"
"What if one of the kids had found you hanging there you selfish barsteward"

All I had done after-installing the rope, was SLEPT VERY WELL INDEED

"Thank God for that!" I replied, because now
I could see the LIGHT that had 'touched-me' out there in the shed (earlier)
I had heard the TRUTH ~from someone who loves me ?
I need no-evidence of His presence, in my life and throughout it

>
Did I tell you that at the age of Five years, my mother was confident-enough
to allow me to find my own way to infants-school
~my having displayed ability to do so safely
I abused her trust,I put myself in peril
I jumped upon the tailgate of a pickup truck (outside of the school)
driven by Santa Claus in costume
who sold lucky dip Christmas gifts [pound shop stuff]
intending to hop off when it stopped at the sign at the next junction
well he jumped the stop and drove straight across the main road at the bottom
that had a steep camber to the centre (crown) of the road
of-course the springs of the pickup exaggerated this bounce so-much
that it slapped me to the road surface
I did myself a wicked beauty facial (rubbed-out, my dimpled chin)
scoured palms, wrists, elbows and knees
I must have looked a dreadful mess
I told Mum I fell down, which wasn't anything-like, the whole truth
but it sufficed, that she unknowingly ~continued to trust me
I know I listened to everything she said, afterwards
I had really been shaken-up
It hurt to DO WRONG, even when
there was nobody around to prevent you doing it
Self-awareness, got knocked into me LITERALLY....
self-recognizance ? _it is a responsibility

>
When I was riding home from work on my bicycle one-evening
a speeding motor-cyclist had to brake suddenly
as the lights in front of us went to Red
He slammed into the back of my bike
sending it careening across the light controlled junction in front of a bus
that was coming in the other direction (I'm sure he saw it and braked)
and my left elbow polished the chrome radiator grille


No, whichever way
~and WHEN E X A C T L Y I pass
is [I PROMISE] not a concern to me, not now
I'm gonna WAIT 'n' SEE with Psalm 23

 

[Rescued One]

My husband told me that he had gallstones. I said, "You should agree to the surgery." No, he wasn't interested.

Then he was sick one January and thought he had the flu. The next week and thereafter I kept telling him he needed to see a doctor. He wouldn't listen to me. By the end of April, he was in so much pain, our son took him to emergency room. He had surgery to remove his gallbladder. It was cancer and had spread to his liver. Now I'm a widow.

 

[faroukfarouk]

My husband told me that he had gallstones. I said, "You should agree to the surgery." No, he wasn't interested.

Then he was sick one January and thought he had the flu. The next week and thereafter I kept telling him he needed to see a doctor. He wouldn't listen to me. By the end of April, he was in so much pain, our son took him to emergency room. He had surgery to remove his gallbladder. It was cancer and had spread to his liver. Now I'm a widow.

Sorry to learn this.

It's a two way thing; there being a hospital and using it in time.

John 14.1; John 14.27.

 

[davedajobauk]

Maybe, just-maybe
I use my microwave TOO-MUCH

https://www.facebook.com/video.php?v=1155233274522243

 

[rebornfree]

Antacids, would they say
influence the effectiveness of my Heart meds Ramipril 10mg / ADALAT 40 mg
My pharmacist prevented May my neighbour from buying for-me, Vick's Sinex Spray ~for a stuffy-nose I had ages-ago for reason, it would render my 'beta-blocker' inadequate
[Bisoprolol Fumerate]


Yes what are the odds, that 'we' (Mary and I)
could eat, sleep, breathe, chat and surf in THE SAME ENVIRONMENT
for some SEVEN YEARS almost
and, also-shared snacks, water-bottles, shared (divided) meals and, same bedding
same bedroom-window open 24/7 thru wind rain and shine, same washing machine
and detergents ? YET (somehow) NOT BE, in the presence of the similar 'TRIGGER'
[carcinogen] ? However, 'taken-up'

I wondered if antacids would affect your current meds, which is why I didn't recommend an "over the counter" one, but your doctor might be able to give you something on prescription.

You could look at the odds another way. Statistically it would be very unlikely, IMO, for two people in the same household to have the same serious, non-infectious, non-contagious illness within so short a space of time. However I'm not qualified medically so I might be wrong. Best to get it checked out.