For the last ten years or so (I'm 34 now) I have thought a little bit at a time about the ministry. For awhile I felt like God was calling me, and I was afraid and wanted to run from it. Then for awhile I felt like I wanted Him to call me, but I felt that I wasn't truly called. I don't know which is true. They can't both be.
Anyways, I've worked for the same company for the last 15 years -- close to half of my life and nearly all of my adult life. It has its ups and downs, but sometimes I worry about losing my job. What would I do? I don't have a college degree. I worry about how to provide for myself in the event of a major illness or other catastrophe as well. And of course, I just plain worry about being able to "compete" (for lack of a better term) in the rat race.
I was thinking today that I want out of it all. All the stress and worry from the work-a-day world. Part of me thinks that being a minister would not be as stressful. I enjoy praying for people and helping to talk with them about their problems. There aren't really any things in this world, honestly, that I think I'm good at.
Part of me thinks that if I were a minister, I wouldn't worry as much because I know that what I'd be doing was 100% for God and His Glory as opposed to helping a large company make more money.
But then it all comes back down to money. Being single, I know I don't have too many expenses, but I look at the ministry as something that men shouldn't be doing for money. I don't like hearing about Pastors and Preachers who are making money off the Gospel. I would feel guilty taking a salary.
For the record (and maybe I should have started with this), my father is a Bishop in the Anglican Church. He got ordained when I was in High School and kept his day job as a school teacher (he's now retired from the school teaching). Never once has he taken a salary for his work in the ministry. He enjoys it very much and I respect that.
I just don't know where to turn or what to do. A friend told me, "We are all called to the ministry," and I do believe that. I guess it's all a matter of what kind of ministry or in what capacity. I just was worrying for a long time that God would call me to some place I didn't want to go, or that I'd be wearing a collar or something.
As for wearing a priestly collar, part of me never wants to be that kind of guy. I mean no offense to those who have chosen it as a path (my father wears one as a bishop), but I would feel weird in it. I don't want to be one of those hip blue jeans pastors, either. And like I said, I don't know what capacity it would be in (or even truthfully, what denomination). Perhaps it's egotistical of me to assume that I would be in some sort of leadership role.
Please pray for me that I may know my exact calling from God and that I can be faithful to it... and that I have the RIGHT reasons for doing it.
Anyways, I've worked for the same company for the last 15 years -- close to half of my life and nearly all of my adult life. It has its ups and downs, but sometimes I worry about losing my job. What would I do? I don't have a college degree. I worry about how to provide for myself in the event of a major illness or other catastrophe as well. And of course, I just plain worry about being able to "compete" (for lack of a better term) in the rat race.
I was thinking today that I want out of it all. All the stress and worry from the work-a-day world. Part of me thinks that being a minister would not be as stressful. I enjoy praying for people and helping to talk with them about their problems. There aren't really any things in this world, honestly, that I think I'm good at.
Part of me thinks that if I were a minister, I wouldn't worry as much because I know that what I'd be doing was 100% for God and His Glory as opposed to helping a large company make more money.
But then it all comes back down to money. Being single, I know I don't have too many expenses, but I look at the ministry as something that men shouldn't be doing for money. I don't like hearing about Pastors and Preachers who are making money off the Gospel. I would feel guilty taking a salary.
For the record (and maybe I should have started with this), my father is a Bishop in the Anglican Church. He got ordained when I was in High School and kept his day job as a school teacher (he's now retired from the school teaching). Never once has he taken a salary for his work in the ministry. He enjoys it very much and I respect that.
I just don't know where to turn or what to do. A friend told me, "We are all called to the ministry," and I do believe that. I guess it's all a matter of what kind of ministry or in what capacity. I just was worrying for a long time that God would call me to some place I didn't want to go, or that I'd be wearing a collar or something.
As for wearing a priestly collar, part of me never wants to be that kind of guy. I mean no offense to those who have chosen it as a path (my father wears one as a bishop), but I would feel weird in it. I don't want to be one of those hip blue jeans pastors, either. And like I said, I don't know what capacity it would be in (or even truthfully, what denomination). Perhaps it's egotistical of me to assume that I would be in some sort of leadership role.
Please pray for me that I may know my exact calling from God and that I can be faithful to it... and that I have the RIGHT reasons for doing it.