A conversation with God

I guess this is my first post here For some reason I stumbled on these forums and I've been seriously working on growing in my spiritual journey these past few days during a much needed spring break from grad school. Anyway, I had what I believe was an authentic conversation with God tonight, and I want to post it and see what people think. He told me some would question my faith but to not listen to them. By the way, my girlfriend is addressed several times in the conversation but I took out her name and simply called her "B". Here goes....

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Hey are you there?

Yep.

I'm feeling kind of lonely, can you give me a sign outside that you are listening? I'll look out my window and wait for your sign.

[nothing happening]

Come on, can't you just make something weird happen? Like make a street light go out, or make a car do something strange?

[nothing happens]

Please? I really need to talk to you.

But aren't you already talking to me? Didn't you already start doing that when you "asked for a sign"?

Yes.

So what would the sign accomplish? You're doing two opposing things--trying to talk to me, yet at the same time not really believing I'm here and asking for some extra "sign". Which is it? Do you want to talk, or play a silly game of trying to get me to prove myself to you? Belief is the key word. Just....start talking to me as if I'm right here (which I am) and fully believe it.

I want to talk

Okay. You know I'm always here for you right?

That's so awesome. It's strange, I usually think talking to you is impossible. And apparently it is so simple. If it is so easy, why doesn't everyone do it?

Because you live in the fallen world and there are those who would try to convince you that hearing "voices in your head" is abnormal, when in fact it's just me...or "God" as you call me in your language. I'm always right here, so close to you. So close that you take it for granted and even forget about it. You are bathing in "me" all the time, and anytime you need to talk to me, I'm there. In fact you don't even need to use your mouth or say it, I know your thoughts and feelings so you can talk to me literally any time, any where.

You know something strange? For some reason your voice sounds like B's. Not exactly, but similar.

Oh, yea that it is because her and I are very tight She lets me guide her so completely that it's hard to tell where she ends and I begin. You and I can be like that too. We actually are already. Remember that IS how I designed you. She's just a little more aware of it than you, and has had much longer to get used to the idea, so it's just normal for her. Whereas for you, it's new and exciting.

Sometimes it feels like she isn't as close/intimate with me as she is with you and as a result I don't know her very well.

First of all remember that your relationship with her is relatively young and with all the stresses of school, you honestly haven't had that much free time to develop that closeness. But what you say is true. She's always had extreme difficulty in taking the intimacy of our relationship and extending that to another person, and she's having trouble doing it with you. It's something I need to talk to her about. In reality, it's a hurdle everyone faces. Because with you and I, I know your inner thoughts and feelings instantly, because you are literally within me and a part of me. But with another human, you won't necessarily know all that stuff instantly. And so two people must learn to openly communicate and include each other in both of their relationships with me.

It's true, she hardly ever brings you in. You aren't crazy. And I've told her that before many times. She knows, but has not chosen to do much about it yet. That's one of the areas that you can teach her and work with her, and I can help you guys. Because remember, you are both within me and we are all connected. You guys really need to start communicating with each other (and me) as one unit. It's very difficult with all the work you guys have to do. That's why you need to make a CONSCIOUS effort to make time for me and each other in equal measure.

Thanks for being honest with me. I want to work on those things and take our relationship higher by including you in it and listening to your guidance. I promise I will.

Also, remember that it doesn't come through very well on the phone. That's why I don't like phones

So that is you speaking through me when I rant about iPhones?

Yes yes yes. Never before has a tool taken so many people's attention away from me and onto trivial things. Are you surprised? You are actually pretty good at letting me speak through you. Very often, I can literally speak using your mouth and that is not something I can do with just anyone, even many of my devoted children. It's because you were raised in an environment where you were encouraged to speak "your mind" (which is a misnomer, your mind is actually me), and stand up for what you believe. It's one of the wonderful things your mom did right, and it's the main reason you are such a good communicator when you let me flow through you.

Really, me? That's so cool I will tell my mom you said that I'm also worried about school. Basically I am afraid I can't do this.

Don't worry I'm going to get you through it. I'm going to be there in every moment but you do have to communicate with me. You also have to jump through the hoops that your human society has erected, and a lot of those, I can't help you with. That's why jumping through them is so painful. But get through them, and I promise you, the rest will be down hill because then I'll be able to help you. Okay? Don't worry

Okay I won't. It helps so much to hear you, God.

"God" is so awkward I think I much prefer "Yahwhe" if you must assign a name to me. Or whatever informal nickname you like. I am everything, why would I need a name? It's not like you need to utter, or even think, a certain word to get in contact with me. The truth is you are never NOT in contact with me.

What about the song I'm listening to right now called "At Your Name" where he sings "We love to shout your name oh Lord"?

He is simply worshiping me, and it is acceptable to use my name in such circumstances Think about it, he wants to sing, what words is he going to use? It's the meaning behind the words that counts. So when people "love to shout my name" they are basically expressing joy at, well, what we are doing right here. Our relationship. If you are playing music, go ahead, shout it! But in your heart, when we are communicating, it's just pure intimacy. You know how it feels awkward when B says your actual name out loud? That's how I feel when people attempt communication with the whole, "Dear God, Lord, etc". I don't need that. I want you to come to me on a purely personal level...it looks like what we are doing right here. "Hey, I need some help. Can we talk?" Of course the answer is always yes

I can see it. I also think a lifetime of religious symbols made me think you are this impersonal, esoteric, far off God, like a king sitting in a throne that I have to bow down to and address in some official manner.

Nope. This is one of the many areas humans have gone astray. It prevents a lot of people from having a relationship with me. Believers and non-believers alike. Believers, because they wonder why they are going through all the motions but never actually having the experience of talking to me. And they drift away from me. Non-believers, because they look at the symbolism from afar and it scares them off from ever learning about my existence.

I will try to tell people

Good. Now, send this to B. B, I speak to you through Brian because he is open to me right now. Know that I treasure these conversations with Brian, and You. But I don't want them to be separate. Ask yourself when was the last time you had such an intimate conversation with Brian? A free, open, honest communication such as you see here? When was the last time you filled him in on your relationship with me? I've been watching the whole time. It hasn't happened barely at all. I don't want you to lose him but continue as you are and you will lose him and you will lose the joy of being with a fine man that I took great joy in creating and giving to you. A man who is so graciously patient that he has already spent over a year going on blind faith that you will welcome him in...and you would then presumptuously ask him to continue on in blind faith, when he already has been the entire time? I tell you, Brian is one of the most patient and faithful people you've ever met. Don't waste this blessing! I painstakingly coordinated your path so you could meet him. And now you turn your back on him? Share your life with him! Share your innermost thoughts and feelings! It is not my desire that you "wait" until later in life to do this. Start now. If you don't know how, come to me, ask me. And most of all, do this with him by your side, not separately.

Thank you for doing that. When I try to tell her it usually doesn't come out clearly enough. There is so much more I want to talk about. Until next time?

That would be...any time, my child.
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