I'm talking about sonship.
It is not enough for me to know about God, or to be able to talk to Him, to be able to call Him father, or to experience His presence. I want to experience His fathering, to know Him as Father, my father, on a deeper level than I know my earthly father. This is what I was looking for. And that is the relationship that I started.
Not just being a christian, a follower of Christ, but to be a son, to be one with God.
No sin can remain in the presence of God. And that is were I was. Walking and talking with God. But as I said this was just the beginning. I personally had not reached sinlessness, but never the less I was seeking after the Spirit so I was by virtue of the seeking, sinless. I was able to share love freely and operate in gifts that I didn't know I had. I was experiencing the beginning of a relationship that goes beyond "Yes sir!", "No sir!". I was experiencing substance.
I am stronger now in my faith, my understanding of the word, my trust of God, and my relationship with Him.
The sin that ended this period of time was pride. But I have been back to that place of intimacy many times, and so my relationship has continued to grow, as does my love for Him. And He keeps showing me myself.
"More of You and less of me."