Someone told me once, Do something. Just wait. Odd for myself, as I am used to taking action. If I know something can be changed, I try to change it. If I see a way in which I can be of more usefulness to others, I try to do it. So, waiting has- and continues to be- something that makes me uncomfortable (to say the least). Yet, we are specifically told to wait on the Lord- to be strong and wait. And thats what I will continue to do- for what other choice do I really have? He knows whats going to happen anyway, and forcing my will has never brought about the bountiful harvest for which I have aspired. Its not always the waiting on Him that is painful- as I know He is always faithful- and unlike others, He always keeps His promises. It is the waiting for others to see and begin to live what is so obvious to me. There are so many people who are needlessly ...suffering because of their lack of faith. They think a quick fix is the answer to all lifes problems, and their obsessive/compulsive behaviors feed these addictions. Yet, after the high has worn off (whether it be. . . unhealthy relationships, drugs, alcohol, securing a position at work, getting away with stealing, lying, or cheating, or whatever the fix may be) they are left more empty, more hopeless and full of doubt, misery, and pain than when they had begun. Why cant these people see that God is the answer? Why are they so clouded by their selfish and self-centeredness that they cannot, even for a moment, step outside themselves and realize their lives could be so much more than what they have settled for living? I know I cannot do it for them- only God can do that- so, I guess I have no choice but to continue to pray, listen to Him, and write what He puts on my heart. And, I will continue to do just that; for I know what my life had been like without Him in it; and for all the fixes in the world, I would never go back to that hell on earth.