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    Head believes; heart does not; how should I then live?

    Because of me. This is what I do. I don't mean to, but everything I say or do ends up causing problems.
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    Head believes; heart does not; how should I then live?

    I don't mean to cause trouble of any kind and if I've managed to do so already then I will leave. I'm very sorry. :(
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    I think I'm unregnerate, reprobate, vessel of wrath, despairing, tried all I can think of

    I very much wish I could see Him more and me less. But He is not my Savior. He is my Judge, the One Who, because He is Holy and Just and Righteous, will soon cast me into the lake of fire.
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    Is Autism A Gift From God?

    This may sound a little depressing, but I am a person who requires near-total social isolation (because otherwise I'm fatally toxic to those around me), and the combination of Asperger's and depression serves in my life to provide that isolation, and to deter me from any serious attempts to...
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    Like it's comforting if God didn't exist

    Google "agorism." You would not be the first person to wish for an enclave of relative peace and freedom. But I'd also recommend being brutally honest with yourself in terms of what price you would be willing to pay for it. Distance from family, friends and loved ones? Difficulty earning a...
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    Alone, losing hope, don't know what to do

    You are assuredly not alone in any of this. I'm in a similar situation. It's awful, but there are many who have been through similar things and God ultimately did rescue them. I don't expect to be among them, but perhaps you will be, by His Grace and for His Glory and for your good and that...
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    Head believes; heart does not; how should I then live?

    I will do that, but my scholarly days are probably past, due to severe short-term memory loss. I am not sure what further sources exist beyond the Word of God, but I do recognize that since I lack the indwelling Holy Spirit I probably do not understand it nearly as well as I should.
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    I think I'm unregnerate, reprobate, vessel of wrath, despairing, tried all I can think of

    I can't offer much help, being in a similar position myself, but I can empathize, and, on the very remote off-chance that God will hear my prayers even though I'm at best a wicked heathen, I will pray that He might grant you the mercy, redemption and peace that you seek. I do think it is a good...
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    Head believes; heart does not; how should I then live?

    I very much believe the Bible intellectually, and know it reasonably well for an unbeliever (reading through it roughly every 8 months), yet I clearly do not have saving faith, as amply demonstrated by my thoughts, attitudes, actions, inactions, and the responses of other believers toward me in...
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    Apology and introduction

    That would explain the Titanic question. :) I don't put real birth dates into the public domain because of the very real probability of identity theft. And I figured that no one would think I were really 119, even though, until my first 3-4 cups of coffee, it sometimes feels as though I were.
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    Apology and introduction

    Hi all. Appreciate the warm welcome. To answer a few questions. How do I know I lack the Holy Spirit? No discernable witness that I am His child (Rom. 8:16). No genuine love toward the brethren (1 John 3:14). My even being here is evidence of that. No victory over sin (1 John 3:6). The...
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    Apology and introduction

    I should not be here as I am in no way a Christian. But many years of having read through Scripture, and sporadic time spent among the people of God in the past (can never happen again in person for various reasons), have made me long for the company of those who know and walk with God, but at...