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  1. heaLsEarch

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    I know family members can be loving and yet hurtful which sometimes can be unforgettable.
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    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    tired after hearing nothing from several interviews...
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    Depression: Craziest Story You’ll Ever Read from a Christian

    It comes naturall for me to believe tiresome, and burdensome existence controlled by rules as the will of God for my life somehow. Anything fun, joyful, or attractive is against God's will for me. It feels easier though to live a boring life as well as being around "unchrist like" people (even...
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    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    I liked her practical advice - how to make many calls to get a reply. I wish I knew more about how to be assertive like her without getting hyper or remaining silent altogether. The last time I was around here several years ago, I was a mess without a good combination of meds. Now snri &...
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    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Feeling a lot better after applying for second work... If it went well, I hope I can be more patient at my current factory. I am being too mean and I think they don't quite deserve the level of frustration I'm directing towards them.
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    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Hi! :) When I read your postings here in Japan, I'm just amazed and inspired. Thank you for greetings! :)
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    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    I am being overome by "evils", instead of overcoming evils with love maybe, but I've also offended them needlessly by my talk. I think I can make up for it by reducing my work hours.
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    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Thank you… I was able to work calmly today to my surprise, and I'm grateful… I'll start looking into other jobs which I have been procrastinating for weeks though… I just wasn't prepared for what the all year around job advertisements meant. My request for a morning shift was met with "You...
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    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    I've messed relationships at a new workplace whose leaders are very generous and kind people... :cry: I just opt for a distance with leaders than close relationships with them. I understand leaders getting upset and maybe even mad with me, but it makes me sad, tense, and scared. I dread going...
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    reaching out

    Hello, I have re-read John 14 several times. The chapter seems to be explaining how to experience a spiritual awakening described by a founder of Alcoholics Anonymous and which I long to experience, but unable to. I have listed my thoughts in reaction to the gospel below which is very...
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    reaching out

      Thank you for a kind offer. I don't have any questions or doubts in 4 gospels, but I'm apathetic even after reading all 4 gospels. I don't feel dislike towards Jesus, but I don't particularly feel any closer to Jesus, either. I have a fear that maybe I'm irredeemable which I can't shake off...
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    reaching out

    I've watched just the first hour of the program and it was great‼︎ I'm looking forward to viewing the whole series. Just as the speaker was saying, it is so true that sex can be an addiction in the same way coccaine creates an addiction. My food addiction (bullimia) which is common (1 in 3) with...
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    reaching out

    Thank you :blush: Please pray that God will help me see how God is the one who can fullfill me and whom I can love and trust. I belive it is a very hard thing to imagine for a love cripple.
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    reaching out

    I know children can be full of life & it is so refreshing to be around them sometimes :relaxed: Thank you so much for replying :blush: I'm able to feel less strange now by knowing a quarter of women struggle with sexual dependency issues. Please pray so that I can experience a true...
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    reaching out

    Thank you for your reply. I took the SAST and scored 6+ (likely suffering from sexual addiction). I was a bit disappointed to hear my first step is to be my walk with God instead of go find a dating service, but it makes sense. I feel empty in my walk with God, but nothing seems to work...
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    reaching out

    Hi, I'm a 40 something lady who identifies herself as a sexaholic, but most people wouldn't understand as I do not act out in ways most people imagine sexaholics would act. I have a tendency to turn to men under emotional stress, but I have been sober for quite many years except under extreme...
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    shame

    I may or may not lose an internet connection in a few days and if I couldn't reply here, I'm very sorry and I apologize in advance. I am a troubled, unsocial and depressed individual with a broken sexuality. I was physically involved with a boy my age as a teen because I never knew how to...
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    A fellow in my 12 steps addiction group is in danger of losing sobriety and risking arrest.

    Right after posting the thread, I had an accident and a surgery which prevented me from attending meetings for weeks. I prayed for the member as often as I could, but it seems Satan is getting his way for unknown reasons. I will be sure to attend the meeting this week and suggest adding a...
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    A fellow in my 12 steps addiction group is in danger of losing sobriety and risking arrest.

    I'm turning to other saint's power for my prayer request to reach God since I am inadequate as a Christian. I prioritized relationships at work over my addiction group when a fellow sober member was going through rough times and when I knew I needed to attend. His addiction involves a...