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Honestly know nothing seems to help after 7 years it's as if these things I've mentioned before have become a very strong habit as much as I try to just go on and pretend they're not there or even ignore them and treat them as little ants crawling on the floor nothing works I don't know why but...

Because unfortunately those are things that trigger my mind to go all to pieces and ruin my entire day to where I have to take an Ativan and just sit as my mind is being raped beyond My control

I tried to avoid reading the words Holy Spirit all together or anything related due to the fact that immediately my mind starts screaming all types of profanity and it's as if it's coming from me!!!!!! the end result is I have a massive anxiety attack and become totally detached from myself...

How come after 7 yrs of blasphemous thoughts against the HS they still have not lost there power.........I think them first thing when I get up(that is sexual one against the HS) and it's that last thing I think going to bed! Iv tried pills,ERP, ignoring them,staying busy, and a host of other...

The first thing when I wake up at the morning my mind is clear but it's almost as if out of habit I sence these Blasphemous thoughts starting to come particularly a inappropriate contentographic one involving the you know who....... I can't stop thinking it........ I can't stop myself from thinking it!!!!! is...

Amen I agree I have most certainly done all that as far as I know none of my ancestors were involved in any of that I have repented numerous times to have what seemed like glorious breakthroughs but then it would come back with a vengeance I'm to the point now that I can't even think on the Holy...

Well pretty much but they are again I have them 24/7 they have become a habit I don't know my life without them in fact the more I try to ignore them and pay them no mind and treat them as background noise the more I want to thank them but yes when I try to pray or read my intrusive thoughts /...

Yes Amen brother it seems anytime I attempt to pray and read I'm hit with a spirit of insanity the most extreme exhausting panic and fear don't know if that's ever happened to you but I can go from feeling great and then trying to pray and all of a sudden everything begins to spin I lose track...

Honestly when I just let the thoughts come which seems deliberately and intentionally I feel like gum and trash but I don't know what else to do obviously the more you try to fight it or do compulsions it makes it worse so when the thoughts come of course the anxiety and crazy stuff I can wake...

What exactly does it feel like to have psychosis I feel as if I either have that or severe depersonalization due to intense Blasphemous thoughts against the Holy Spirit........ thanks....... my brain feels empty heavy and tight eyes are severely dry

Honestly that's where I'm at at the moment I think our brains can get hooked on certain things and it seems to be all at once to think about and although when the thoughts come it feels like me thinking them deliberately out of a habit deep down I know they're just thoughts even when I have...

Amen brother it is just so hard when you've lived so long miserable that you don't know what normal is it's as if your body has become addicted to feeling miserable....... it's almost too bizarre to explain every time I have these thoughts which is constant blasphemy against the Spirit it's as...

You have described me perfectly every single thing that I think or say out loud either mentally or audibly out of my mouth it wants to add the Holy Ghost in it...... I could be doing something as easy as cooking dinner and it will make a Blasphemous thoughts about the Holy Ghost and cooking...

very much so.........I feel strong depersonalization..........my passion and love for the thing of God seems to have vanished all together thus making me constantly sick! My mind is constantly thinking contrary to everything related to God,Jesus,and the Holy Spirit.........I can even feel the...

I'm at the point now if I read anything related to God or even think on God this feeling comes over me of blasphemy!!!! I can feel it!!! I feel like I want to commit the sin!!! I feel like within me I'm deliberately committing it and I don't care anymore!!!!! Obviously the more I tried to ignore...

Pretty much exposing myself to the thought and learning that it's just a thought that one day it should just lose its power......pretty much doing ERP..... when you feel a blasphemous thought coming deliberately think it let the worst happen learn to accept the unknown learn to let the thoughts...

That sounds just like me..............had it for so long that now I have severe depersonalization/Derealization 24 /7...........when I even attempt to try to worship God or pray and or study my Bible it as if I start deliberately thinking blasphemous thoughts. Then fear comes over me.....then...

No I haven't unfortunately

The thoughts are one thing but the feelings of severe detachment and hopelessness is going to drive me to a mental hospital! I have not felt the peecence of God in long time which I feel like king saul now...........severe Derealizarion,depersonalization,utter detachment from myself and reality...

Yes maybe a Christian specialist that deals with mental battles of the Mind........ intrusive thoughts and intrusive speech