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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    I said to God it's been too long. I told him over again its too long. I said it's too hard. I heard him say " I am carrying you". I feel like my existence is meager. God does not feel like that about me. It is the enemy. My problem is that I keep believing him. And because of my guilt my...
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    M,y Cna Was In My Room I Had Pointed Out To Her On Tv That It Snows 48 Inches In South Dakota. She Said Man I Been Having Dreams About Earthquakes. She Said I Had Two Dreams About Earthquakes. She Told Me She Was Somewhere In The House And The Ground Opened Up. She Said She Tried To Get...
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    M,y Cna Was In My Room I Had Pointed Out To Her On Tv That It Snows 48 Inches In South Dakota. She Said Man I Been Having Dreams About Earthquakes. She Said I Had Two Dreams About Earthquakes. She Told Me She Was Somewhere In The House And The Ground Opened Up. She Said She Tried To Get The...
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    Earlier Today I Was Sleep And U Had A Dream About The End If The World I'll Try To Remember it Later But When U Woke I Closed My Eyes And Saw fire And Brimstone Rain On The Earth Just That Quick
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    10/15/2013 Last night I had a disturbing dream. I remember being somewhere where I heard gun fire nearby in my neighborhood where I remember ducking down.
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    [10/15/2013 Last Night I Had Several Dreams The One I Had Last I Remember Vaguely I Remember Stepping Out Of A Building And I Seen This Dark Blotch In Midair So I Started Rebuking Cause I Thought It Was A Spirit But It Was Not. It Moved Closer To Me, And As It Moved Closer I Seen A...
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    a piece of glass broken and shattered a beauty of splendor in need to be mended wholeness and newness can the world comprehend this I know that act boastful blind to her intelligence only looks to her appearance they only see her outwardly but inside she's reaching for more...
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    a piece of glass broken and shattered a beauty of splendor in need to be mended wholeness and newness can the world comprehend this I know that act boastful blind to her intelligence only looks to her appearance they only see her outwardly but inside she's reaching for more desperately she's...
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    I'm a no holds bar line of person so I will plainly tell you that I am disabled. Around the age of 27 I acquired encephalitis. I started losing my cognitive and motor skills little by little. My equilibrium was way off. I would then lose my job and discover that I had HIV. I laid up with lot of...
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    What I've Been Through (Life of Rebellion)

    I'm a no holds bar kind of person so I will plainly tell you that I am disabled. Around the age of 27 I acquired encephalitis. I started losing my cognitive and motor skills little by little. My equilibrium was way off. I would then lose my job and discover that I had HIV. I laid up with lot of...
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    i told God

    Thanks I Do. I Just snapped on someone just now. I shouldn't be this way. I told God that I wasn't serious about life. I said I ain't serious. I've allowed myself to just slip away. Cause i dont wanna deal with item but has helped people. Lots of people.
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    i told God

    Thank u
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    i told God

    I agree jehu
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    i told God

    To call it all off. That I don't wanna be here anymore. I don't want to minister. I just want to die. I am tired of not being able to walk being depressed. I truly do not want to live. I told the Lord that I don't wanna live and that I'm serious.
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    if I killed myself would I go to hell

    Thanks I have been going through a lot lately. I don't want to be here still. I just wanna be with God in heaven. I hate my life. I feel highly unloved. I have an appointment with the doctors tomorrow. I despise this government because I know they made this disease. This so called HIV. Which I...
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    if I killed myself would I go to hell

    Thanks guys. Really made a difference i really like u guys
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    if I killed myself would I go to hell

    I will give you the link. Its a site where u share music
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    if I killed myself would I go to hell

    I have some on sound cloud can u listen to Audi I there?
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    if I killed myself would I go to hell

    Awsome. I love it I write poetry too. You are really good. It is hos I feel I wanna say I am a rely bubbly person funny. Just have a lot of issues. For a long time I lived my life battling insecurity and homosexuality. It is hard. It's so many Factors as to why I'm depressed. I'm black...
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    if I killed myself would I go to hell

    I think a lot of you think that I'm a kid in high school. I am not I am turnin g 32 Friday I'm disabled i can't walk. Have atrophy live in a nursing home HIV positive I have no real support. I'm growing angry and bitter. The facility is poorly ran. Not getting support. I