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  1. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Yeah! It's amazing how a year can really change a person. I'm in a better place and better space, a lot of it has to also do with being at a distance from my parents and around amazing people. The Synagogue I attend is amazing too, and has been very active in the community this past year...
  2. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Life sort of got in the way! But all of you were on my mind this entire year, and I had a bit of time to pop in! It's good to see all of you again.
  3. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Hi all! It's been a year! Y'all have been on my mind, and it's good to see you guys have survived this pandemic, and I've been doing great! I had surgery June 2nd and my health has gone up and I'm no longer in pain. My friend and I are working on finding a place together but there's been a...
  4. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    The medical field is a joke and an utter lie. Second surgery, and a promise I won't be in any more pain + pressure to take medication I can't take. I'm at the end of my rope and no doctor is listening to me, they all think there's easy solutions. Take this to help with the fact you can't walk...
  5. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Just checking in. Minneapolis is on fire, though I don't live there and I don't know where I stand because I'm trying to be a good ally but cannot condone the burning of properties. My state is re-opening and now there's been new cases & I have to get tested. Otherwise, I'm doing okay and...
  6. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    A tl;dr of what's been happening: I'm about to be homeless (possibly), I've been thinking of converting to Judaism because of family history (grandmother on dad's side was born into a Jewish family, and a lot suffered and died at the hands of Nazis and some were able to flee to the United States...
  7. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Oh good to see you're okay Jeshu! I've been following the fires that were happening in Australia and was thinking of you! Unfortunately, I've been busy and this semester has been hard.
  8. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Another year, another 60-70 minutes of listening to my parents' pastor litter in "jokes" about abusing and killing cats
  9. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    It's been a nutty but okay semester. My friend is an alcoholic and put himself in danger about two weeks ago, so me and our roommate had to bring him to the ER. About a week later, he decided to drop out. And invited me to some drinking event and got upset I didn't want to go. Come to find out...
  10. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Can the admin or whoever be blocked? Or is there a way to get the promo to stop being advertised? Anyways. I'm good. Taking a creative writing class -- my first story is a dystopia. My second one will be more of the genre I'm good with: fantasy.
  11. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    I'm here. Good news: I have a diagnosis for my health stuff, bad news, doctors waited too long and there's internal scarring bc the organ broke through some tissue and stuff. Good news, it can be helped. Worst news: He won't do surgery that fixes it completely. Instead, more pills!!!! Gr8. Meh...
  12. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Parents got chickens a few months ago. I have befriended these ladies, they now eat from my hands and follow me around. They do peck at me every so often but not flesh breaking hard. They had names but now they're just The Ladies.
  13. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    So some stuff happened. A lot of stuff happened. And someone in the medical field has effectively retraumatized me that whatever is going on with my organs, I'll just let myself quietly suffer because I can't deal with this again. And while I want to talk to a friend about this but I don't...
  14. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Angry. Three/four weeks in, and I'm already considering the pros and cons of arson. I had a breakdown in my car tonight. Did not get a break (not that it would matter on a federal level, its a corporation, laws are just pretty words rich people can ignore), was starving, was hot and dehydrated...
  15. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    hey everyone. how are things? i'm academic and financial aid suspension, but working to get back in the fall. i spent the last two weeks of my semester in and out of the er because of agonizing pain to the point i just could not eat or drink anything, so my studies went down the drain. i barely...
  16. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    I hope you had a good birthday, Jeshu!!
  17. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    a note that a friend wrote me and left on my door was ripped down sometime today. i'm not even mad. i'm not anything. i don't feel anything. it doesn't matter i guess. my ra is still avoiding me.
  18. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Good and bad. I kinda went drinking tonight, to celebrate spring! Warmer days, making new friends. Part of a friendgroup now, I guess? I feel seen by other people. Seen and accepted despite what's happening currently. My car for some reason did not work today. I reaalllyyyy hope it's just a...
  19. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Thank you! Your guys support means so, so much to me. There's a lot happening right now, and admittedly, I'm not quite sober so I don't know how much is going to be posted from emotion.
  20. chaoticfirefly

    what are you feeling right now? (24)

    Well, there's a temptation for arson while all of these things are sleeping soundly in their beds. Haven't had that urge in a long time. I know I'm getting bad if I'm no longer seeing these things as fellow human beings. I should ask my friend for some THC or something, that sounds better than...