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Unfortunately think bro's are here to stay.... Ugghhh.... Sketchy guys just make me so uneasy. I always feel like they are going to hurt me or something. I don't like being grabbed either it really makes me want to hit someone. It does just throw you and gets you so off your game. I hate...

Don't have much time so I have to be brief.... Sorry... I'm glad you both liked my bro comments! Especially that they made your day Court! Ugghh Bro's will never go away as long as there is acoustic guitars and hackey sacks lol. Friday was okay. Saturday I started drinking because I had a...

Paul, Your funny and you have good intentions so of course I like talking to you. You even have some good points ; ) Lol about the motorcycle! There was a time I wanted a motorcycle but quickly thought better knowing myself and the way I drive. That's funny that you step dad was in yourt...

Hey Court, I've figured kind of figured I had PTSD after the stuff I've been through. I know that's probably why heroin appealed to me so much back when I was using it. It just made me not care about my fears or care about anything else really. Since I've been off all the fears and depression...

Hey Court, Glad you don't think I am a crazy dog lady lol! It's just so hard for me to get the motivation or the comfort to go outside. It's really hard not feeling safe all the time. I have 4 locks on my doors and locks on all my windows because I am so afraid of the outside. Sorry you can...

Thanks Court! Ya it was just to many grabby costumers and to much temptation to drink on Saturday. I mean I understand if you get a dance you're going to want to touch me but just within reason you know? Then you have the guys that just walk up and grab some part of you when you're standing...

Thanks for keeping up with the prayer Court! I really appreciate it : ) I had to work Saturday night and last night. Saturday was kinda rough I got drunk. I wasn't smashed but I was feeling it. I had a few really annoying costumers to so it kind of made it hard all around. I might ask to get...

Thanks Court! I had a pretty good night. Didn't drink so that makes it good in my book! Thanks for praying!

Lauren does seem like a really good person. I'm looking forward to getting to know her better. She is working tonight so I will get to talk to her a bit. Ya what you told me really spurred me to do something for her. I know I was really lucky. I didn't have the pressure to hustle for guys or...

I can agree with what he said. It's so hard for me to have a conversation with a person sober. To be honest I remember when I use to live in an apartment building if I would hear people walking down the hall I was going down I would turn and go the other way. am pretty sure I did it just to...

Thanks for praying Court! It went pretty good actually, better than expected. I gave Lauren her basket which she loved! It made me so happy she liked it. When I got to work I was pretty busy to start off the night. Started feeling like I needed to have a drink so I ended up having like 3 ugghh...

Once I hit 18 it just started going by so fast. I do nothing all day and it still just seems to fly by. Makes me feel like I am wasting my time even more. That is funny Court. I'm not really sure why that is? Doesn't really seem to fit you know? If anything stripping is like the opposite of...

About to head to head to work...... Lets see how this goes..... I have been like cold sweating and craving a drink so, so bad...... I have to do my best to try and be strong and avoid it. Prayers appreciated if you have them to spare.

True that Court. I feel like such a mess up half the time (Former drug addict/drinker, current stripper, stopped utilizing my talents IE.) it's easy to get wrapped up in our short comings I really know that. There is stuff I hate about myself and stuff I love. One of them being my knack for...

Youd did get a great song Paula! Not old at all. It is crazy Court! Time seems to fly I know. I heard the name and was expecting some like hair glam or thrash but nope lol. I like 80's metal a lot. Probably more of an 90's girl but that's just because that's my generation. I was always the...

Great idea Court! I got Tears for Fears - Everybody Wants to Rule the World so, so 80's I love it! I have heard the song before but I didn't know the name of it or who wrote it. I heard Tears for Fears and was like "Nice, sounds like a metal band!" LOL nope! Probably the most cliche 80's group...

WOW! Powerful video she put together. I really like the band that does the music for it. There name is Sixx AM. It's a side project of Nikki Sixx's. They have a really positive message about recovery from addiction. I listen to them a lot when I am struggling with my addictions.

Just like stupid stuff. I've been really lonely lately. I met a guy at the club and like I thought we really related to each other. I hung out with him a lot and took my time with things to. I started to like him and once he got some he took off. I feel really embarassed that I was played so...

Ugghhh really struggling

Paula, Thank you, it was really hard for a long time. I am in contact with one of the guys. We talk every 3 or 4 months or so. He lives back east and got a real job and cleaned up. It's nice to talk to him when I do. It reminds me of the old days and how it was. My other band mate I really...