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Ok, I know I am an infrequent visitor to this page, but that is because i have been very reluctant to face it. My psychiatrist tells me i am bipolar, but my psychologist tells me he's not so sure - but he sure treats me like I am. And now, i am on prednisone because of back pain and i am...

HI. I was just wondering if anyone else has crying jags for no apparent reason? I have been very well controlled for months and don't get down as much anymore. Actually am feeling good for the 1st time in a long time. The other day, I was talking to my psych on the phone - mainly small talk...

Hi everyone. I didn't really know where to post this, but since when I am on I am usually in this forum . . . here goes. I feel so overwhelmed. On the outside my life seems fine but on the inside I am dying. I am in so much inner turmoil and shame and anxiety and all that junk. I am a...

Hi! I have a question. My psychologist keeps telling me that once I get on an "even keel" I can possibly think about reducing meds or increasing the space between visits to him (weekly at present). Problem is, I have no idea what normal feels like. I have ultra rapid cycling bipolar with...

Hi! I'm not new to CF, but I am new to this forum. I was diagnosed yesterday as atypical bipolar. I must admit that diagnosis scares me. It was much easier to believe myself depressed and moody. Any advice? Thanks! TN

I bit the bullet and told my psychologist about my fall the other day. I still can't believe I told him. He did not walk away. He was upset - I think more disappointed and frustrated than anything and it just about killed me to see the pain and hurt in his eyes:( . I betrayed a...

I'm sorry to vent guys, but I just feel so alone right now. You all have therapists you trust and are able to be open with, but mine will absolutely kill me if I tell him. I can't handle losing him right now. It probably sounds really dependent or something, but I have been with him 5 years...

I just wanted to let everyone know I will be going on a week long retreat starting today and returning next Thursday evening. So don't worry if I don't post!! Please pray for me and I will be praying for you! In Him - TN

Hi! I was just wondering if anyone else who is trying to quit SI feels scared or nervous about the prospect of "never again"? I get terrified when others tell me to never cut again. I seem to do better with a statement like "just today - don't cut today". Anyone else feel this way?

I am faced with a really tough situation: my therapist (who I have been with on and off for 4 years) told me that I cannot cut again. He said NEVER AGAIN, that cutting was no longer acceptable for me, that if I cut, then I would be ending our relationship. I am scared to just quit cold...

I was just thinking about self injury and some of the ways it plays out for me. Does anyone else have the experience of injuring yourself in ways other than physical? I don't know if this is out of bounds for this forum, but I am curious to see if self injuring behavior is limited to the...

I have never been diagnosed with BPD but with what I read others describing I wonder. I self injure when overwhelmed, am extremely sensistive to looks and words, have mood shifts whenever something unforseen occurs, struggle a lot with abandonment issues (was abandonded frequently as a kid)...

I am so tired of the cutting but I am not sure I'm ready to let it go. THe other night I did it again after 5 weeks and I could have called others for help, but I didn't because I knew they'd stop me and I WANTED to do it. I didn't feel like I could make it through the situation without it...

Hi everyone. I have been really having a hard time not SIing lately. I want to cut a lot, but somehow I don't really want to once I see my "tools". It's like I can hear my therapist or friends saying - don't! Reach out - get support, call us! I am glad about that but that doesn't make it...

I was not raped, but I was sexually abused for several years, sexually assaulted several times as a teen, with the last time being at 20. I am in therapy, and have told him everything I remember, but I still feel like it looms over me. Will it ever go away? texannurse

HI everyone. I've been gone a while from this forum - been pretty upset with myself. I am still not ready to completely quit - I try and I try, but then things get too hard and I fall. Fell again last night. I had no one to talk to after a really stressful day and I turned to my "old friend"...

Just a question. I've been remembering (a lot) a situation that occured when I was 10 - being molested by my sister's friend (he was in his late 20s) and a later incidence of sexual assault (I was 19, he was in his 40s). I have tried to talk about it a couple of times, but I have been told it...

Hello. I am having a really hard day and I really want to hurt myself, but I know if I do it will be a real setback for me - it's been 5 weeks. I just don't know if I can keep on like this. I don't want to cut, but I don't know how else to deal with all this. Please help if you can.:(

Hi everyone! I have a question. I spend some time each day thinking about cutting - not doing it, just thinking about it. i don't want the thoughts - they are just there. It gets pretty frustrating because I don't know how I'll ever stop if I keep thinking about it. I wish I could turn off...

Hi. I am new here. Struggling with self injury and desperately wanting to get better. Any advice out there?