So this past week....

Well this week was my last week at camp, and I really have learned alot. I struggled with being attracted to guys there and just not getting anywheres. So this past week, I really feel that God has layed it upon my heart to take a vow of celibacy for 6 months. Meaning no boys for 6 months, just purly concentrating on God.

I feel He wants me to do this because guys are what totally stands between me getting closer with God. So I am from this day on, taking this vow for 6 months.

Now why am I posting this you may ask? BEcause I wanted to know if any of you have ever done this/in the process of doing this, if you have any advice for me.

ALso guys, if you have any scripture or good books that may help I am up for the reccomendation.

I realize how hard this is going to be. And I KNOW satan is going to tempt me, but I really feel this is what God wants me to do.

Thanks y'all!

Thanks guys..... that really helps.

However.... last ni ght, I was talking to my friend Mike, now we were seeing eachother durring the spring and he went away for a few months and then I went away for camp, so I finally got to talk to him, and he wants to see me Sunday night. (Now there is a whole big story behind it, he kinda broke my heart because he went out there and stopped talking to me, and then one day wondered why I was ignoring him.... while all the time I was trying to get ahold of him... anyways)

So now I am totally woried because you guys dont even understand how much I liked him. And now he wants to see me. Arg!! Like whats up with that? Its been only a few days and already satan is trying to get into this.... *cries*