Based on what authority do you feel you have to keep beating yourself up with your past mistakes? Does it say to do that in the Bible?
Guilt comes from the devil. Remorse comes from the Lord. He is really the one you need to apologize to. But once you’ve been sincere, and done that, he gets it. You you don’t have to act like he can’t hear well.
You can be remorseful indeed. You can even make reparations and ask for forgiveness where appropriate. you can pray for those whom you have hurt. You can pray for yourself!
Other than that, you need to be putting your thoughts on things of the Lord. Castigating yourself doesn’t do a bit of good to you, or anyone else, and can even be dangerous to your mental and physical health.
The devil wants you to keep tormenting yourself with guilt. That way you’re less effective for your heavenly father and his work. That way you’re not moving closer to your heavenly father.
The way to defeat the devil, is for one major way, to speak or sing the Word. Messiah defeated the devil, in the desert, simply by quoting Bible verses. When little Israel was being approached by great armies king Jehoshaphat sent out priests to sing praises before them. The enemies turned on one another, and all killed one another.
Paul and Silas got out of prison while singing, no doubt while singing praise songs.
David sang to king Saul to help give him relief from evil spirits.
You’ve got a choice. Stay on that hamster wheel with all those negative thoughts and feelings. Or get off by focusing instead, where the Lord wants you to focus, on his scriptures.
Thrre are scripture promises, videos, and scripture songs on YouTube, which you can favorite and listen to. They will not only give you relief from your torment, they will cause you to grow in stature and favor with the Almighty. Overtime if you are persistent.
Some good sources on YouTube are from Integrity Music
And Jump Start. Also, just type scripture promises into the subject space. Don’t just listen to the Word. Speak or sing along with it, and it will get much more deeply into your heart.
Then there is the Bible itself! Are you getting into it daily? There are many audios online that present it.
The devil is not going to leave you alone. He’s going to try to make you feel guilty and useless. But you have a weapon. The sword of the word. Life is a battle. Use your weapon. It will defeat him every time.
