I've been feeling, essentially, dead spiritually. Like God is up there, but there's this wall of glass between me and Him. It feels like too much work to get back to God, and so I just haven't been reading my Bible. I don't know if I've ever felt some kind of deep connection with God but I've been a Christian for over 10 years. Currently I just want to be sad and cry all the time and it feels like too much work to fix it. I just pray my regular prayers before meals and will throw up a quick prayer if I see a prayer request, but I don't feel alive and I don't feel content and I don't feel much joy in the Lord at all.