Have craving or urge to wear ex-wife ring on ring finger

These past couple of days, I want to put that ring in my finger. I'm not talking to my ex-wife and only wished her a happy birthday this year, and she did the same to me on my birthday (our birthday is just a few days apart in the month of March). I saw her once at Nature's Emporium but was too shy to approach her.

We divorced 8 years ago. I find it hard to believe I was ever married in the first place because I don't generally talk to any women period and don't deal with women and believe they don't like me, etc.... and have been tuning into all sorts of blackpill & incel content online that I have been in denial that any woman ever loved me and I was ever married. It is just hard to believe I was ever married and its like this ring it the only evidence against this delusion and I feel I must wear it, at least to remind myself that a woman did love me in the past enough to give me this, if nothing else?

I'll see if the craving to wear this ring goes away. I will acknowledge that I was married and won't deceive myself into thinking it never happened. Maybe if I "negotiate" my acknowledging a marriage took place in the past rather than feeling blackpilled, the craving will go away on its own.

returntosender said:

You need to feel better about yourself. You're God's child and he loves you. You are worthy. Start telling yourself that and keep a journal of your attributes and God's blessings. On you .

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That is not the issue.

The ring was placed on the ring finger. I showed it to my mother. She told me to take it off and stop living in a fantasy. I obeyed her and took it off and returned it. After all, the Bible says "Children, obey your parents in the Lord for this is right" (Eph 6:1). I'm 46 y/o BTW. Either way, her advise sounds right.

My ex-wife asked me if I loved her or my mother more. We are divorced now 8 years. I wrote a draft email to her explaining that I was putting her ring back on and encouraging her to do the same. Leaving everything alone.

returntosender said:

When you marry your wife becomes second in your life not your mother. You're 46.

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She's 84 years old. Who will take care of her if I don't?