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Hi everyone,


Today has been confusing and tough,and I need wise counsel to help solve it.I’m not speaking in terms of medical,but spiritual.

So for the longest time I’ve never been absolutely certain that Jesus is the son of God or that he rose from the grave.Though I’m clear on how dire a situation it is to have that solved,I have caught myself sometimes in the past focusing on the Christian life and not the requirements.

I don’t know why,but I just want to have absolute certainty that cannot be shaken that Jesus is the son and God in the flesh and he rose from the grave.I can’t sleep at night unless I have that solved.As I type this I’m crying in guilt because I’m afraid after years of “following Jesus” I’m afraid I’m not a true Christian to begin with.

I feel especially guilty because it doesn’t seem like I trust the Bible,I say this because I sometimes to believe something the Bible says,I have to get outside clarification,which to me sounds downright unbiblical.And it scares me to my core.Like for example,when I wasn’t sure if Jesus died on the cross,I had to look up records of non Christian accounts of people from the time that recorded it,like Josephus’s account of the incident.I feel incredibly guilty and scared in doing this.

But then more confusion comes in when I’ve experienced things that I claim to be given to Gods doing.Like me repenting of inappropriate contentography (which I’m uncertain was sheer effort or of the Holy Spirit) or the life I now live than I did when I was 11-14(which I’m scared is just maturity and not of the Holy Spirit).

I cannot express how worried I am to my core right now.I don’t know why I would reject the idea and belief Jesus is God in the flesh other than the idea of “it being illogical” which scares me,and of the resurrection “How can someone be raised from the grave?”.I hate asking questions like this,and feeling this way,I just wish God would crush these “held” beliefs down and just grant me faith!!!!!!!


I’m scared as to wether I’m still a lost unbeliever,or worse an apostate.I love all things of God,but scared I’m a deceived “believer” who thinks they believe but deep down don’t,or worse an “apostate” who still wants to hang on to belief.

I’m crying as I type this because of how scared of the possibility of me still being an enemy of God,and still under condemnation.

could someone please explain the fruits of the spirit?,and what I need to do,because I need God and I’m scared because of doubts about him.



I’m not an atheist nor agnostic,and it makes me especially guilty that I was raised in a Christian family and it would hurt me more than them to realize I’m a false believer.


Everytime I say to the Lord in “just in case prayers” “I believe Jesus is your son,who died in my place for my sins,and whom you arose from the grave”,I still have doubts in that statement.like I somehow believe I didn’t say it sincerely enough also scared at the fact that I’m somehow hiding I don’t believe.

To make matters worse,I’m pounded day after day with thoughts of statements that I have seen and heard unbelievers say to me.
like the following:

“Faith in God is based around fear”
“God is imaginary”
“The Bible is a fairy tale”

etc.Please everyone,I haven’t typed a post like this in a long time,especially a one where I’m crying every second of typing.

I refuse to ever accept atheism or agnosticism because I hate them.


I desire the hope the Lord can only provide.It seems like my mind keeps wanting to go back and focus and be attentive to the opinions of the world.It’s like I worry if they are right and I don’t want them to be-or heaven forbid, the alternative to that thought-that I somehow want them to be right and the Bible wrong.Which I would never voluntarily think.

I know that by the law shall no flesh be justified,and I am in no way relying on works to save me,but I have firmly kept the 10 commandments,and obeyed the commands of Christ,even repenting of thoughts and sins.I’m very scared also as to wether I’m simply going through a “Christianity phase” of my life and very very scared as to wether I’ll simply fall away someday.I do and obey the laws Christ said so that I know I’m saved,and want to produce the fruits.

Even if the Lord is desperately trying to help me to be assured if I am indeed saved,I can’t and have a very hard time remembering and discerning if miraculous things are simply “worldly luck” or works of the heavenly Holy Spirit.


I know faith in Jesus isn’t saying a prayer nor a profession stated “once saved always saved” statement.But a long lasting faith in Jesus.I don’t believe any other religion is the path to salvation,and I have reasons to defend that only Jesus is the way.I rely and trust Jesus is the only way to God.And That no other “religion”(I prefer to say relationship)is the way.

I’m also scared as to wether I’m the only one experiencing something like this,I’m not in a state of hardened unbelief,but when I say that I doubt and worry as to wether “what if I am?!” Or “am I lying?!” Or “am I just being in denial”.That’s another thing,I’m scared I’m just an “in denial” unbeliever,that’s a big scary thing for me.


That’s mega mega scary to me,that I’m just “an in denial unbeliever” that terrifies me.A statement like this cuts me to my core worried and hopeless

I’m even further worried that I’m not convinced I’m a sinner,I acknowledge it but I don’t feel any in depth conviction I am,and I don’t feel any in depth conviction for a savior.That scares me tremendously.

i am comforted by statements I’ve read on crosswalk.com, that say “you can only doubt what you already believe” but I can’t be assured unless I get the matters of “being firm and sure in what I believe about Jesus so I know I’m saved without a doubt”

I do admit,I have found one false teaching I’ve held onto,which is soul sleep,which k acknowledged and repented of

Overall,it’s a lot I know.I just want to be saved and sure,so I don’t have to live in fear that I’m still condemned living in a “in denial,deceived”state.:(
 
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I don’t know why,but I just want to have absolute certainty that cannot be shaken that Jesus is the son and God in the flesh and he rose from the grave.

Do you know what Jewish fishermen do?
They stay in Israel and they fish.
They don't do what they did.
Not unless they meet God and God gives them an awful lot of help.

You are young yet, but life will confirm humanity's need for a savior
Life will confirm a personal need for a savior
And when it does, the Bible will confirm
That there is one
 
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>could someone please explain the fruits of the spirit?

A tree is known by its fruits. The fruit of the Spirit is thing like compassion love and mercy and a desire for god. If you seek god I assure you that you are not wicked and that you have good fruit wicked people do not even consider God and go out of their way their entire lives to take people away from him.

I struggle with the same thing to a lesser extent. The words of others from all religions and non religious. A St.John said " I know that you are doubting, you have started this path, and everyone is against you"
 
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Hi everyone,


Today has been confusing and tough,and I need wise counsel to help solve it.I’m not speaking in terms of medical,but spiritual.

So for the longest time I’ve never been absolutely certain that Jesus is the son of God or that he rose from the grave.Though I’m clear on how dire a situation it is to have that solved,I have caught myself sometimes in the past focusing on the Christian life and not the requirements.

I don’t know why,but I just want to have absolute certainty that cannot be shaken that Jesus is the son and God in the flesh and he rose from the grave.I can’t sleep at night unless I have that solved.As I type this I’m crying in guilt because I’m afraid after years of “following Jesus” I’m afraid I’m not a true Christian to begin with.

I feel especially guilty because it doesn’t seem like I trust the Bible,I say this because I sometimes to believe something the Bible says,I have to get outside clarification,which to me sounds downright unbiblical.And it scares me to my core.Like for example,when I wasn’t sure if Jesus died on the cross,I had to look up records of non Christian accounts of people from the time that recorded it,like Josephus’s account of the incident.I feel incredibly guilty and scared in doing this.

But then more confusion comes in when I’ve experienced things that I claim to be given to Gods doing.Like me repenting of inappropriate contentography (which I’m uncertain was sheer effort or of the Holy Spirit) or the life I now live than I did when I was 11-14(which I’m scared is just maturity and not of the Holy Spirit).

I cannot express how worried I am to my core right now.I don’t know why I would reject the idea and belief Jesus is God in the flesh other than the idea of “it being illogical” which scares me,and of the resurrection “How can someone be raised from the grave?”.I hate asking questions like this,and feeling this way,I just wish God would crush these “held” beliefs down and just grant me faith!!!!!!!


I’m scared as to wether I’m still a lost unbeliever,or worse an apostate.I love all things of God,but scared I’m a deceived “believer” who thinks they believe but deep down don’t,or worse an “apostate” who still wants to hang on to belief.

I’m crying as I type this because of how scared of the possibility of me still being an enemy of God,and still under condemnation.

could someone please explain the fruits of the spirit?,and what I need to do,because I need God and I’m scared because of doubts about him.



I’m not an atheist nor agnostic,and it makes me especially guilty that I was raised in a Christian family and it would hurt me more than them to realize I’m a false believer.


Everytime I say to the Lord in “just in case prayers” “I believe Jesus is your son,who died in my place for my sins,and whom you arose from the grave”,I still have doubts in that statement.like I somehow believe I didn’t say it sincerely enough also scared at the fact that I’m somehow hiding I don’t believe.

To make matters worse,I’m pounded day after day with thoughts of statements that I have seen and heard unbelievers say to me.
like the following:

“Faith in God is based around fear”
“God is imaginary”
“The Bible is a fairy tale”

etc.Please everyone,I haven’t typed a post like this in a long time,especially a one where I’m crying every second of typing.

I refuse to ever accept atheism or agnosticism because I hate them.


I desire the hope the Lord can only provide.It seems like my mind keeps wanting to go back and focus and be attentive to the opinions of the world.It’s like I worry if they are right and I don’t want them to be-or heaven forbid, the alternative to that thought-that I somehow want them to be right and the Bible wrong.Which I would never voluntarily think.

I know that by the law shall no flesh be justified,and I am in no way relying on works to save me,but I have firmly kept the 10 commandments,and obeyed the commands of Christ,even repenting of thoughts and sins.I’m very scared also as to wether I’m simply going through a “Christianity phase” of my life and very very scared as to wether I’ll simply fall away someday.I do and obey the laws Christ said so that I know I’m saved,and want to produce the fruits.

Even if the Lord is desperately trying to help me to be assured if I am indeed saved,I can’t and have a very hard time remembering and discerning if miraculous things are simply “worldly luck” or works of the heavenly Holy Spirit.


I know faith in Jesus isn’t saying a prayer nor a profession stated “once saved always saved” statement.But a long lasting faith in Jesus.I don’t believe any other religion is the path to salvation,and I have reasons to defend that only Jesus is the way.I rely and trust Jesus is the only way to God.And That no other “religion”(I prefer to say relationship)is the way.

I’m also scared as to wether I’m the only one experiencing something like this,I’m not in a state of hardened unbelief,but when I say that I doubt and worry as to wether “what if I am?!” Or “am I lying?!” Or “am I just being in denial”.That’s another thing,I’m scared I’m just an “in denial” unbeliever,that’s a big scary thing for me.


That’s mega mega scary to me,that I’m just “an in denial unbeliever” that terrifies me.A statement like this cuts me to my core worried and hopeless

I’m even further worried that I’m not convinced I’m a sinner,I acknowledge it but I don’t feel any in depth conviction I am,and I don’t feel any in depth conviction for a savior.That scares me tremendously.

i am comforted by statements I’ve read on crosswalk.com, that say “you can only doubt what you already believe” but I can’t be assured unless I get the matters of “being firm and sure in what I believe about Jesus so I know I’m saved without a doubt”

I do admit,I have found one false teaching I’ve held onto,which is soul sleep,which k acknowledged and repented of

Overall,it’s a lot I know.I just want to be saved and sure,so I don’t have to live in fear that I’m still condemned living in a “in denial,deceived”state.:(
Jesus said that we have Moses and the Prophets and that is all we need to provide the foundation for our faith. We also have the Gospels and the Letters. Everything that we need to base our faith on is there. If the Bible tells us that Jesus is the Son of God and that He rose from the dead, then all we have to do is to believe it to be true.

Faith comes by hearing God's Word. That means that it comes by reading the Bible out loud. If you want to know the will of God, read the Bible. If you want to do the will of God, do the Bible!
 
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Hi everyone,


Today has been confusing and tough,and I need wise counsel to help solve it.I’m not speaking in terms of medical,but spiritual.

So for the longest time I’ve never been absolutely certain that Jesus is the son of God or that he rose from the grave.Though I’m clear on how dire a situation it is to have that solved,I have caught myself sometimes in the past focusing on the Christian life and not the requirements.

I don’t know why,but I just want to have absolute certainty that cannot be shaken that Jesus is the son and God in the flesh and he rose from the grave.I can’t sleep at night unless I have that solved.As I type this I’m crying in guilt because I’m afraid after years of “following Jesus” I’m afraid I’m not a true Christian to begin with.

I feel especially guilty because it doesn’t seem like I trust the Bible,I say this because I sometimes to believe something the Bible says,I have to get outside clarification,which to me sounds downright unbiblical.And it scares me to my core.Like for example,when I wasn’t sure if Jesus died on the cross,I had to look up records of non Christian accounts of people from the time that recorded it,like Josephus’s account of the incident.I feel incredibly guilty and scared in doing this.

But then more confusion comes in when I’ve experienced things that I claim to be given to Gods doing.Like me repenting of inappropriate contentography (which I’m uncertain was sheer effort or of the Holy Spirit) or the life I now live than I did when I was 11-14(which I’m scared is just maturity and not of the Holy Spirit).

I cannot express how worried I am to my core right now.I don’t know why I would reject the idea and belief Jesus is God in the flesh other than the idea of “it being illogical” which scares me,and of the resurrection “How can someone be raised from the grave?”.I hate asking questions like this,and feeling this way,I just wish God would crush these “held” beliefs down and just grant me faith!!!!!!!


I’m scared as to wether I’m still a lost unbeliever,or worse an apostate.I love all things of God,but scared I’m a deceived “believer” who thinks they believe but deep down don’t,or worse an “apostate” who still wants to hang on to belief.

I’m crying as I type this because of how scared of the possibility of me still being an enemy of God,and still under condemnation.

could someone please explain the fruits of the spirit?,and what I need to do,because I need God and I’m scared because of doubts about him.



I’m not an atheist nor agnostic,and it makes me especially guilty that I was raised in a Christian family and it would hurt me more than them to realize I’m a false believer.


Everytime I say to the Lord in “just in case prayers” “I believe Jesus is your son,who died in my place for my sins,and whom you arose from the grave”,I still have doubts in that statement.like I somehow believe I didn’t say it sincerely enough also scared at the fact that I’m somehow hiding I don’t believe.

To make matters worse,I’m pounded day after day with thoughts of statements that I have seen and heard unbelievers say to me.
like the following:

“Faith in God is based around fear”
“God is imaginary”
“The Bible is a fairy tale”

etc.Please everyone,I haven’t typed a post like this in a long time,especially a one where I’m crying every second of typing.

I refuse to ever accept atheism or agnosticism because I hate them.


I desire the hope the Lord can only provide.It seems like my mind keeps wanting to go back and focus and be attentive to the opinions of the world.It’s like I worry if they are right and I don’t want them to be-or heaven forbid, the alternative to that thought-that I somehow want them to be right and the Bible wrong.Which I would never voluntarily think.

I know that by the law shall no flesh be justified,and I am in no way relying on works to save me,but I have firmly kept the 10 commandments,and obeyed the commands of Christ,even repenting of thoughts and sins.I’m very scared also as to wether I’m simply going through a “Christianity phase” of my life and very very scared as to wether I’ll simply fall away someday.I do and obey the laws Christ said so that I know I’m saved,and want to produce the fruits.

Even if the Lord is desperately trying to help me to be assured if I am indeed saved,I can’t and have a very hard time remembering and discerning if miraculous things are simply “worldly luck” or works of the heavenly Holy Spirit.


I know faith in Jesus isn’t saying a prayer nor a profession stated “once saved always saved” statement.But a long lasting faith in Jesus.I don’t believe any other religion is the path to salvation,and I have reasons to defend that only Jesus is the way.I rely and trust Jesus is the only way to God.And That no other “religion”(I prefer to say relationship)is the way.

I’m also scared as to wether I’m the only one experiencing something like this,I’m not in a state of hardened unbelief,but when I say that I doubt and worry as to wether “what if I am?!” Or “am I lying?!” Or “am I just being in denial”.That’s another thing,I’m scared I’m just an “in denial” unbeliever,that’s a big scary thing for me.


That’s mega mega scary to me,that I’m just “an in denial unbeliever” that terrifies me.A statement like this cuts me to my core worried and hopeless

I’m even further worried that I’m not convinced I’m a sinner,I acknowledge it but I don’t feel any in depth conviction I am,and I don’t feel any in depth conviction for a savior.That scares me tremendously.

i am comforted by statements I’ve read on crosswalk.com, that say “you can only doubt what you already believe” but I can’t be assured unless I get the matters of “being firm and sure in what I believe about Jesus so I know I’m saved without a doubt”

I do admit,I have found one false teaching I’ve held onto,which is soul sleep,which k acknowledged and repented of

Overall,it’s a lot I know.I just want to be saved and sure,so I don’t have to live in fear that I’m still condemned living in a “in denial,deceived”state.:(

As I read your post I could feel how you’re feeling, because I‘ve been there too.
I think it is important to understand that all our lives we will have struggles and battles to believe the whole truth.
If you look in the Scriptures you will find men of God, who had the same battles.
There comes this passage from John 14 to my mind, where Philip has his doubts about Jesus.

„Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.” Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work.“
‭‭John‬ ‭14:8-10‬

Philip had his troubles fully believing, although he has been with our Savior for some time and seen signs and wonders. Jesus didn’t reject him because he was still doubtful, no. Rather His reaction to Philips unbelief was to just encourage him. Jesus knew that it is normal for us mortals to question the immortal world. That‘s why we rely on Him to help us grow in our faith.

The very fact that you‘re still searching and trying to find a deeper understanding of God and your relationship to Him, is proof enough that you are on the right path. You are most certainly not
an in denial unbeliever
because you are bringing your fears before the very cause of your faith, God.
So don‘t give up and fight to the end.

Be blessed,

Manno
 
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Hi everyone,


Today has been confusing and tough,and I need wise counsel to help solve it.I’m not speaking in terms of medical,but spiritual.

So for the longest time I’ve never been absolutely certain that Jesus is the son of God or that he rose from the grave.Though I’m clear on how dire a situation it is to have that solved,I have caught myself sometimes in the past focusing on the Christian life and not the requirements.

I don’t know why,but I just want to have absolute certainty that cannot be shaken that Jesus is the son and God in the flesh and he rose from the grave.I can’t sleep at night unless I have that solved.As I type this I’m crying in guilt because I’m afraid after years of “following Jesus” I’m afraid I’m not a true Christian to begin with.

I feel especially guilty because it doesn’t seem like I trust the Bible,I say this because I sometimes to believe something the Bible says,I have to get outside clarification,which to me sounds downright unbiblical.And it scares me to my core.Like for example,when I wasn’t sure if Jesus died on the cross,I had to look up records of non Christian accounts of people from the time that recorded it,like Josephus’s account of the incident.I feel incredibly guilty and scared in doing this.

But then more confusion comes in when I’ve experienced things that I claim to be given to Gods doing.Like me repenting of inappropriate contentography (which I’m uncertain was sheer effort or of the Holy Spirit) or the life I now live than I did when I was 11-14(which I’m scared is just maturity and not of the Holy Spirit).

I cannot express how worried I am to my core right now.I don’t know why I would reject the idea and belief Jesus is God in the flesh other than the idea of “it being illogical” which scares me,and of the resurrection “How can someone be raised from the grave?”.I hate asking questions like this,and feeling this way,I just wish God would crush these “held” beliefs down and just grant me faith!!!!!!!


I’m scared as to wether I’m still a lost unbeliever,or worse an apostate.I love all things of God,but scared I’m a deceived “believer” who thinks they believe but deep down don’t,or worse an “apostate” who still wants to hang on to belief.

I’m crying as I type this because of how scared of the possibility of me still being an enemy of God,and still under condemnation.

could someone please explain the fruits of the spirit?,and what I need to do,because I need God and I’m scared because of doubts about him.



I’m not an atheist nor agnostic,and it makes me especially guilty that I was raised in a Christian family and it would hurt me more than them to realize I’m a false believer.


Everytime I say to the Lord in “just in case prayers” “I believe Jesus is your son,who died in my place for my sins,and whom you arose from the grave”,I still have doubts in that statement.like I somehow believe I didn’t say it sincerely enough also scared at the fact that I’m somehow hiding I don’t believe.

To make matters worse,I’m pounded day after day with thoughts of statements that I have seen and heard unbelievers say to me.
like the following:

“Faith in God is based around fear”
“God is imaginary”
“The Bible is a fairy tale”

etc.Please everyone,I haven’t typed a post like this in a long time,especially a one where I’m crying every second of typing.

I refuse to ever accept atheism or agnosticism because I hate them.


I desire the hope the Lord can only provide.It seems like my mind keeps wanting to go back and focus and be attentive to the opinions of the world.It’s like I worry if they are right and I don’t want them to be-or heaven forbid, the alternative to that thought-that I somehow want them to be right and the Bible wrong.Which I would never voluntarily think.

I know that by the law shall no flesh be justified,and I am in no way relying on works to save me,but I have firmly kept the 10 commandments,and obeyed the commands of Christ,even repenting of thoughts and sins.I’m very scared also as to wether I’m simply going through a “Christianity phase” of my life and very very scared as to wether I’ll simply fall away someday.I do and obey the laws Christ said so that I know I’m saved,and want to produce the fruits.

Even if the Lord is desperately trying to help me to be assured if I am indeed saved,I can’t and have a very hard time remembering and discerning if miraculous things are simply “worldly luck” or works of the heavenly Holy Spirit.


I know faith in Jesus isn’t saying a prayer nor a profession stated “once saved always saved” statement.But a long lasting faith in Jesus.I don’t believe any other religion is the path to salvation,and I have reasons to defend that only Jesus is the way.I rely and trust Jesus is the only way to God.And That no other “religion”(I prefer to say relationship)is the way.

I’m also scared as to wether I’m the only one experiencing something like this,I’m not in a state of hardened unbelief,but when I say that I doubt and worry as to wether “what if I am?!” Or “am I lying?!” Or “am I just being in denial”.That’s another thing,I’m scared I’m just an “in denial” unbeliever,that’s a big scary thing for me.


That’s mega mega scary to me,that I’m just “an in denial unbeliever” that terrifies me.A statement like this cuts me to my core worried and hopeless

I’m even further worried that I’m not convinced I’m a sinner,I acknowledge it but I don’t feel any in depth conviction I am,and I don’t feel any in depth conviction for a savior.That scares me tremendously.

i am comforted by statements I’ve read on crosswalk.com, that say “you can only doubt what you already believe” but I can’t be assured unless I get the matters of “being firm and sure in what I believe about Jesus so I know I’m saved without a doubt”

I do admit,I have found one false teaching I’ve held onto,which is soul sleep,which k acknowledged and repented of

Overall,it’s a lot I know.I just want to be saved and sure,so I don’t have to live in fear that I’m still condemned living in a “in denial,deceived”state.:(

if you could sum up all these questions into one what would it be ?
 
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Hi everyone,


Today has been confusing and tough,and I need wise counsel to help solve it.I’m not speaking in terms of medical,but spiritual.

So for the longest time I’ve never been absolutely certain that Jesus is the son of God or that he rose from the grave.Though I’m clear on how dire a situation it is to have that solved,I have caught myself sometimes in the past focusing on the Christian life and not the requirements.

I don’t know why,but I just want to have absolute certainty that cannot be shaken that Jesus is the son and God in the flesh and he rose from the grave.I can’t sleep at night unless I have that solved.As I type this I’m crying in guilt because I’m afraid after years of “following Jesus” I’m afraid I’m not a true Christian to begin with.

I feel especially guilty because it doesn’t seem like I trust the Bible,I say this because I sometimes to believe something the Bible says,I have to get outside clarification,which to me sounds downright unbiblical.And it scares me to my core.Like for example,when I wasn’t sure if Jesus died on the cross,I had to look up records of non Christian accounts of people from the time that recorded it,like Josephus’s account of the incident.I feel incredibly guilty and scared in doing this.

But then more confusion comes in when I’ve experienced things that I claim to be given to Gods doing.Like me repenting of inappropriate contentography (which I’m uncertain was sheer effort or of the Holy Spirit) or the life I now live than I did when I was 11-14(which I’m scared is just maturity and not of the Holy Spirit).

I cannot express how worried I am to my core right now.I don’t know why I would reject the idea and belief Jesus is God in the flesh other than the idea of “it being illogical” which scares me,and of the resurrection “How can someone be raised from the grave?”.I hate asking questions like this,and feeling this way,I just wish God would crush these “held” beliefs down and just grant me faith!!!!!!!


I’m scared as to wether I’m still a lost unbeliever,or worse an apostate.I love all things of God,but scared I’m a deceived “believer” who thinks they believe but deep down don’t,or worse an “apostate” who still wants to hang on to belief.

I’m crying as I type this because of how scared of the possibility of me still being an enemy of God,and still under condemnation.

could someone please explain the fruits of the spirit?,and what I need to do,because I need God and I’m scared because of doubts about him.



I’m not an atheist nor agnostic,and it makes me especially guilty that I was raised in a Christian family and it would hurt me more than them to realize I’m a false believer.


Everytime I say to the Lord in “just in case prayers” “I believe Jesus is your son,who died in my place for my sins,and whom you arose from the grave”,I still have doubts in that statement.like I somehow believe I didn’t say it sincerely enough also scared at the fact that I’m somehow hiding I don’t believe.

To make matters worse,I’m pounded day after day with thoughts of statements that I have seen and heard unbelievers say to me.
like the following:

“Faith in God is based around fear”
“God is imaginary”
“The Bible is a fairy tale”

etc.Please everyone,I haven’t typed a post like this in a long time,especially a one where I’m crying every second of typing.

I refuse to ever accept atheism or agnosticism because I hate them.


I desire the hope the Lord can only provide.It seems like my mind keeps wanting to go back and focus and be attentive to the opinions of the world.It’s like I worry if they are right and I don’t want them to be-or heaven forbid, the alternative to that thought-that I somehow want them to be right and the Bible wrong.Which I would never voluntarily think.

I know that by the law shall no flesh be justified,and I am in no way relying on works to save me,but I have firmly kept the 10 commandments,and obeyed the commands of Christ,even repenting of thoughts and sins.I’m very scared also as to wether I’m simply going through a “Christianity phase” of my life and very very scared as to wether I’ll simply fall away someday.I do and obey the laws Christ said so that I know I’m saved,and want to produce the fruits.

Even if the Lord is desperately trying to help me to be assured if I am indeed saved,I can’t and have a very hard time remembering and discerning if miraculous things are simply “worldly luck” or works of the heavenly Holy Spirit.


I know faith in Jesus isn’t saying a prayer nor a profession stated “once saved always saved” statement.But a long lasting faith in Jesus.I don’t believe any other religion is the path to salvation,and I have reasons to defend that only Jesus is the way.I rely and trust Jesus is the only way to God.And That no other “religion”(I prefer to say relationship)is the way.

I’m also scared as to wether I’m the only one experiencing something like this,I’m not in a state of hardened unbelief,but when I say that I doubt and worry as to wether “what if I am?!” Or “am I lying?!” Or “am I just being in denial”.That’s another thing,I’m scared I’m just an “in denial” unbeliever,that’s a big scary thing for me.


That’s mega mega scary to me,that I’m just “an in denial unbeliever” that terrifies me.A statement like this cuts me to my core worried and hopeless

I’m even further worried that I’m not convinced I’m a sinner,I acknowledge it but I don’t feel any in depth conviction I am,and I don’t feel any in depth conviction for a savior.That scares me tremendously.

i am comforted by statements I’ve read on crosswalk.com, that say “you can only doubt what you already believe” but I can’t be assured unless I get the matters of “being firm and sure in what I believe about Jesus so I know I’m saved without a doubt”

I do admit,I have found one false teaching I’ve held onto,which is soul sleep,which k acknowledged and repented of

Overall,it’s a lot I know.I just want to be saved and sure,so I don’t have to live in fear that I’m still condemned living in a “in denial,deceived”state.:(
Before I was a Christian, I had no doubt that I was a Christian. I signed up for the military. In those days, it was mandatory to tell them your religion. It would not be nice to have the wrong kind of funeral, after all. So I put down "C of E" which is all that I knew apart from Catholic.

I was born again about four years after I joined the armed forces. The first thing that had to happen was my self-delusion had to be dispelled. I was not a Christian and I was destined for eternal damnation. I accepted Christ and realised that my sins were all forgiven. That was a wonderful day.

A little while later, the attacks began. With me, it was about behavior. I had a lot of problems and Satan gleefully pointed them out. Eventually I learned to put my faith in facts, not feelings.

The reality is Jesus is a real Person, He really lived, really died and really rose again. Your salvation depends on what Lord Jesus has done for you already. We can trust a doctor if he prescribes a pill. We expect the boss to pay our wages. If we buy a house, we move in and act as if it were ours. We take all kinds of things on trust. There is always a basis for trust. We have a prescription from the doctor, we have a bill of sale for the house.

There is always a possibility of error in worldly things. There is no such possibility in the things of God. He has promised. He is faithful. As a friend used to tell me, "doubt your doubts!" I suggest that you read the gospel of John for the next few months or until you are convinced that Jesus is who He claims to be. Build your Christian life on the Rock, who is is Christ. Let nothing move you away from truth.
 
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could someone please explain the fruits of the spirit?
God's word says that the "fruit" of the Holy Spirit is >

"love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control," in Galatians 5:22-23.

I have learned that this is not nine different "fruits", but description of the character of Jesus growing in us as our new inner Person. It is all one "fruit" . . . like how an apple is sweet, juicy, with a nice unique flavor, nutritious, crispy > all true of the one fruit.

So, you become this, by means of Jesus growing in you. And so, yes, it is wise to put away anti-love things like inappropriate content and hating and arguing and complaining > Philippians 2:13-16. And simply trust God to do this in us. Yes, you are right to make an issue about any way you have tried to make things happen, yourself.

I’m not an atheist nor agnostic,and it makes me especially guilty that I was raised in a Christian family and it would hurt me more than them to realize I’m a false believer.
Possibly Christians who know you personally are not concerned only with what label to put on you, but we love you and care about you, and we trust God to know how you really are and to do all He is able to do.

To make matters worse,I’m pounded day after day with thoughts of statements that I have seen and heard unbelievers say to me.
like the following:

“Faith in God is based around fear”
“God is imaginary”
“The Bible is a fairy tale”
It is right not to believe only because of fear . . . especially if fear is being used by wrong people to control you.

God is quiet, and the problem of a lot of people is how they have a lot of noisy stuff going on in their heads; and so they do not hear and experience and enjoy God > they are their own main problem, then.

You can see how well what they do is working. They can say who or whatever is a fairy tale . . . while they do what does not work. A basic I think I am seeing is how worldly people have deep nasty awful stuff which is driving them to seek pleasure and excitement so they don't feel their own nasty stuff of sin. And they lie to themselves, about Jesus . . . while also misleading themselves to try to solve their deep trouble in ways that do not work.

"'Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.'" (Matthew 11:29)
 
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So for the longest time I’ve never been absolutely certain that Jesus is the son of God or that he rose from the grave.Though I’m clear on how dire a situation it is to have that solved,I have caught myself sometimes in the past focusing on the Christian life and not the requirements.

I don’t know why,but I just want to have absolute certainty that cannot be shaken that Jesus is the son and God in the flesh and he rose from the grave.I can’t sleep at night unless I have that solved.As I type this I’m crying in guilt because I’m afraid after years of “following Jesus” I’m afraid I’m not a true Christian to begin with.

You have a lot of...drama in your life. Lots of fears and tears. And nothing you've been doing seems to be resolving this unpleasant drama. Strange as it is, some people come to need the drama, they even come to like it. They claim to want freedom from the exhausting emotional extremity of their living but continue endlessly in it because it has become the norm, familiar, and so it has become comfortable. Is this you? Do you really want to be free of your fears and tears?

As you've been told before, fear of the sort you're describing isn't from God but from Self, from the person you are apart from God, that is always radically self-interested. Paul the apostle called this person the "old man" or, in the lingo of theologians, the "Adamic nature." This "old man" is pathologically self-centered, destructively sold out to serving him (or her) self. The "old man" is focused on the flesh, on its various impulses; it is short-sighted, looking mainly at the here-and-now rather than the eternity to come, wanting as much instant gratification as possible; it is prideful, desiring attention and praise; it is contentious, fearful, and controlling. As God's word says, the "Old Man," the unregenerate, Adamic, carnal nature we possess naturally is so bad, so selfish, that God can do nothing with it but to put it to death. (Romans 6:6; Romans 7:18; Romans 8:5-8; Galatians 5:17; Philippians 3:18-19)

Why am I telling you all this? Because it is from the Old Man, your old, Adamic, carnal nature that your fears and distress are coming. Really, the situation you're in - and I'm speaking from personal experience here - is that you don't love God as you ought because you are full of Self-love. This Self-love is so excessive, so inordinate, that it wants to be protected even from God, the One who is Love, who sent His only Son to die for you, who holds out to you joy and peace in reconciliation with Himself. Even from this incredible, loving, faithful, merciful Person, your Old Man wants to be protected. Why? Because to walk with this Person, to enjoy Him fully, the Old Man has to die. (Romans 6:6; Galatians 2:20; Galatians 5:24; Colossians 2:11-13; Colossians 3:1-4)

God will not be other than He is: God. He does not share the top spot with anyone. This is true in the universe in general and in your life in particular. To walk with God is to walk with Him as His servant, His vessel, a branch in the Vine, The Good Shepherd's sheep, an inferior with his Superior. This is how God made you to live; you were created by Him to be His bond-slave. (Romans 6:13-22; John 15:4-5; John 10:11-15; 2 Timothy 2:20-21) Living as such is the best way to live.

But Self, the Old Man, wants to stand in God's place, to rule, and be praised, and constantly gratified. As Self rules, it becomes increasingly occupied with maintaining and expanding its rule which is reflected, in part, in a desire to control everything, to bring all within its sphere under its power, serving its desires to be comfortable, and safe, and gratified.

God puts a very big crimp in the goals of Self. He can't be brought under the power of Self. Worse, He's out to put the Old Man, Self, to death! And if we don't allow Him to, the eternal consequences of such a choice are very dire. God doesn't flex on these things; He loves us enough to absolutely refuse the destructive reign of Self; He knows the wonderful life He has made us for cannot be attained so long as the Old Man rules. And to show us He can be trusted, that He loves us with an everlasting, mind-blowing love, He took on flesh and died in atonement for our sin. As our Savior, our greatest Friend, and our Creator, He says to us, "Come to me. I will give you rest. I will free you from the death-dealing, sinful, fearful tyranny of your Old Man."

Every day you pass through mired in fear and guilt, sleepless, and weeping in terror of God, you are simply demonstrating that Self sits on the throne of your heart rather than God. You want perfect certainty of your adoption into God's family precisely because you don't have the joy and confidence that comes naturally from having Him ruling over you. You're afraid for your salvation because the love and peace of God has not yet filled you, settling you firmly and joyfully in your membership in His family. And this is so, because Self is still the Boss.

The life of Christ, though, only comes to you through death. As you, by faith, reckon your Old Man to be nailed to Christ's cross (Romans 6:6), held powerless there, and as you submit yourself to God, to His will and way throughout each day (Romans 6:13-22), the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Christ (Romans 8:9), will fill you, imparting to you the love, joy and peace that He is, dissolving your fear and guilt. This is the only way to be truly free of the misery under which you labor as you serve your Old Man.

I feel especially guilty because it doesn’t seem like I trust the Bible,I say this because I sometimes to believe something the Bible says,I have to get outside clarification,which to me sounds downright unbiblical.And it scares me to my core.

This sort of "clarification" is only necessary because you don't yet have a daily experience of the Holy Spirit who convicts, teaches, strengthens, comforts, transforms and disciplines all who are his. And this is so, because you aren't letting him rule your heart, your mind and will, uncontested. It won't ever be mere facts that free you from your fear and doubt but a direct, personal experience of God that comes only through your consistent, persistent surrender to Him. (Romans 6:13-22; Romans 8:14; Romans 12:1; James 4:7; 1 Peter 5:6, etc.)

I cannot express how worried I am to my core right now.I don’t know why I would reject the idea and belief Jesus is God in the flesh other than the idea of “it being illogical” which scares me,and of the resurrection “How can someone be raised from the grave?”.I hate asking questions like this,and feeling this way,I just wish God would crush these “held” beliefs down and just grant me faith!!!!!!!

God will never make a puppet of you. Never. He wants a love-relationship with you, first and foremost, and that cannot be if God is simply over-riding you, compelling you, re-writing your "code," so you want His will and way. (Matthew 22:36-38; 1 John 4:16-19) God intends you to grow in your relationship with Him, to move from a stumbling, weak walk with Him to running and leaping powerfully in service to His will. But this won't ever happen in a single instant, God just zapping you into spiritual maturity, into a stable, strong, confident relationship with Him in a moment. Instead, He looks at every turn to your consent to His progressive transformation of you, which you give each time you yield yourself again to His will and way.

I love all things of God

No, brother, you don't. You betray this fact by the fear under which you seem constantly to operate. When you really do love God, when you truly settle into the truth of His great love for you, and allow that love to expand within you over time, fear cannot remain:

1 John 4:16-18
16 So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.
17 By this is love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because as he is so also are we in this world.
18 There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.


I'm not saying you have no love whatever for God; I'm pointing out that what love for Him you do have is presently eclipsed, or overrun, by love of Self. And so long as this is so, your love for God cannot grow and overtake all else in your life as He intends it should, freeing you from fear, and guilt, and doubt.

I’m also scared as to wether I’m the only one experiencing something like this,I’m not in a state of hardened unbelief,but when I say that I doubt and worry as to wether “what if I am?!” Or “am I lying?!” Or “am I just being in denial”.That’s another thing,I’m scared I’m just an “in denial” unbeliever,that’s a big scary thing for me.


That’s mega mega scary to me,that I’m just “an in denial unbeliever” that terrifies me.A statement like this cuts me to my core worried and hopeless

One of the simplest and best maneuvers the devil uses on us is to get us to look at the wrong thing. He knows that God has made us to be conformed to the things upon which we focus ourselves. And so, he works to shift our attention away from Christ, the great Lover of our soul, our Saviour and Friend, to ourselves, to our fears, and doubts, and sin - to anything but God (games, movies, inappropriate content, friends, hobbies, careers, etc.). When our minds are occupied with such things, there is no room for consideration of God. And so long as we are distracted by things that are not God, we cannot be conformed to Him, to His will and way. It isn't for no reason we are told in God's word to "look unto Jesus," to "consider him," to "behold his glory." (Hebrews 12:2-3; 2 Corinthians 3:18)

Who do you think you'll be as you stare constantly at your fears, massage them into massive terrors, stroking your guilt and doubt, by your attention to them, enlarging them out of all proportion? No one ever became like Christ, no one ever came to enjoy him deeply, by gawking and clutching at the darkness of sin and death.

Philippians 4:8-9
8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.
9 What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.

 
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You have a lot of...drama in your life. Lots of fears and tears. And nothing you've been doing seems to be resolving this unpleasant drama. Strange as it is, some people come to need the drama, they even come to like it. They claim to want from freedom from the exhausting emotional extremity of their living but continue endlessly in it because it has become the norm, familiar, and so it has become comfortable. Is this you? Do you really want to be free of your fears and tears?

As you've been told before, fear of the sort you're describing isn't from God but from Self, from the person you are apart from God, that is always radically self-interested. Paul the apostle called this person the "old man" or, in the lingo of theologians, the "Adamic nature." This "old man" is pathologically self-centered, destructively sold out to serving him (or her) self. The "old man" is focused on the flesh, on its various impulses; it is short-sighted, looking mainly at the here-and-now rather than the eternity to come, wanting as much instant gratification as possible; it is prideful, desiring attention and praise; it is contentious, fearful, and controlling. As God's word says, the "Old Man," the unregenerate, Adamic, carnal nature we possess naturally is so bad, so selfish, that God can do nothing with it but to put it to death. (Romans 6:6; Romans 7:18; Romans 8:5-8; Galatians 5:17; Philippians 3:18-19)

Why am I telling you all this? Because it is from the Old Man, your old, Adamic, carnal nature that your fears and distress are coming. Really, the situation you're in - and I'm speaking from personal experience here - is that you don't love God as you ought because you are full of Self-love. This Self-love is so excessive, so inordinate, that it wants to be protected even from God, the One who is Love, who sent His only Son to die for you, who holds out to you joy and peace in reconciliation with Himself. Even from this incredible, loving, faithful, merciful Person, your Old Man wants to be protected. Why? Because to walk with this Person, to enjoy Him fully, the Old Man has to die. (Romans 6:6; Galatians 2:20; Galatians 5:24; Colossians 2:11-13; Colossians 3:1-4)

God will not be other than He is: God. He does not share the top spot with anyone. This is true in the universe in general and in your life in particular. To walk with God is to walk with Him as His servant, His vessel, a branch in the Vine, The Good Shepherd's sheep, an inferior with his Superior. This is how God made you to live; you were created by Him to be His bond-slave. (Romans 6:13-22; John 15:4-5; John 10:11-15; 2 Timothy 2:20-21) Living as such is the best way to live.

But Self, the Old Man, wants to stand in God's place, to rule, and be praised, and constantly gratified. As Self rules, it becomes increasingly occupied with maintaining and expanding its rule which is reflected, in part, in a desire to control everything, to bring all within its sphere under its power, serving its desires to be comfortable, and safe, and gratified.

God puts a very big crimp in the goals of Self. He can't be brought under the power of Self. Worse, He's out to put the Old Man, Self, to death! And if we don't allow Him to, the eternal consequences of such a choice are very dire. God doesn't flex on these things; He loves us enough to absolutely refuse the destructive reign of Self; He knows the wonderful life He has made us for cannot be attained so long as the Old Man rules. And to show us He can be trusted, that He loves us with an everlasting, mind-blowing love, He took on flesh and died in atonement for our sin. As our Savior, our greatest Friend, and our Creator, He says to us, "Come to me. I will give you rest. I will free you from the death-dealing, sinful, fearful tyranny of your Old Man."

Every day you pass through mired in fear and guilt, sleepless, and weeping in terror of God, you are simply demonstrating that Self sits on the throne of your heart rather than God. You want perfect certainty of your adoption into God's family precisely because you don't have the joy and confidence that comes naturally from having Him ruling over you. You're afraid for your salvation because the love and peace of God has not yet filled you, settling you firmly and joyfully in your membership in His family. And this is so, because Self is still the Boss.

The life of Christ, though, only comes to you through death. As you, by faith, reckon your Old Man to be nailed to Christ's cross (Romans 6:6), held powerless there, and as you submit yourself to God, to His will and way throughout each day (Romans 6:13-22), the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Christ (Romans 8:9), will fill you, imparting to you the love, joy and peace that He is, dissolving your fear and guilt. This is the only way to be truly free of the misery under which you labor as you serve your Old Man.



This sort of "clarification" is only necessary because you don't yet have a daily experience of the Holy Spirit who convicts, teaches, strengthens, comforts, transforms and disciplines all who are his. And this is so, because you aren't letting him rule your heart, your mind and will, uncontested. It won't ever be mere facts that free you from your fear and doubt but a direct, personal experience of God that comes only through your consistent, persistent surrender to Him. (Romans 6:13-22; Romans 8:14; Romans 12:1; James 4:7; 1 Peter 5:6, etc.)



God will never make a puppet of you. Never. He wants a love-relationship with you, first and foremost, and that cannot be if God is simply over-riding you, compelling you, re-writing your "code," so you want His will and way. (Matthew 22:36-38; 1 John 4:16-19) God intends you to grow in your relationship with Him, to move from a stumbling, weak walk with Him to running and leaping powerfully in service to His will. But this won't ever happen in a single instant, God just zapping you into spiritual maturity, into a stable, strong, confident relationship with Him in a moment. Instead, He looks at every turn to your consent to His progressive transformation of you, which you give each time you yield yourself again to His will and way.



No, brother, you don't. You betray this fact by the fear under which you seem constantly to operate. When you really do love God, when you truly settle into the truth of His great love for you, and allow that love to expand within you over time, fear cannot remain:

1 John 4:16-18
16 So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.
17 By this is love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because as he is so also are we in this world.
18 There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.


I'm not saying you have no love whatever for God; I'm pointing out that what love for Him you do have is presently eclipsed, or overrun, by love of Self. And so long as this is so, your love for God cannot grow and overtake all else in your life as He intends it should, freeing your from fear, and guilt, and doubt.



One of the simplest and best maneuvers the devil uses on us is to get us to look at the wrong thing. He knows that God has made us to be conformed to the things upon which we focus ourselves. And so, he works to shift our attention away from Christ, the great Lover of our soul, our Saviour and Friend, to ourselves, to our fears, and doubts, and sin - to anything but God (games, movies, inappropriate content, friends, hobbies, careers, etc.). When our minds are occupied with such things, there is no room for consideration of God. And so long as we are distracted by things that are not God, we cannot be conformed to Him, to His will and way. It isn't for no reason we are told in God's word to "look unto Jesus," to "consider him," to "behold his glory." (Hebrews 12:2-3; 2 Corinthians 3:18)

Who do you think you'll be as you stare constantly at your fears, massage them into massive terrors, stroking your guilt and doubt, by your attention to them, enlarging them out of all proportion? No one ever became like Christ, no one ever came to enjoy him deeply, by gawking and clutching at the darkness of sin and death.

Philippians 4:8-9
8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.
9 What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.
You’ve Got a deep point.deep point.Im sorry I let fear overwhelm me.The vulnerability of my heart is scary,to be told I don’t Love God is crushing,I admit on my part I’m very introspective and constantly examine motives.And yes I want to be from these fears,I just want to live with hope and certainty with God.I don’t like this fear or “drama” and I most certainly don’t like sowing discord.I’m not an attention seeker,at times a may be but I strive not to and stay out of attention.How can I change?,is it like you said submit to him?,I guess I worry because of certainty,I worry about living deceived and guess I desire certainty because I’m scared of not truly belonging to the lord.I can’t figure how I’m scared of God?,im scared of his righteous judgment,but how am I scared OF him?

In addition to submission what else should I do or ask of the Lord?
 
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You’ve Got a deep point.deep point.Im sorry I let fear overwhelm me.The vulnerability of my heart is scary,to be told I don’t Love God is crushing,

There is some part of you that has a spark of love, of desire, for God, or you wouldn't be stressing about your relationship with Him. But that desire for God is cramped and crowded by your preoccupation with Self, with a greater love for yourself. You can't, though, have both loves existing together: they are totally contrary to each other, unable to co-exist in any kind of balance together.

And yes I want to be from these fears,I just want to live with hope and certainty with God.I don’t like this fear or “drama” and I most certainly don’t like sowing discord.I’m not an attention seeker,at times a may be but I strive not to and stay out of attention.How can I change?,is it like you said submit to him?

I wouldn't have urged you to submit to God if I didn't think it was God's way to freedom from your struggles. I always connect my statements about God and the believer's walk with Him to Scripture. It is God who tells you in His word that submission is absolutely integral to walking with Him. Just look at the verses I inserted into my remarks to you. They are there for a good reason and are, really, far more important than anything else I've written to you.

I guess I worry because of certainty,I worry about living deceived and guess I desire certainty because I’m scared of not truly belonging to the lord.I can’t figure how I’m scared of God?,im scared of his righteous judgment,but how am I scared OF him?

Can you be certain, absolutely certain, that a chair will hold you up until you've sat down in it? No. Only when you trust yourself to the chair and sit in it, do you know, truly know, that it can and will hold you, as it is supposed to do. In the same way, only when you trust yourself to God, to the promises and truths of His word, counting on them, by faith, as true regardless of what you feel or think, will you come to see that they are exactly what God says they are: real, true and powerful.

Certainty, in God's economy of things spiritually, only comes after you trust Him and His word to you.

You are worried you don't belong to God because the fruit of a right relationship with Him, the confidence born of the certainty that He loves you deeply and faithfully despite your weakness and sin, is not yet yours. And this is so because He has not yet filled you with His love. Such filling, though, only happens in response to your submission to Him. The love of the Spirit is within you if you are God's (Romans 5:5; Galatians 5:22), but it will not expand to overflowing within you 'til your life is under the Spirit's daily control. It is the love of God, however, that is the answer to your doubt and fear. We have boldness in the Day of Judgment because we have known and believed the love God has for us, the apostle John wrote (1 John 4:16-17). Such belief cannot form and deepen in you so long as you stare constantly at your failure and fear. Look instead at the love of God in Christ revealed to you in the Bible and submit to it.

In addition to submission what else should I do or ask of the Lord?

Blaise, apart from God, apart from His power altering your mind and heart, changing your desires, and filling you with Himself, you can do nothing. (John 15:4-5; Philippians 2:13; Philippians 4:13) The Great Battle for every believer is, therefore, to stay surrendered to God; for it is only in this state that God moves to transform us. As you remain throughout each day surrendered to God, He will alter your thinking, and desires and behaviour. All you do is remain submitted, by faith trusting He is at work in you whether you see He is or not, and reflecting in your living the changes He makes in you.

Everything the devil does, aided by Self, is aimed at keeping you from this sort of living.
 
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I just want to have absolute certainty that cannot be shaken that Jesus is the son and God in the flesh and he rose from the grave.

How certain are you that when you leave your house, it will still be there when you return?
We all expect our home to be there and experience and stats tel us it should be there, but accidents happen, houses burn down, get knocked down by vehicals crashing into them or even sink holes opening up under them.

How certain are you that Jesus rose from the dead?
Do you have to check and recheck something you know to be true?

We don't have all the answers we work on what is reasonable.
Jesus rose from the dead, because that is what the evidence tells us and e accept that evidence.

How you work this into you your ocd compulsions I don't know, I would suggest typing out a list of facts that you accept example:-

I am loved by Jesus and have been saved by him, so I am not apostate.
Jesus is the Son of God and he died and rose again to save me.
 
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Are you concerned about the certainty that Jesus Christ is the Son of God ?

If you have looked up non- Christian accounts of people from the time that recorded it !

Are you not considering to receive the witness of men ?

For we heard:

“If we receive the witness of men, the witness of God is greater; for this is the witness of God which He has testified of His Son.

He who believes in the Son of God has the witness in himself; he who does not believe God has made Him a liar, because he has not believed the testimony that God has given of His Son.”
‭‭I John‬ ‭5:9-10‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Beloved one, do not receive the witness of men but receive the witness of God.

So the certainty that Jesus Christ is the Son of God because we receive the witness of God which He has testified of His Son, that we who believe in the Son of God has the witness in ourselves because we have believed the testimony that God has given of His Son.

To God the Father be thanksgiving through Christ. Amen.
 
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Are you concerned about the certainty that Jesus Christ rose from the dead ?

This is what we have heard from apostle Paul:

“For I delivered to you first of all that which I also received: that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures,

and that He was buried, and that He rose again the third day according to the Scriptures,

and that He was seen by Cephas, then by the twelve.

After that He was seen by over five hundred brethren at once, of whom the greater part remain to the present, but some have fallen asleep.

After that He was seen by James, then by all the apostles.

Then last of all He was seen by me also, as by one born out of due time.

For I am the least of the apostles, who am not worthy to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God.

But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not in vain; but I labored more abundantly than they all, yet not I, but the grace of God which was with me.

Therefore, whether it was I or they, so we preach and so you believed.”
‭‭I Corinthians‬ ‭15:3-11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

So this what apostle Paul or they who preach, that delivered to us first of all that which apostle Paul also received, that we also received: that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures, and that He was buried, and that He rose again the third day according to the Scriptures, and that He was seen by Cephas, then by the twelve.
and so we believed.

Since we received and believed what has been delivered to us, so we are certain that Jesus rose again from the dead according to the Scriptures.

Have you received and believed what has been delivered or passed to you ?

For we who received and believed what has been delivered or passed to us, by the grace of God we are what we are, and His grace toward us was not in vain. So we labor abundantly, for this is the grace of God which was with us.

To God the Father be thanksgiving through Christ. Amen
 
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Are you concerned about the certainty of the Bible ?

This is what we have heard :

“All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness,”
‭‭II Timothy‬ ‭3:16‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

If you reject the Bible or all scripture, you reject inspiration of God. And you will not find any teaching that is profitable.
And you will not find any reproof that can fix you. And you will not
find any instruction that can make you right.

This is also what we have heard:

“But you must continue in the things which you have learned and been assured of, knowing from whom you have learned them,

and that from childhood you have known the Holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus.”
‭‭II Timothy‬ ‭3:14-15‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

So receive the inspiration of God, that is in the Bible, that is, the Holy Scriptures, which able to make you wise for salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus.

To God the Father be thanksgiving through Christ. Amen.
 
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Beloved one, if you are in fear, go and pray !
These, you can pray:

Lord, have mercy on me.
In times of fear of peril,
I call on Your name, Lord Jesus Christ.
For You alone are our Helper, to whom all power is given in Heaven and on earth.
Be pleased, Lord, to rescue me.
Hurry, O Lord, do not delay
Amen

I fear not, for my Heavenly Father is with me.
I will not be dismayed, for my Heavenly Father is my God.
My Heavenly Father strengthen me,
my Heavenly Father will help me.
My Heavenly Father will uphold me with His righteous right hand.
Amen


Lord Jesus Christ,
I call on Your name,
I come to You, Lord Jesus Christ.
I put my trust in You.
Lord Jesus Christ
impart Your peace to my heart.
Fill my heart now with Your peace so that fear will find no room when it seeks to enter.
Amen

Lord Jesus Christ, You said
My peace I give to You.”
Now I receive in Your name, Lord Jesus Christ.
The peace that come from You.
Amen

Answer me when I call, O God of my righteousness!
You have given me relief when I was in distress.
Be gracious to me and hear my prayer! -Psalms 4:1
Amen

My eyes are ever toward the LORD, for he will pluck my feet out of the net. -Psalms 25:15
Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. -Psalms 25:16
The troubles of my heart are enlarged; bring me out of my distresses. -Psalms 25:17
Consider my affliction and my trouble, and forgive all my sins. -Psalms 25:18
Amen

Beloved one, push away fear through the power of prayer. Believe that you receive what you pray. Remember what the Lord said in Mark 11:22-25

May God’s peace be with you. Amen
 
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