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jelena.j4 said:

Hii, thanks for everyone taking time to read this, i have been struggling for weeks and months in faith, i feel stuck and useless to God, i feel like a dead branch bearing no fruit, im afraid of ending up in hell, every day seems repetitive like some kind of routine, on the outside things seem okay im reading, praying, worshipping but more out of obligation then love, my view of God is messed up because i see Him more as a scary judge, im afraid of God and His judgement, im so irritated at myself because i cant see fruits in my life like i did once at the beginning of my Christian walk...at the beginning everything seemeed better, my love for Him was greated, i saw a lot of change in me, now i just feel stuck, reading the Word became like an obligation that i do to check off my list
its like i ran out of oil, like my candle does not burn, im doubting am i saved, i belive i will go to hell

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If you doubt you are a Christian, live as if you were.

He is the faithful One. When I feel weak and useless, I always remember that He is the faithful one. When I fail, He succeeds. When I fall, He picks me up. When I am weak, He is strong.
Believe and say these truths about yourself. He did these. You are these. Forget about how you feel. Confess these things and you will grow into them.

1. I am a new creation in Christ ( 2 Corinthians 5:17)
2. God has chosen me to be his very own. (Thessalonians 1:4 )
3. I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14) (Ephesians 2:10)
4. I have the peace of God that passes all understanding (Phillippians 4:7)
5. I have the greater one living in me than he who is in this world (1 John 4:4)
6. I am far from oppression, and fear does not have a hold on me. (Isaiah 54:14)
7. I am born of God, and the enemy has no hold over me or my family. (1 John 5:18)
8. I have the mind of Christ and can live free from anxiety and depression. (1 Corinthians 2:16, Philippians 2:5)
9. My hands carry the power of the Holy Spirit to lay hands on the sick and they shall recover, to cast out generational curses and demonic spirits that influence me and my home. (Mark 16:17-18)
10. I have power over the enemy, and nothing shall harm me. (Luke 10:17-19)
11. My God will supply all my needs according to his riches in glory. (Phillippians 4:19)
12. I can do all things through Christ. (Phillippians 4:13)
13. I am firmly rooted, built up, established in my faith, and overflowing with gratitude. (Colossians 2:7)
14. I am called of God to be voice over His praise. (Psalm 66:8, 2 Timothy 1:9)
15. I am strengthened with all might according to God’s power. (Colossians 1:11)
16. I press on in my calling, towards God to the goal to receive my eternal prize. (Philippians 3:14)
17. God has not given me a spirit of fear, but peace, love, and a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7)
18. I am a doer of the Word and blessed in my actions. (James 1:22-25)
19. I am an overcomer by the blood of the lamb, and the word of my testimony. (Revelation 12:11)
    
    Thanks too:
    https://thepausepursuit.com/2020/01...rist-20-scriptural-confessions-to-remind-you/

jelena.j4 said:

Hii, thanks for everyone taking time to read this, i have been struggling for weeks and months in faith, i feel stuck and useless to God, i feel like a dead branch bearing no fruit, im afraid of ending up in hell, every day seems repetitive like some kind of routine, on the outside things seem okay im reading, praying, worshipping but more out of obligation then love, my view of God is messed up because i see Him more as a scary judge, im afraid of God and His judgement, im so irritated at myself because i cant see fruits in my life like i did once at the beginning of my Christian walk...at the beginning everything seemeed better, my love for Him was greated, i saw a lot of change in me, now i just feel stuck, reading the Word became like an obligation that i do to check off my list
its like i ran out of oil, like my candle does not burn, im doubting am i saved, i belive i will go to hell

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Eph 2:4 But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us,

Eph 2:5 Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved

Eph 2:6 And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:

Eph 2:7 That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus.

Eph 2:8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:


Those are some sweet verses …but verse 7 states that its going to take the ages to come for God to show us (his sons & daughters) the exceeding riches of his grace in kindness. It is hard for any human to comprehend what God’s idea of exceeding riches in kindness would be …but that is how much he loves us. For a human being to do that for someone would be mind blowing, but for God to do that for us …buckle your seat belts …it’s going to be a great ride…

jelena.j4 said:

i have been struggling for weeks and months in faith, i feel stuck and useless to God, i feel like a dead branch bearing no fruit, im afraid of ending up in hell, every day seems repetitive like some kind of routine, on the outside things seem okay im reading, praying, worshipping but more out of obligation then love, my view of God is messed up because i see Him more as a scary judge, im afraid of God and His judgement,

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We all go through periods when life is hard and dry, when the shies are like solid steel, prayers are useless, the bible just another book, church boring and a waste of time!

This is perfectly normal.

Ever learnt a new skill? One starts to make progress, once the inital lessons are over, but then one hits a wall. Any advancement takes time and effort, this happens in every walk of life, often we don't realise it, at other times it is a real struggle to keep going, to make progress.

Hang on, keep making the effort to read your bible, to pray intelligently, to attend worship and bible studies.
Things do get better, your love for the lord will return.

jelena.j4 said:

Hii, thanks for everyone taking time to read this, i have been struggling for weeks and months in faith, i feel stuck and useless to God, i feel like a dead branch bearing no fruit, im afraid of ending up in hell, every day seems repetitive like some kind of routine, on the outside things seem okay im reading, praying, worshipping but more out of obligation then love, my view of God is messed up because i see Him more as a scary judge, im afraid of God and His judgement, im so irritated at myself because i cant see fruits in my life like i did once at the beginning of my Christian walk...at the beginning everything seemeed better, my love for Him was greated, i saw a lot of change in me, now i just feel stuck, reading the Word became like an obligation that i do to check off my list
its like i ran out of oil, like my candle does not burn, im doubting am i saved, i belive i will go to hell

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Beloved one, be those who seek God, and understand. Let me share Psalms 14, that I have contemplated.

This is what we have heard:

“The Lord looks down from heaven upon the children of men, To see if there are any who understand, who SEEK GOD.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭14:2‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

So when our Lord Jesus looks down from heaven upon the children of men, our Lord is looking for those who seek GOD; for those who seek God, UNDERSTAND.

What UNDERSTANDING do those who SEEK God have ? This is what we have heard:

They have all turned aside,
They have together become corrupt;
There is none who does good,
No, not one. -Psalms‬ ‭14:3 NKJV‬‬

Have all the workers of iniquity no knowledge,
Who eat up my people as they eat bread,
And do not call on the Lord? -Psalms‬ ‭14:4 NKJV‬‬

There they are in great fear,
For God is with the generation of the righteous. -Psalms‬ ‭14:5 ‭NKJV‬‬

You shame the counsel of the poor,
But the Lord is his refuge.
‭-Psalms‬ ‭14:6‬ NKJV‬‬

We heard the children of men, that they have all turned aside,
they have together become corrupt; There is none who does good, No, not one.

So the children of men, are all the workers of iniquity who have no knowledge of God.

And all the workers of iniquity who eat up the Lord’s people as they eat bread?So all the workers of iniquity who are in bitter enmity with the Lord’s people.

and all the workers of iniquity should call on the Lord, that they may be saved but they do not call on the Lord.

There they, all the workers of iniquity are in great fear,
For God is with the generation of the righteous.

All the workers of iniquity
shame the counsel of the poor or afflicted, but the Lord is his refuge.

So those who SEEK God, have understanding, we who have not all turned aside from God, are the children of God, that we have together become incorruptible through Christ, the one who does good; all the workers of goodness have the knowledge of God and are the Lord’s people who eat the bread of life and have called on the Lord Jesus Christ and be saved.

There we, all the workers of goodness are in great love of Christ, for God is with the generation of the righteous.

All the workers of goodness honor
the counsel of the afflicted, for the Lord is our refuge.

Christ, our salvation will come out of Zion! When the Lord brings back the captivity of His people, we rejoice and we be glad in Christ our Lord and Savior.
Amen

jelena.j4 said:

Hii, thanks for everyone taking time to read this, i have been struggling for weeks and months in faith, i feel stuck and useless to God, i feel like a dead branch bearing no fruit, im afraid of ending up in hell, every day seems repetitive like some kind of routine, on the outside things seem okay im reading, praying, worshipping but more out of obligation then love, my view of God is messed up because i see Him more as a scary judge, im afraid of God and His judgement, im so irritated at myself because i cant see fruits in my life like i did once at the beginning of my Christian walk...at the beginning everything seemeed better, my love for Him was greated, i saw a lot of change in me, now i just feel stuck, reading the Word became like an obligation that i do to check off my list
its like i ran out of oil, like my candle does not burn, im doubting am i saved, i belive i will go to hell

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Beloved one, you are struggling in faith because you rely on your strength, not on God’s strength.

For we heard:
Awesome is God from his sanctuary; the God of Israel'he is the one who gives power and strength to his people. Blessed be God! -Psalms 68:35

Beloved one, you are His people, so ask Him, that He may strengthen you in faith.

Beloved one, you are stuck because you have not considered what our Lord Jesus have said:

““I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.”
‭‭John‬ ‭15:5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

So do all things with Christ.

Beloved one, you feel useless because you have not heeded what the Lord said:

“Then Jesus answered and said to them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, but what He sees the Father do; for whatever He does, the Son also does in like manner.”
‭‭John‬ ‭5:19‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Beloved one, be a son of God through Christ and perceive what the Father do.

To God the Father be thanksgiving through Christ. Amen

jelena.j4 said:

Hii, thanks for everyone taking time to read this, i have been struggling for weeks and months in faith, i feel stuck and useless to God, i feel like a dead branch bearing no fruit, im afraid of ending up in hell, every day seems repetitive like some kind of routine, on the outside things seem okay im reading, praying, worshipping but more out of obligation then love, my view of God is messed up because i see Him more as a scary judge, im afraid of God and His judgement, im so irritated at myself because i cant see fruits in my life like i did once at the beginning of my Christian walk...at the beginning everything seemeed better, my love for Him was greated, i saw a lot of change in me, now i just feel stuck, reading the Word became like an obligation that i do to check off my list
its like i ran out of oil, like my candle does not burn, im doubting am i saved, i belive i will go to hell

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Beloved one, are you considering how you may bear fruit? This is what we have heard:

As it is written, "He has distributed freely, he has given to the poor; his righteousness endures forever." -2 Corinthians 9:9

Beloved one, what has God distributed freely ?
He has distributed His righteousness.

Who has God given His righteousness? The poor or the afflicted. So when we are suffering or in pain ? Are we not the afflicted? We are.

So God has given us His righteousness that endures forever, who is Christ.

The next verse, we heard :
He who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will supply and multiply your seed for sowing and increase the harvest of your righteousness. -2 Corinthians 9:10

paraphrasing for clarity:
We perceive that God who supplies Seed or Christ or His righteousness that endures forever to the sower ( us ) and bread of life for food will supply and multiply our seed, that is, our righteousness in Christ Jesus and increase the harvest of our righteousness in Christ Jesus.

Beloved one, in order that we may bear the fruit of righteousness in Christ, we must perceive that God distributed His righteousness through Christ, has given to us who are suffering or afflicted, that God supplies His righteousness that endures forever through Christ, that we may sow or bear witness and have the bread of life for spiritual food, that He will supply and increase the harvest of our righteousness in Christ. Thus, we perceive that we bear the fruit of righteousness because He is with us, that is, His righteousness that endures forever is with us.

To God the Father be glory and thanksgiving through Christ. Amen.

Beloved, are you looking for the love of Christ? This is what we have heard:

“Hold fast the pattern of sound words which you have heard from me, in faith and love which are in Christ Jesus.”
‭‭II Timothy‬ ‭1:13‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Beloved one, faith and love which are in Christ Jesus are in the pattern of sound words which we have heard from apostle Paul.

What we should we do ? Hold fast! How we should hold fast ? This is what we have heard:

“That good thing which was committed to you, keep by the Holy Spirit who dwells in us.”
‭‭II Timothy‬ ‭1:14‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

So the pattern of sound words which we have heard from apostle Paul is considered that good thing that was committed to us, that we should keep by the Holy Spirit who dwell in us.

So that good thing, that is, faith and love which are in Christ Jesus, we should keep in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who dwell in us.

The question is what is in our hearts, that we have kept ? Beloved one, keep the words that Christ speaks to us in the Holy Scriptures by the Holy Spirit who dwell in us.

How we keep by the Holy Spirit?
We keep by speaking in faith, and hearing by faith, that we may perceive and understand the love of Christ that has been spoken and heard, that we hold fast His love.

To God the Father be glory and thanksgiving through Christ. Amen.

jelena.j4 said:

Hii, thanks for everyone taking time to read this, i have been struggling for weeks and months in faith, i feel stuck and useless to God, i feel like a dead branch bearing no fruit, im afraid of ending up in hell, every day seems repetitive like some kind of routine, on the outside things seem okay im reading, praying, worshipping but more out of obligation then love, my view of God is messed up because i see Him more as a scary judge, im afraid of God and His judgement, im so irritated at myself because i cant see fruits in my life like i did once at the beginning of my Christian walk...at the beginning everything seemeed better, my love for Him was greated, i saw a lot of change in me, now i just feel stuck, reading the Word became like an obligation that i do to check off my list
its like i ran out of oil, like my candle does not burn, im doubting am i saved, i belive i will go to hell

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This is the story, the experience, of every person who attempts to walk with God by means of the flesh rather than the Holy Spirit. By fleshly effort, for comparatively short periods, we can seem to succeed spiritually, by the power of Self forcing ourselves to be, at least on the surface, the person God has said in His word He wants us to be. Having met, apparently, with some temporary success spiritually, the believer will carry on in the flesh, continuing to rely upon the wrong Power Source entirely 'til the energy of the flesh is exhausted.

When the flesh comes to the end of its resources - at it always will, trying to do the work of the Spirit - the effect can be very acute and unpleasant. God warns that the flesh can only ultimately bring forth corruption and death, however much on the front end it seems to be succeeding in producing the Christian life. (Galatians 6:7-8; Romans 7:18; Romans 8:5-8, etc.) Such exhaustion is marked by frustration, apathy, moral failure and a sense of a great burden of obligation rather than joy and love. Sound familiar?

What's so...sad is that no believer ever has to endure this experience. They have, at the moment of their conversion, the Holy Spirit within them and in him possess all they require to live in peace, joy, power and love with God. (Titus 3:5; 1 John 4:13; Romans 8:9-13)

How, if the Holy Spirit dwells within, can a believer not act in his power in their living? The problem resolves down to the matter of submission to the Spirit's will and way. Many believers - perhaps a majority of them - take up the idea that God intends they should do His will by their power, that they should transform themselves for Him. When God commands, it is for the believer to act - as best they can - to fulfill His commands. If they run dry, only then should they turn to God for aid.

This is the exact opposite of the proper state-of-affairs God intends the believer to be in. Like begets like. A cat begets a cat; a dog begets a dog; and you can only beget more of you. Godliness is ONLY obtained from God, never from Self, from the effort of the flesh. And so, in the Bible, God repeatedly reserves to Himself the responsibility of making us who He wants us to be:

Philippians 1:6
6 Being confident of this very thing, that he who has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:

Philippians 2:13
13 For it is God who works in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

Philippians 4:13
13 I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.

2 Corinthians 3:18
18 And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.

1 Thessalonians 5:23-24
23 Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.
24 He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it.

1 Peter 5:10
10 And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.

Jude 1:24-25
24 Now to him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy,
25 to the only God, our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion, and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen.

And so on.

It is, however, only as the born-again believer remains consistently and persistently in a place of conscious surrender, submission, to God that s/he is controlled and empowered by the Spirit and so transformed by him. The Spirit will not compel the believer to come under his control; he will not force change upon the born-again person. The Christian person must choose every day, sometimes many times a day, to remain under the Spirit's control. But as they do so, as they agree to the Spirit's work in them through submission to the Spirit, he transforms them, by his limitless power making them who he wants them to be, filling them with himself and producing in them his "fruit." (Romans 6:13-22; Romans 8:14; Romans 12:1; James 4:7; 1 Peter 5:6, etc.)

What particularly marks out the Spirit's work from our own is the lack of tormented effort, the exhausting, painful strain of pushing oneself down at every turn, of resisting powerful urges to selfishness, of denying carnal desire. When God goes to work on His child, His universe-creating power comes to bear upon them, subtly but profoundly shifting their desires, their thinking and finally their conduct, making them enthusiastic, holy reflections of Himself. This divine power doesn't run out, it doesn't need help, it doesn't require our strength, only submission, and dependence, and faith (and patience).

A Christian's "job" is to receive by faith the life of God, remain by faith in His truth and promises, and reflect His work in their living. When this is how the believer operates in their walk with God, the crushing weight of obligation dissolves, replaced by love, and the apathy and frustration of exhausted self-effort is exchanged for the unending power and joy of the Spirit.

You might look at "How You Can Be Sure that You Will Spend Eternity with God?" by Dr Erwin Lutzer. I have watched him on the John Ankerberg Show, but he also has several books.
Another good Christian author is the late Dr John R Rice. One of his articles is a short sermon "How to Come to Jesus." It is a simple message of the simplicity of the Gospel.
Be sure of your salvation. I struggled with doubting my salvation for many years. Below is a link to my testimony if you care to read it.
My testimony

Regards,

John