If we are disgusted by our sin is that proof that we're living in sin? It's proof that we're regenerated and that the Holy Spirit is living within us. But does this get nullified by living in sin?
If there is some sin you've committed and you're disgusted by it
but do not forsake it, then, yes, you are living in sin. Feeling humiliated and repulsed by sin, feeling shame and a desire to conceal your sin and even yourself, feeling self-condemnation and hopelessness about your sin - these are all responses that emanate from your conscience and from Self. One's conscience can grow twisted and dull, accommodating things it shouldn't and failing to react at things it should (
1 Timothy 4:2; 2 Timothy 3:8; 1 Corinthians 5:1-2). The reactions of one's conscience can grow exaggerated or obsessive, too, pressed by Self to inordinate self-condemnation and anxiety (
Hebrews 10:26-27; Revelation 21:8; Genesis 3:6-8). Only if one is walking well with the Lord is one's conscience a helpful, trustworthy means of discerning good from evil.
The conviction of the Holy Spirit is not susceptible to contortion and corruption as one's conscience is. But his convicting of you may be silenced as you refuse it, ignoring his conviction in favor of continuing in sin (Ephesians 4:30). Spirit-conviction is always aimed at remediation, at moving the straying believer back into fellowship with God (
Romans 5:6-11; Titus 3:5-8; Ephesians 2:1-10). The Spirit's conviction of us never produces craven fear or a desire to conceal but the opposite: A desire to expose sin, repent of it, confess it, and return to fellowship with God. When the Spirit convicts, the effect is to draw us to God, not repel us from Him, to urge us into the light for cleansing and restoration, not into concealment and shame. (
1 Corinthians 4:5; Ephesians 5:13)
Our spiritual regeneration, our second birth into the family of God, cannot be nullified by anything (
Romans 8:37-39; John 10:27-29; Hebrews 13:5). Our salvation is God's work (
John 6:44; 2 Timothy 2:25; John 16:8; Ephesians 2:4-9), accomplished through the atoning work of Christ (
Colossians 1:12-21; Galatians 1:4; 1 Peter 1:3-4, etc.), and by the life-giving presence of the Holy Spirit within (
Romans 8:9-11; 1 John 4:13; Titus 3:5; 1 Corinthians 6:19-20). We are mere
recipients of this divine work, not the producers or sustainers of it. And so we need not fear that having been brought to salvation by God, saved through the sacrifice of His Son, and made spiritually alive by the indwelling Spirit that we can undo all this divine work by our sin. Our wickedness did not keep God from us before we were saved, barring Him from all the Bible says He does in order that we might choose Him, but despite all our sin, He worked to persuade us to faith in the Savior. Why, if our sin was no barrier to God before our salvation do we think it is this mighty corrosive to our spiritual adoption after we are saved? Why is it all God who brings us to salvation and then all
us afterward, sustaining our salvation? Paul challenged this thinking very directly:
Galatians 3:1-3
1 O foolish Galatians! Who has bewitched you? It was before your eyes that Jesus Christ was publicly portrayed as crucified.
2 Let me ask you only this: Did you receive the Spirit by works of the law or by hearing with faith?
3 Are you so foolish? Having begun by the Spirit, are you now being perfected by the flesh?
Because last I checked the Bible contains multiple warnings against sinning and last I checked? I sin. A lot. Several times a day probably. How am I supposed to confess all that sin and confess sins I don't even remember?
One at a time, as the Spirit convicts you of them. Perhaps follow David's example:
Psalm 139:23-24
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
If you really want to know where you've gone off the rails morally and spiritually, God will be more than happy to show you. Many are afraid of what such an inspection will reveal, knowing there are secret corners of their lives holding sin which they are not willing to relinquish.
Just...what is living in sin and how do I avoid it? I know regeneration is a sign you're among the elect and I should trust in christ death for all my sins but... the Bible scares the pants off me.
Sin and fear of God go together. When we are determined to hold onto things we know God would remove from our lives if we would let Him, we begin to see God as a threat, a dangerous Judge, rather than as our loving, Heavenly Father.
I don't think you're really confused about what living in sin is. You've admitted to a life daily plagued by sin which is what it is to "live in sin." Does this mean you aren't spiritually-regenerated? Maybe. Maybe not. Living in sin never means that you were once saved and now are not, only that you were deceived about the genuineness of your salvation and were never truly saved - or that you've not properly understood who you are in Christ and how to walk well with God as His child and so have remained a "carnal babe in Christ" (
1 Corinthians 3:1). Being saved and then lost, though, is not a biblical option.
How do you avoid living in sin? Simple:
- Know God. (
1 John 5:20; Philippians 3:7-10; 2 Timothy 1:12)
- Love God. (
Matthew 22:36-38; 1 John 4:16-19; 1 Corinthians 13:1-3)
- Submit to God. (
Romans 6:13-22; Romans 8:14; Romans 12:1; James 4:7; 1 Peter 5:6)
- Enjoy God. (
1 Corinthians 1:9; 2 Corinthians 13:14; 1 John 1:3; Revelation 3:20; Psalms 16:11)
The rest of Christian living - a holy, peaceful, Christ-centered, bright-shining life - happens naturally and profoundly - and ONLY - as these things are true in your life as God's child.