Hey guys and gals,
So ive grew up around Christianity my whole life read the Bible growing up as a kid and asked god to save me though I spent the next 15 years not giving him a second thought and honestly fell into a cycle of living how I wanted nothing horrible just cussing a lot and lusting a lot and fitting in with the world.
Well now I’m 30 I have a family a wife and four kids (been married since I was 18) and I was spending about all my time working and my wife was as well. We have a nice house and nice cars we have all we could ever want though we are not rich. Anyway I was working so much I got to where I fell into a state of depression and I wasn’t actually living just work sleep work sleep etc. I had a deep void in my life was looking for anything to fill it, first I tried hobbies and then I threw myself into trying to get it from my career and moving up the ladder well nothing worked
Well a couple weeks ago I again asked god to save me and to use me for his gain and that I give myself over. It was like a weight lifted and I literally felt like he was there giving me a hug and telling me it would be alright. I’ve got that feeling of excitement and joy but instead of being fleeting I’ll feel it all day long and I’m so much happier it’s really hard to explain but it’s just utter joy that I’ve never in my life felt before.
anyway enough of the backstory my questions are this.
1. I keep getting fleeting thoughts of this is not real even though I believe and even have a fear of god so that when I do mess up I ask god to forgive me straight away. How do I know for sure of my salvation
2. In this busy world of stress and negativity how do you all keep your primary focus on god and not get sidetracked. So far I’ve been listening to klove/sermons while driving, jumping headfirst into the Bible as much as I can and started going to church again.
3. keep having random thoughts and had a dream of me preaching. Which does excite me but I’m an introvert and don’t do well in big crowds (scares the crap out of me)so I don’t think it would be a good idea even though I can’t get away from it. I think it’s more me wanting to catch up on lost time and do something great for god than god telling me to do it later after my faith grows of course. I did have a conversation with a pastor and he thought it was god telling me to get off my but and do something. Any opinions on this
Thanks guys for any replies and sorry for writing a book just wanted to put some back story in there for you
So ive grew up around Christianity my whole life read the Bible growing up as a kid and asked god to save me though I spent the next 15 years not giving him a second thought and honestly fell into a cycle of living how I wanted nothing horrible just cussing a lot and lusting a lot and fitting in with the world.
Well now I’m 30 I have a family a wife and four kids (been married since I was 18) and I was spending about all my time working and my wife was as well. We have a nice house and nice cars we have all we could ever want though we are not rich. Anyway I was working so much I got to where I fell into a state of depression and I wasn’t actually living just work sleep work sleep etc. I had a deep void in my life was looking for anything to fill it, first I tried hobbies and then I threw myself into trying to get it from my career and moving up the ladder well nothing worked
Well a couple weeks ago I again asked god to save me and to use me for his gain and that I give myself over. It was like a weight lifted and I literally felt like he was there giving me a hug and telling me it would be alright. I’ve got that feeling of excitement and joy but instead of being fleeting I’ll feel it all day long and I’m so much happier it’s really hard to explain but it’s just utter joy that I’ve never in my life felt before.
anyway enough of the backstory my questions are this.
1. I keep getting fleeting thoughts of this is not real even though I believe and even have a fear of god so that when I do mess up I ask god to forgive me straight away. How do I know for sure of my salvation
2. In this busy world of stress and negativity how do you all keep your primary focus on god and not get sidetracked. So far I’ve been listening to klove/sermons while driving, jumping headfirst into the Bible as much as I can and started going to church again.
3. keep having random thoughts and had a dream of me preaching. Which does excite me but I’m an introvert and don’t do well in big crowds (scares the crap out of me)so I don’t think it would be a good idea even though I can’t get away from it. I think it’s more me wanting to catch up on lost time and do something great for god than god telling me to do it later after my faith grows of course. I did have a conversation with a pastor and he thought it was god telling me to get off my but and do something. Any opinions on this
Thanks guys for any replies and sorry for writing a book just wanted to put some back story in there for you