I’m feeling anxious.

You’re assuming other “Christians” are better than you?

imo, don’t do that.

Blaise N said:

Hi everyone,


I’d like to reach back out to the community for advice and help.I recently while driving in the car home today was shocked by something.Prior to leaving work today.I’ve had shiploads of anxiety so I tried to take my mind off my worry bu playing a game on my phone,but began to feel apathetic about Faith and immediately put my phone away,and I’ve been worried that that some how is my “true self” trying to “fake believing”.I’ve had anxiety all day mainly concerning the belief of Jesus's resurrection,And I’ve been so frustrated because I want to just believe but I’m always doubting the topic of the Death and resurrection of Jesus,thus I always think it’s impossible for someone like me to be saved.And for about a week now I’ve sadly listened to a thought saying “You can’t believe because your not an elect” and I’ve developed jealousy towards God,is that even possible?,but it is like this “Why can others believe so easily and be elected by God,while I’m struggling and feeling like I’m not elected because of my doubts and struggles?” I worry wether I have the Holy Spirit,I lack so much confidence,so much courage,and so much assurance.I worry about Christ’s goodness to me,whenever I pray I always ask in an “if you will please?” Way because somehow I always think he doesn’t want to help.I’m scared of the jealousy I may have built up and if I’m somehow hating God,which I would NEVER do.


Sometimes I think maybe I’m just someone who is trying to believe but can’t.And it breaks my heart.I fear apostasy like said in a previous post.I’m worrying across the board on so many things my mind is flat out confused.And I’m 2 days I’m going on vacation,and I’m afraid I’ll carry my anxiety with me.if someone could answer this question for me I’d be so grateful.

Edit(6:03pm):even just a couple minutes ago I had an intrusive thought which felt from my heart saying “I give up” which for a moment I thought was real and believed and immediately rejected it afterwards and im afraid I’ve committed apostasy!,please could anyone offer advice?

-why is it so hard for me to just believe and have faith so simply like other Christians and like you guys?

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God in His mercy knows us so well.
There's two very important things that you need to remember and trust:
1. God knows you, and
2. He loves you.
Before you were ever created by God, He took special care with your individual creation. Yes, He did!
As amazing as that may seem, it means that He wants you to succeed in your Christian Life, and He wants you to know Him.
He knows everything that you will face; all the hardships, and the doubts, and the temptations.
The good news is that He also made a way for you to overcome all of those things, and He will give you advise, and send help if you need it.
As they say, "God's got this"!
So if you should find yourself in a predicament, and you don't know what to do, just take a breath, wait, and listen for God.
I promise that He will come to your aid, and will help you to know what you should do.

Blaise N said:

And I’ve been so frustrated because I want to just believe but I’m always doubting the topic of the Death and resurrection of Jesus,thus I always think it’s impossible for someone like me to be saved.And for about a week now I’ve sadly listened to a thought saying “You can’t believe because your not an elect” and I’ve developed jealousy towards God,is that even possible?,but it is like this “Why can others believe so easily and be elected by God,while I’m struggling and feeling like I’m not elected because of my doubts and struggles?

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Can you see brother why you falter?

You let satan focus on you and other believers! Focus on your sin and shortcomings! Focus on you not being good enough! Focussing on you not being elect because you don't conform to the norm satan wants you to conform to.

Please understand brother that is not how you are saved, that is how you stand condemned, as you can see for yourself even now.

So when satan is making you look at you and calls you all bad and no good, then please don't fight such lies, don't try and improve yourself because of that, and please don't take in shame, guilt and fear about that, for that is precisely what satan wants you to do.Filling you up the the brim with his bad life.

Rather look at Jesus!

These golden rules to apply

1. Jesus died for all sinners!
2. God gives grace to those who have faith in Jesus.
3. Jesus wants to save those who love to be saved from their sins.

So say thanks to Jesus for saving you when satan smites you with your dirt. The more dirt satan fires at you, the more endeavour to thank Jesus for His sacrifice. exercise faith in Jesus' saving power over your life, rather than digest those horrible lies from satan making you look at yourself and others.

Also it is best to place yourself on the lowest rank of sinners, so that it can't go any worse than that. For down there God's grace is so very much better. For if you have been saved from much sin and misery by Christ then the joy and love growing in your heart believing that is incredible.

Thinking yourself better than others is never from our God, but thinking yourself worse than others does come from Him, Paul had life in that thinking as well, and look how it blessed him doing God's work.

God's good life alive in your chest is what satan tries to keep away from you, by making you compare yourself with other believers, and showing you that you you are no good enough, for comparing ourselves with others causes us to envy our brothers and sisters their faith life, rather than being encouraged by it. With satan it is always you who have to do this or that, or are not allowed to do this or that, but he never brings us to Christ, he is such a horrible liar.

So please brother keep your eyes peeled on Jesus. He is the only one who can turn the hard times you are going through to good times.

Place your faith in His love even now!

Peace.

Darkness Reigning
When the wicked are real close,
then darkness got you by the nose.
"Where is your God", they always sneer,
casting their nets of doubt and fear.
Isolation is their jail of presence within,
happily trading your weakness and your sin.
Oh how they enjoy your every fall or slip,
as your fallen reality is their strongest grip.
Building in your heart their own life form,
so depravity of being is your daily norm.
Now see them fight to retain their place,
trying to keep away God's loving grace.
By showing you their godless hold inside,
you in their slimly pits to smite.
Influenced by their dark and godless thrash,
Your light of day took quite a crash.
But remember wicked rule is a very short reign,
For you Christ's light will surely shine again.

Blaise N said:

Hi everyone,


I’d like to reach back out to the community for advice and help.I recently while driving in the car home today was shocked by something.Prior to leaving work today.I’ve had shiploads of anxiety so I tried to take my mind off my worry bu playing a game on my phone,but began to feel apathetic about Faith and immediately put my phone away,and I’ve been worried that that some how is my “true self” trying to “fake believing”.I’ve had anxiety all day mainly concerning the belief of Jesus's resurrection,And I’ve been so frustrated because I want to just believe but I’m always doubting the topic of the Death and resurrection of Jesus,thus I always think it’s impossible for someone like me to be saved.And for about a week now I’ve sadly listened to a thought saying “You can’t believe because your not an elect” and I’ve developed jealousy towards God,is that even possible?,but it is like this “Why can others believe so easily and be elected by God,while I’m struggling and feeling like I’m not elected because of my doubts and struggles?” I worry wether I have the Holy Spirit,I lack so much confidence,so much courage,and so much assurance.I worry about Christ’s goodness to me,whenever I pray I always ask in an “if you will please?” Way because somehow I always think he doesn’t want to help.I’m scared of the jealousy I may have built up and if I’m somehow hating God,which I would NEVER do.


Sometimes I think maybe I’m just someone who is trying to believe but can’t.And it breaks my heart.I fear apostasy like said in a previous post.I’m worrying across the board on so many things my mind is flat out confused.And I’m 2 days I’m going on vacation,and I’m afraid I’ll carry my anxiety with me.if someone could answer this question for me I’d be so grateful.

Edit(6:03pm):even just a couple minutes ago I had an intrusive thought which felt from my heart saying “I give up” which for a moment I thought was real and believed and immediately rejected it afterwards and im afraid I’ve committed apostasy!,please could anyone offer advice?

-why is it so hard for me to just believe and have faith so simply like other Christians and like you guys?

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Apostasy doesn't go with your struggles. Apostasy means you don't care about God one way or the other.