I've worked with a lady for a few years now. But it wasn't until recently when we started to come in at the same time, that I started to talk to her a bit. Everything seemed fine. One morning, she asked me to kill a spider for her. Little did I know after a silly prank that she had a phobia. I didn't know how to reach her to apologize other than through a Facebook page that she stopped using. By luck, she found the message. While I was on her page, I saw her birthdate, and a few of her likes. I eventually wanted to ask her out, even though I'm 15 years older, and I haven't had much luck in dating. In my past, I've been bullied, and I have had several health issues, including my polycystic kidney disease.
After talking to a few of her friends, I found out that she wasn't interested in dating. I never really was either given my health. But I found her interesting to talk to. And a good possible friend. Where I think I went wrong was maybe being around her too much at work. But she did make me feel happy. I forgot about a lot of my troubles.
But one day something happened. I stopped by where she was, and asked to take a piece of her trash. She turned away from me, not saying anything which left me confused. It hurt, and I wanted to question why, but I walked away. Later on in the day, I was asked to go to a room where two managers were. They asked me to stop talking to the girl. Thinking that I was still wanting to date her. I told those managers about all of my insecurities in my life. Ever since that day, I haven't spoken to the girl. It's been 6 weeks now. Sometimes I'd walk around where she was. Sometimes she'd walk by me like I was never there. But in all the silence, I started to feel incredibly guilty. Asking myself why I even tried to befriend her. What was wrong with me. All the while not knowing exactly what caused the problem. Maybe I was overdoing it. But this 6 weeks of silence has just made me question everything day after day.
If I could just have some peace of mind. Even if it's finally knowing what caused the problem. It's better than seeing her talk to everyone else really happy, while I've been miserable.
After talking to a few of her friends, I found out that she wasn't interested in dating. I never really was either given my health. But I found her interesting to talk to. And a good possible friend. Where I think I went wrong was maybe being around her too much at work. But she did make me feel happy. I forgot about a lot of my troubles.
But one day something happened. I stopped by where she was, and asked to take a piece of her trash. She turned away from me, not saying anything which left me confused. It hurt, and I wanted to question why, but I walked away. Later on in the day, I was asked to go to a room where two managers were. They asked me to stop talking to the girl. Thinking that I was still wanting to date her. I told those managers about all of my insecurities in my life. Ever since that day, I haven't spoken to the girl. It's been 6 weeks now. Sometimes I'd walk around where she was. Sometimes she'd walk by me like I was never there. But in all the silence, I started to feel incredibly guilty. Asking myself why I even tried to befriend her. What was wrong with me. All the while not knowing exactly what caused the problem. Maybe I was overdoing it. But this 6 weeks of silence has just made me question everything day after day.
If I could just have some peace of mind. Even if it's finally knowing what caused the problem. It's better than seeing her talk to everyone else really happy, while I've been miserable.
