I had a very strong faith when i was botn again even went to be a missionary, from ny youth i had always had problems with girls for me it seemed its such a big deal to find a girlfriend veing 31 never had one although i spent many years looking online and in christian youth groups and events . When i went abroad i started havong temptations to go to clubs and i did in weird ways and started drinking although i promised my self i never will somehow i inderstand i was do it wrong and i turned away from this ,but was having problems with faith i found it difficult to payer or didnt felt nothing ...and forgot to mention my strugles with masturbation.
God's word warns us that, when we persistently live a life of sin, we sear our conscience and silence the Holy Spirit. And sin always cuts us off from enjoying God. See
Psalms 66:18,
Isaiah 59:2, and
1 Peter 3:12. The result of all this is that you end up "feeling nothing" when you sin. No guilt, no sense of God's conviction; just a hardness that gets worse and worse the more and longer that you sin.
Sin, too, erodes our faith. When, because of sin, God starts to feel a million miles away, it's very hard to remain confident in Him, to be sure of His love. And there is nothing a guilty conscience and heart desires more than to escape condemnation and judgment. But instead of repenting, confessing and forsaking the sin that causes guilt, people begin instead to pretend God doesn't exist, making up all sorts of reasons why He couldn't possibly be real. This doesn't fix the sin-problem, though, but actually makes it much worse.
When i came back to my country with a friends suggestion we started going out to bars,clubs and didbt even noticed how every week we started going out and getting drunk. We went not to get drunks but to aproach girls which we stilll didnt get that much success except talking with them.
The only sort of girl who finds a drunk guy at a bar attractive is a girl who is drunk herself. But, then, its the drunkenness and selfish lust bringing you together, not genuine interest in one another. Nothing good comes out of this sort of thing. Bars and nightclubs aren't God's venues but the devil's.
By random we went to strip club and went to VIP where dancer dances naked and you touch her. I was 3 times... even this week had temptations....but the worst thing i done is at my work for no reason i got thoughts about finding a girl for money and sleeping with her. For a few days i couldnt push those thoughts and feeling of temptation and for nothinging much i went and had sex with a prostitute on sunday .
When you stoke the fires of lust, this is what happens. Do you see how you have moved in a series of steps more and more into darkness and sin? What's beyond prostitutes? How much farther into darkness will you go? Friend, God warns that DEATH awaits you at the end of the road of sin you're on.
James 1:14-16
14 But each one is tempted when he is carried away and enticed by his own lust.
15 Then when lust has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and when sin is accomplished, it brings forth death.
16 Do not be deceived, my beloved brethren.
Galatians 6:7-8
7 Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, this he will also reap.
8 For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life.
Romans 6:23
23 For the wages of sin is death...
You've already suffered death of your fellowship with God. Your conscience is dying. All the good things God is - joy, peace, rest, stability, contentment, purity - have died, too, in your life. If you persist in sin, other sorts of death will result.
Romans 2:4-11
4 Or do you think lightly of the riches of His kindness and tolerance and patience, not knowing that the kindness of God leads you to repentance?
5 But because of your stubbornness and unrepentant heart you are storing up wrath for yourself in the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of God,
6 who WILL RENDER TO EACH PERSON ACCORDING TO HIS DEEDS:
7 to those who by perseverance in doing good seek for glory and honor and immortality, eternal life;
8 but to those who are selfishly ambitious and do not obey the truth, but obey unrighteousness, wrath and indignation.
9 There will be tribulation and distress for every soul of man who does evil, of the Jew first and also of the Greek,
10 but glory and honor and peace to everyone who does good, to the Jew first and also to the Greek.
11 For there is no partiality with God.
God doesn't need you to live His way; He's perfect; He doesn't need anything or anyone; He isn't improved even the slightest bit by your obeying or disobeying His commands. So, why does He give them, then? To protect us; to bless us; to move us into a life in which we can really enjoy Him. When God condemns fornication, sexual sin, He does it for
your sake, for your benefit, not His.
I felt i think it was wrong and i done it and now i think i rather not done it but now its to late. I see i am going very bad ways in life but unable to stop it. Can God forgive me and what do it do? I feel i broke my relationship with God completely.
Well, it's a hopeful sign that you feel the wrongness of your sin. Do you know the parable of the Prodigal Son? You can read it in the
Gospel of Luke, chapter 15:11-31. The Son goes off with his inheritance to a "far land" where he lives it up, wasting his inheritance, dishonoring his father greatly, and making a terrible mess of things. Eventually, he ends up in a pig-pen, starving, trying to eat the garbage given to the pigs. In the filth of the swine-yard, desperately unhappy, he decides to return to his Father's house where he plans to work as a servant.
The Father has been hoping and looking for the return of his wayward, wicked Son. And so, when the Father sees his Son approaching, he rushes out to greet him, embracing him with joy. His Son explains his idea of being a servant but the Father refuses it, instead holding a party for his long-lost Son, giving him new robes to wear and celebrating his return home with a feast.
This parable isn't really about the Prodigal Son. It's all about the Father. Jews hearing this parable when Jesus first shared it would have been astonished by the behavior of the Father. They would have been expecting righteous anger from the Father and his total rejection of his wicked Son. But the Father is loving, forgiving, receiving his wayward Son with joy.
Friend, this is the way of our Heavenly Father. He receives us with joy and love when we return to Him - soiled with the filth of the pig-pen of sin though we are - humbly, sincerely desiring forgiveness and restoration of our fellowship with Him. God will clean us up, put upon us a "new robe" of righteousness, and celebrate our return.
Psalm 86:15
15 But You, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, Slow to anger and abundant in lovingkindness and truth.
1 John 1:9
9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
James 4:4-10
4 You adulteresses, do you not know that friendship with the world is hostility toward God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God.
5 Or do you think that the Scripture speaks to no purpose: "He jealously desires the Spirit which He has made to dwell in us"?
6 But He gives a greater grace. Therefore it says, "GOD IS OPPOSED TO THE PROUD, BUT GIVES GRACE TO THE HUMBLE."
7 Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
8 Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
9 Be miserable and mourn and weep; let your laughter be turned into mourning and your joy to gloom.
10 Humble yourselves in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you.
