- Nov 24, 2019
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hello all. so i have really been struggling for the last couple of years concerning getting saved. earlier last week, i made a post about the steps that lead to salvation. everyone seemed to agree with my list and order, but something was wrong. i know that Gods plan is perfect, so i knew i was making a mistake somewhere. but where?
it turns out, a few people had chimed in on an older post i made asking what people thought judgement day would be like. most were upbeat, or thought it would be great. my idea of judgement day, most thought was crazy/ not truthful. i think it'll be the worst day ever. i had suggested that Jesus would be so angry with me at my judgement, that He may even strike me before throwing me in hell. i dont think anyone thought the same. so last nite, this topic popped back up into my head, and i realized that because i had a very abusive step father growing up, i had assumed God is the same way.
so now, i am trying to learn how to forgive my stepfather, and understand and believe that God is not the same as him. so i think progress has been made, now i know why i think He is like i do, but i realize im still not saved, but one step closer hopefully. i never really gave much thought to my childhood, and so i thought i had moved on. but i find i have a lot of rage that i simply buried. and now its time to get it under control.
so if anyone out there, reads this and doubts or questions their own salvation, might i suggest you start with asking yourself how do you view God. also if you fear God, is it the right kind of fear. i think before we can accept our own salvation, we first have to decide who God really is, according to the Bible.
it turns out, a few people had chimed in on an older post i made asking what people thought judgement day would be like. most were upbeat, or thought it would be great. my idea of judgement day, most thought was crazy/ not truthful. i think it'll be the worst day ever. i had suggested that Jesus would be so angry with me at my judgement, that He may even strike me before throwing me in hell. i dont think anyone thought the same. so last nite, this topic popped back up into my head, and i realized that because i had a very abusive step father growing up, i had assumed God is the same way.
so now, i am trying to learn how to forgive my stepfather, and understand and believe that God is not the same as him. so i think progress has been made, now i know why i think He is like i do, but i realize im still not saved, but one step closer hopefully. i never really gave much thought to my childhood, and so i thought i had moved on. but i find i have a lot of rage that i simply buried. and now its time to get it under control.
so if anyone out there, reads this and doubts or questions their own salvation, might i suggest you start with asking yourself how do you view God. also if you fear God, is it the right kind of fear. i think before we can accept our own salvation, we first have to decide who God really is, according to the Bible.