Scared I Committed the Unpardonable Sin

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I am absolutely terrified. That doesn’t even begin to describe the word. It just happened moments ago. I don’t know what to think. One of the worst things is when it happened, I wasn’t crying. But I was screaming in my head noooooo! I shouted at the thoughts as they were flying in, screaming internally. Yelling stop it, stop it! They were the most awful thoughts I have ever heard. Even my throat is scratchy from screaming. It’s like thoughts are trying to tell me I don’t care, that I’m not scared, when I’m shaking right now. I’m absolutely scared by it looking like I barely reacted to it, but I was screaming at the thoughts. Thoughts are telling me I really did it and I’m done... I really refrain from coming on here. But this...I feel sick. I don’t know what to think, why did I not cry?

I feel so afraid by my reaction...thoughts telling me this is for real, or that my heart’s hardened. That I’m falling away. Even a thought popped in my head saying I’m going to die and not be saved. A thought just popped in my head and said “I’m going to hell. Bye everyone!” Please pray for me. I remember though, as these thoughts were flying in I shouted praise to the Holy Spirit. I told Him I will never leave Him. I asked Him to assure me I didn’t think these things.

It’s a quarter to 2 am and I can’t sleep. I’m sitting here, under the covers, staring into space. Thoughts trying to say I don’t care but here I’m whispering no over and over again...
 
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You cannot commit the unpardonable sin because you are still alive and you aren't living during the year 30 AD or so. I've had this conversation with other members and its a common mistake to believe someone an unforgivable sin has been committed. If that were true, how could the Lord have told the thief on the cross "today you will be with me in paradise?"

Scripture tells us that the fomal definition of unpardonable sin happened when some specific people attributed evil work to the Holy Spirit while the Lord Jesus walked the earth. Until Jesus returns, the condition to commit that act are not possible.

Secondarily, some think the other POSSIBLE way to commit an unpardonable act is to die before you have been saved by the Holy Spirit. Once you are saved, most Christians believe you cannot be unsaved, for the Lord himself told us that "those the Father has given to me cannot be taken away by anyone" and it is called Once Saved, Always Saved by some denominations such as Baptists, and as Perseverance of the Saints by others including Calvininists. Seeing that you are still alive, you cannot commit an unpardonable sin.

Stop worrying about this and relax. I will pray for you to receive these words and feel the peace and grace of the Holy Spirit touching you right this moment. In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I ask that you are given grace and the faith to receive these words and to stop worrying.
 
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After I prayed for you, I felt led to give you some further assurances that you are fine. I hope the above references help!

Again, do not feel bad for others have make the exact same mistake in their thinking and misunderstanding of Scripture, so you are not the first and you won't be the last either.
 
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I am absolutely terrified. That doesn’t even begin to describe the word. It just happened moments ago. I don’t know what to think. One of the worst things is when it happened, I wasn’t crying. But I was screaming in my head noooooo! I shouted at the thoughts as they were flying in, screaming internally. Yelling stop it, stop it! They were the most awful thoughts I have ever heard. Even my throat is scratchy from screaming. It’s like thoughts are trying to tell me I don’t care, that I’m not scared, when I’m shaking right now. I’m absolutely scared by it looking like I barely reacted to it, but I was screaming at the thoughts. Thoughts are telling me I really did it and I’m done... I really refrain from coming on here. But this...I feel sick. I don’t know what to think, why did I not cry?

I feel so afraid by my reaction...thoughts telling me this is for real, or that my heart’s hardened. That I’m falling away. Even a thought popped in my head saying I’m going to die and not be saved. A thought just popped in my head and said “I’m going to hell. Bye everyone!” Please pray for me. I remember though, as these thoughts were flying in I shouted praise to the Holy Spirit. I told Him I will never leave Him. I asked Him to assure me I didn’t think these things.

It’s a quarter to 2 am and I can’t sleep. I’m sitting here, under the covers, staring into space. Thoughts trying to say I don’t care but here I’m whispering no over and over again...

You have not committed an unpardonable sin the bible tells us:


Heb 9:27-28 We die only once, and then we are judged. So Christ died only once to take away the sins of many people.

That scripture shows us the power of the cross, it was a good life given for our lifetime of sins. Sure God does not want us to sin, but the cross covers it all. The Holy Spirit will not leave you. While you still believe in Jesus you are saved.
 
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I have chronic pain so I am obviously awake with you. You pray for me while I pray for you. Often when I cannot sleep, the best thing to help me sleep is to turn down the lights as low as possible, have a nice fan running to drown out noise, then find a chapter in either Psalms or the Gospel of John and read until I am tired enough to sleep.
 
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My stomach feels sick.

Don't worry about feelings, they are deceptive. Why do you feel you have offended God?

The bible says:

1Jn 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

God is faithful (will not leave you) and just (will not deny you justice, and forgiveness). NO matter what sin you have committed Jesus will forgive you.
 
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Just prayed for you...I’m really disturbed. Honestly...I’m so disturbed by how I’m not reacting to it very much, but just sitting here, staring blankly into the dark of my living room. Thoughts are telling I don’t care and that I don’t feel anything. And that’s disturbing me...I’m so scared by how it feels like I’m not that scared.
 
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Just prayed for you...I’m really disturbed. Honestly...I’m so disturbed by how I’m not reacting to it very much, but just sitting here, staring blankly into the dark of my living room. Thoughts are telling I don’t care and that I don’t feel anything. And that’s disturbing me...I’m so scared by how it feels like I’m not that scared.
 
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NOT REACTING? You are worrying yourself sick. You are scared that you are not more scared.

Time to cast your worries upon the Lord God Almighty as Jesus told us to do. HE can handle it all. Pray for the Lord to handle it and focus on Scripture until you nod off and sleep!
 
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You need to stand on the word of God, not let your emotions get the better of you. The things you are experiencing can be fought off. But you need to be forceful. Focus on the goodness of God, His forgiveness and love. When you have an anxious thought reply to it with God's word. Don't let anxiety rest in you. If you find you still have stress, just rest in God's word. Quote it, then just say you believe it, and go to sleep. Trust the word not your rushing feelings.
 
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