Hi everyone.
Little about me. I have believed in God all of my life as a Christian.
I have had a bad run of relationships. I'm 28 now, I've had a few girlfriends and unfortunately nothing has been longer lasting than 2 years. None of my girlfriends have had any faith in God and maybe that is why it always pans out that way!
Anyway. My current relationship of 18 months has been total confliction.
I feel intense pulling in my heart about staying or going. It's not an easy going relationship, my girlfriend has PTSD, Anxiety and Depression. She was soon out of a relationship/engagement prior to us two meeting.
It's a relationship that definitely crosses lines and boundaries. Any boundary I set gets walked over. Any disagreement I get relentless calls and abusive messages & manipulation.
I care about this girl and have feelings, though I feel so angry and frustrated with her as I feel like deep down it is the wrong thing to do.
Just recently things intensified. Whenever I stay the night with her, my girlfriend on a few occasions has seen a demonic being in our room (she calls it an elderly ghost appearing as a grandmother or something in appearance).
This thing is appearing as an old lady, very angry and looks at me hatefully (from what she tells me) when I am asleep. Only ever happens on the occasion I am there overnight. I've never seen it.
Now, the other night I asked God to reveal to me what is hidden here.
In my dream, I felt something sit on my chest and whisper to me "My name is..." - dream then ended.
I woke up very uneasy. I felt almost paralysed in my dream.
I have repeatedly asked God for guidance on this relationship, and quite frankly to sustain it or help me break it off completely.
I just can't leave the relationship. No idea why, but whenever I do I always back down.
Thoughts & advice would be welcome.
Little about me. I have believed in God all of my life as a Christian.
I have had a bad run of relationships. I'm 28 now, I've had a few girlfriends and unfortunately nothing has been longer lasting than 2 years. None of my girlfriends have had any faith in God and maybe that is why it always pans out that way!
Anyway. My current relationship of 18 months has been total confliction.
I feel intense pulling in my heart about staying or going. It's not an easy going relationship, my girlfriend has PTSD, Anxiety and Depression. She was soon out of a relationship/engagement prior to us two meeting.
It's a relationship that definitely crosses lines and boundaries. Any boundary I set gets walked over. Any disagreement I get relentless calls and abusive messages & manipulation.
I care about this girl and have feelings, though I feel so angry and frustrated with her as I feel like deep down it is the wrong thing to do.
Just recently things intensified. Whenever I stay the night with her, my girlfriend on a few occasions has seen a demonic being in our room (she calls it an elderly ghost appearing as a grandmother or something in appearance).
This thing is appearing as an old lady, very angry and looks at me hatefully (from what she tells me) when I am asleep. Only ever happens on the occasion I am there overnight. I've never seen it.
Now, the other night I asked God to reveal to me what is hidden here.
In my dream, I felt something sit on my chest and whisper to me "My name is..." - dream then ended.
I woke up very uneasy. I felt almost paralysed in my dream.
I have repeatedly asked God for guidance on this relationship, and quite frankly to sustain it or help me break it off completely.
I just can't leave the relationship. No idea why, but whenever I do I always back down.
Thoughts & advice would be welcome.