- Nov 24, 2019
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hello all. so i am an ongoing survivor of kidney stones, meaning after 13 years, i still keep getting them. so long story short, i had a kidney stone attack, went to the ER for the next 2 days off and on, and last nite went in for surgery.
its been about 3 years since i had one, the longest span without one since i started having them in 2008. also the surgery was very unexpected, and rushed, to be honest. but everything was happening very fast. and all they did was put in a stent.
so as they are wheeling me back to surgery, i'll admit, i was very nervous. i always am. i found myself repeatedly praying to Jesus, praying that the dr and nurses would do well, and that if it was my time, so be it.
do you ever find that when you're ina bad position in life, do you question am i saved? do you ever feel like you just did so much bad stuff in this life? do you find that you simply arent ready for judgement day? do you wonder what your family will do after you're gone? sooooo many questions were running thru my mind. am i alone in thinking like this?? do truly saved christians not think like this? why cant i get over my fear of dying and being judged?? what can i do to make it better next time??
its been about 3 years since i had one, the longest span without one since i started having them in 2008. also the surgery was very unexpected, and rushed, to be honest. but everything was happening very fast. and all they did was put in a stent.
so as they are wheeling me back to surgery, i'll admit, i was very nervous. i always am. i found myself repeatedly praying to Jesus, praying that the dr and nurses would do well, and that if it was my time, so be it.
do you ever find that when you're ina bad position in life, do you question am i saved? do you ever feel like you just did so much bad stuff in this life? do you find that you simply arent ready for judgement day? do you wonder what your family will do after you're gone? sooooo many questions were running thru my mind. am i alone in thinking like this?? do truly saved christians not think like this? why cant i get over my fear of dying and being judged?? what can i do to make it better next time??