Grieving the Holy Spirt and he Finally leaves

Alynn said:

So I read some forums about people who thought they had grieved the Holy Spirit. And im just seeing if anyone else has gone through this. I dont have a yearning. That presence in my heart is not there anymore. It's like I Know that I know that the Holy Spirit left me. I'm not sure if hell come back. I had been dealing with unforgiveness and did not want submit in that area. God gave me an opportunity to do that and without a second I rejected because I was still angry at this person. Now I realize that I shouldn't have done that.


Has anyone gone through this?

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God doesn't leave, sin becomes so engrossing that it covers up the presence of God. It's kind of like when a parent leaves the room, and the baby thinks the parent is gone. Not so, but it seems that way.

The discipline for this event is confession of sins, (1 John 1:9) and boasting of our weaknesses (2 Corinthians 12:9).

Overall life practice, transparency.

Alynn said:

So I read some forums about people who thought they had grieved the Holy Spirit. And im just seeing if anyone else has gone through this. I dont have a yearning. That presence in my heart is not there anymore. It's like I Know that I know that the Holy Spirit left me. I'm not sure if hell come back. I had been dealing with unforgiveness and did not want submit in that area. God gave me an opportunity to do that and without a second I rejected because I was still angry at this person. Now I realize that I shouldn't have done that.
Has anyone gone through this?

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When a person is a new Christian, there is a lot of faith and dependence on feelings. For many, it is a new adventure with the excitement and fun that comes with it.

But after a while as the Holy Spirit moves us to a more settled faith in the written Scriptures, the feelings diminish, and this makes us wonder whether we have left our first love. But it is not that. It is the Lord transferring our faith and dependence away from feelings and emotions, to dependence on the promises in His Word. So, instead of having feelings of peace and security, we are forced back to the promise in His Word: "Be not anxious for anything, but by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God, and the peace that passes all understanding will keep your hearts and mind in Christ Jesus." By this, we believe we have peace because Philippians 4:6-7 tells us we have peace, whether we feel it or not.

In the times we don't feel saved, we put our dependence on: "By grace are we saved through faith, not of ourselves, but is the gift of God, not of works lest any should boast." Therefore, we have the assurance of salvation not through any feelings of being saved, but because God's Word says that we are.

What this means is that we are not guided by our feelings, or lack of them, but our foundation and hope is centred on the written promises that God has given us.

Alynn said:

So I read some forums about people who thought they had grieved the Holy Spirit. And im just seeing if anyone else has gone through this. I dont have a yearning. That presence in my heart is not there anymore. It's like I Know that I know that the Holy Spirit left me. I'm not sure if hell come back. I had been dealing with unforgiveness and did not want submit in that area. God gave me an opportunity to do that and without a second I rejected because I was still angry at this person. Now I realize that I shouldn't have done that.


Has anyone gone through this?

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I think it is unwise and dangerous to equate feelings in our heart with whether or not God is with us, or active within us. Remember, the Holy Spirit is not a feeling or a power or a force; He is God. The Third Person of the Holy Trinity.

Not feeling on fire or enthusiastic or happy is not a sign of God’s disfavor. Not necessarily. If you feel God is urging you to forgive, ask Him for the grace to forgive. We must forgive, but doing so can be difficult, and can take a while, as God works on us.

Alynn said:

So I read some forums about people who thought they had grieved the Holy Spirit. And im just seeing if anyone else has gone through this. I dont have a yearning. That presence in my heart is not there anymore. It's like I Know that I know that the Holy Spirit left me. I'm not sure if hell come back. I had been dealing with unforgiveness and did not want submit in that area. God gave me an opportunity to do that and without a second I rejected because I was still angry at this person. Now I realize that I shouldn't have done that.


Has anyone gone through this?

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You are sealed with the Holy Spirit (Ephesians 1:13), the moment you believe Christ died for your sins and rose again on the 3rd day for your justification (1 Cor 15:1-4)

So yes, he is still with you, you will never be rid of him.

Alynn said:

So I read some forums about people who thought they had grieved the Holy Spirit. And im just seeing if anyone else has gone through this. I dont have a yearning. That presence in my heart is not there anymore. It's like I Know that I know that the Holy Spirit left me. I'm not sure if hell come back. I had been dealing with unforgiveness and did not want submit in that area. God gave me an opportunity to do that and without a second I rejected because I was still angry at this person. Now I realize that I shouldn't have done that.


Has anyone gone through this?

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Dear one, I understand what you are going through. When I became someone I didn’t like; when I can’t pray ; when I can’t read a Bible ; when I can’t sing or praise or worship God; when I didn’t know how to approach Him; when I was lost; when I can’t connect with the Lord.

What I heard ! If you can wait for a doctor, you can wait for God. Wait is wait. Why wait ?
This is what we have heard :

but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;.... -Isaiah 40:31

I have used all my resources whether intellectual or any other way but no avail.

So I said I can wait. Daily I wait for the Lord. Though in the natural we can’t see, anything happened. I trust that God knew that I waited for Him. Though in the beginning I didn’t know what I waited for. Eventually I knew I waited for His steadfast love and His mercy.
Spiritually, my Lord strengthen me. He gave me this insight and I was excited when I heard the message; for I never perceived this before.

that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, -Ephesians 3:16
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith'that you, being rooted and grounded in love, -Ephesians 3:17

So it is through the Spirit that we are strengthened ; it is through the words that our Lord Jesus have spoken, that are Spirit and Life — that strengthened us.

So daily I memorized daily every words of God in my mind. Though in the beginning, I was concerned when I memorized more what I earlier memorized faded away. Then I began to treasure His words in my heart that I have memorized. So when I called to mind what is in my heart, that is, His words and spoke and believing wholeheartedly; the Spirit of His word gives me life.

This I hold dearly and always keep close to my heart:

It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh is no help at all. The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life. -John 6:63

The words of my dear beloved Lord,I keep close to my heart. That good things that I have heard, that was committed to me; I kept by the Holy Spirit who dwells in me.

I knew my Lord is not far but near to my heart because I kept His words in my heart.
Now I try to perceive and understand His first love by what my Lord has said and done. For I want to abide in His first love, I want Him to amaze me with His love— that I have not yet perceived and understand. For I like to consider the breadth, length, height and depth of His love, though it is beyond knowing, though it surpass knowledge; I just want Him to amazed with the power of His love, that He has prepared for me, that is, His gospel of love.

So dear one, wait on His steadfast love and be strengthened to be delighted with His love.

Abiding in Christ’s love, you will please the Holy Spirit.

This is what we have heard ：
"You have led in your steadfast love the people whom You have redeemed;
You have guided them by Your strength to Your holy abode. -Exodus 15:13

Hey Alynn,
I want to talk with you about this if you’d like- have you ever had anxiety or OCD? Before your numbness happened, was there a stressful event that took place or something that could have possibly triggered you to go numb?

Alynn said:

So I read some forums about people who thought they had grieved the Holy Spirit. And im just seeing if anyone else has gone through this. I dont have a yearning. That presence in my heart is not there anymore. It's like I Know that I know that the Holy Spirit left me. I'm not sure if hell come back. I had been dealing with unforgiveness and did not want submit in that area. God gave me an opportunity to do that and without a second I rejected because I was still angry at this person. Now I realize that I shouldn't have done that.


Has anyone gone through this?

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We have very similar stories.. I have some thoughts about what could be causing this and I’m gonna seek professional help soon. can you email me? I want to talk to you about this! What’s your email?

Alynn said:

I think I do have anxiety, it quiet took me longer to realize that I did.

In the beginning of 2019 I thought that I had committed the unforgivable sin which paralyzed me with so much fear. I lost weight. I think I was depressed during that time. Nothing but negativity. So I guess it was stemming from that.

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