Anniversary of my mothers death

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Today is a historic day where i live but a tragic day that claimed the lives of 100 people 18 years ago. I was 9 years old when i lost my mother in this horrific fire accident and a year later i was seperated from my younger brother who was 2 at the time because we had different fathers. So i stayed backed with my grandparents. I have never done well with this topic. Never succeded in counseling never talked about the incident never visited any of the memorials or my mothers grave. But today February 20th marks the day that it happened. It was 11:07pm when the fire started and it only took about 10-12 minutes for the entire building to burn down. The result of what happened was because of the use of pyrotechnics in a place that was not safe to use them. And that night the building was over crowded past its capacity for a band named Great White who peformed there that night. The buildings doors also opened in instead of out and there were no fire sprinklers and there was black foam inside the walls which was toxic when lit on fire. My mother should have escaped but she didn't. She went with her friend and the story is that my mothers friends said that my mother saved her by putting her thru the window but when she looked back my mother was not with her. And we all believe that night the reason she did not also come thru the window was because she was trying to help other people escape as well. Just know that typing this story out is not easy for me but i do want to share this with people. It has been 18 years that i have avoided everything conversations, places, etc. But i have chosen this year after running away for 18 years that this is the year to try and let go of the trauma ive been thru cause of it. Tonight i am going there for the second time since two weeks ago, its not an easy step but its the right thing to do. And i am going to stay there for the duration of the 10-12 minutes in remembrance of all the people that have died. It is easier for me to type then to say it in person.
 

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Remembering the 100 victims of the Station Nightclub fire 18 years later | WPRI.com

Today is a historic day where i live but a tragic day that claimed the lives of 100 people 18 years ago. I was 9 years old when i lost my mother in this horrific fire accident and a year later i was seperated from my younger brother who was 2 at the time because we had different fathers. So i stayed backed with my grandparents. I have never done well with this topic. Never succeded in counseling never talked about the incident never visited any of the memorials or my mothers grave. But today February 20th marks the day that it happened. It was 11:07pm when the fire started and it only took about 10-12 minutes for the entire building to burn down. The result of what happened was because of the use of pyrotechnics in a place that was not safe to use them. And that night the building was over crowded past its capacity for a band named Great White who peformed there that night. The buildings doors also opened in instead of out and there were no fire sprinklers and there was black foam inside the walls which was toxic when lit on fire. My mother should have escaped but she didn't. She went with her friend and the story is that my mothers friends said that my mother saved her by putting her thru the window but when she looked back my mother was not with her. And we all believe that night the reason she did not also come thru the window was because she was trying to help other people escape as well. Just know that typing this story out is not easy for me but i do want to share this with people. It has been 18 years that i have avoided everything conversations, places, etc. But i have chosen this year after running away for 18 years that this is the year to try and let go of the trauma ive been thru cause of it. Tonight i am going there for the second time since two weeks ago, its not an easy step but its the right thing to do. And i am going to stay there for the duration of the 10-12 minutes in remembrance of all the people that have died. It is easier for me to type then to say it in person.
Dear one,
You bear a lot of burden. Words escape me on how it is best to comfort you. I felt the pain, too. I hope God’s peace that surpass understanding surround you, and guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

May God soon bring you out of this distress.
May you receive the comfort of His love.
 
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I recall that horrible event on the evening news. Your Mom was clearly a HERO and saved at least one life and likely more. I'm sure you will be have all eternity to share this story of bravery in the worst of situations and I look forward to meeting your Mom face to face one day. Another Angel that lights up the evening sky in Heaven. May the Lord comfort you with understanding that is beyond anything any human could possibly write, but it is an honor to hear this story of such bravery and compassion.

Note your mother embodied the exact spirit of the second verse I quote in every post I make on Christian Forums from John 15. Your mother must have been an amazing woman.
 
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I recall that horrible event on the evening news. Your Mom was clearly a HERO and saved at least one life and likely more. I'm sure you will be have all eternity to share this story of bravery in the worst of situations and I look forward to meeting your Mom face to face one day. Another Angel that lights up the evening sky in Heaven. May the Lord comfort you with understanding that is beyond anything any human could possibly write, but it is an honor to hear this story of such bravery and compassion.

Note your mother embodied the exact spirit of the second verse I quote in every post I make on Christian Forums from John 15. Your mother must have been an amazing woman.
Thank you, yeah i did not mention this but my mother did save my life when i was younger, i wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for her. Its in her obituary.
https://www.legacy.com/obituaries/providence/obituary.aspx?n=tammy-mattera-housa&pid=162748674
 
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