Prayer for God to answer prayers that he won't answer

My life is miserable and a literal living hell. The reason why is because I have relentless enemies who constantly torment me. They assault me, they deprive me of sleep, they inject me with poison, they attack me, they ruin my life.

There is apparently nothing I can do to get rid of my enemies. They are on me always, and I can’t do anything about it.

God promised he would get rid of them if I don’t sin. Given that no one is perfect, it’s odd that God would tell me I have to be perfect for him to help me. Basically, I have to walk on eggshells my entire life and never make any mistakes, no matter how harmless. God gains absolutely nothing from this, and I in turn lose my freedom.

It’s difficult to quit sinning, since no one is perfect. But I’ve been able to forgo some of my main sins—but when I do this, God reneges on his word to get rid of my enemies and refuses to act.

I’ve asked God many times why he is doing this. Why did he say he would get rid of my enemies when I quit sinning, yet when I quit sinning he doesn’t get rid of them? He does not answer.

I’ve asked God many times to give me credit for the days where I have not sinned—which were many—and use that credit to permanently, not temporarily, get rid of my enemies so I can finally have a normal life. Yet God will not do it. He ignores me. I ask God why, but he continues to ignore me and refuses to respond.

Since God is refuses to answer my prayers, could everyone please pray to God and ask him to answer my prayers. I want God to tell me why he didn’t get rid of my enemies when I quit sinning. He said he would, but he didn’t and I want to know why. I also want God to tell me why he won’t give me credit for the days where I didn’t sin—which, again, were many—and get rid of my enemies permanently, but not temporarily, with the credit I’ve earned. He will not tell me, so please pray and ask him to tell me.

God has never made me so depressed, hurt, and upset in my entire life.

Earlier God told me he wouldn’t get rid of my enemies who are tormenting me, attacking me, and depriving me of sleep because I drank alcohol, saying that it constitutes a sin and he therefore will not help me because I sinned. Yet in the Bible Jesus turned water into wine and drank wine during the Last Supper, and since Christ never sinned that would mean the Bible suggests drinking alcohol is not a sin!

Many times I have asked God to explain this obvious contradiction in his conduct towards me. I ask God: If drinking alcohol is a sin, why does the Bible say Jesus turned water into wine and drank wine during the Last Supper?

God doesn’t answer, so I ask again. But again, no answer. I ask and ask and ask some more, but God won’t answer.

God has told me he thinks drinking alcohol is a sin because some people drink it irresponsibly and end up killing others in car accidents and other types of ways related to alcohol; therefore, God reasons that all alcohol drinking is a sin. In other words, because some people can’t drink responsibly, all the people who do drink responsibly cannot therefore be allowed to drink at all.

This logic is very unfair, especially towards all the people who drink responsibly. It reminds me of people with left-wing political views who want to ban guns. They say that because some people use guns irresponsibly and go on to kill people in school shootings and crime-related violence that no one should therefore be allowed own guns, including all the responsible Second Amendment supporters who only want firearms for self-defense and aren’t irresponsible gun owners.

So again I return to my original question with God and ask: If you believe drinking alcohol is a sin for whatever unfair reasons, why did Jesus turn water into wine and drink alcohol during the Last Supper? If drinking alcohol were such a “heinous” sin, then Jesus would have instead condemned drinking it, right? And each time I ask God disappoints me and doesn’t bother explaining this contradiction to me.

The entire reason why I’m drinking alcohol during the day is because I’m horribly depressed that God won’t do anything about my enemies who are attacking me, depriving me of sleep, and making my life a literal hell. He won’t get rid of them because I commit sins like drink alcohol, yet I’m drinking alcohol to drown out the pain over God’s refusal to do anything about my tormentors!

Here is a really good solution that would work incredibly well and get me to stop drinking alcohol during the day: God should give me credit for all the days I didn’t drink or commit any other sin—which have been many days—yet on those days God didn’t get rid of my tormentors. If I am given credit for all those days of excellent behavior, then God should therefore get rid of my tormentors at the soonest time possible irrespective of whether I’ve had a drink today. If he did that, I wouldn’t be so depressed over having monsters torment me, since they would be gone, and therefore not drink the following day, having no reason to do so.

Can everyone please pray and ask God to give me credit for all the times I haven’t sinned and permanently, not temporarily, get rid of my tormentors who are making my life a literal hell? I’ve asked him to do this before, and he decided to get rid of them only temporarily. That, however, did not resolve my problem, because the monsters returned within a few days, so all my problems resumed and I was back to square one.

God has made me feel so hurt an angry. Does he even care that he is hurting me?

God says he will permanently get rid of my tormentors when I don’t sin. Yet there have been so many days when I didn’t sin, but God didn’t get rid of them when I was flawless. Instead he unfairly moved the goalposts, found some trivial “flaw” in me that was so insignificant that it would offend no one, or otherwise didn’t tell me why he wouldn’t keep his word. I asked God to give me credit for all these days where I didn’t sin and use it to permanently get rid of my tormentors tonight. The result? God failed to grant my request, and the insulting, disgusting, and hurtful part is he didn’t even have the decency to tell me why!

I have never felt so hopeless in my entire life, and it’s all because God won’t keep his word and fails to communicate with me. Because God won’t respond to my prayers, I come to a Christian forum to request the prayers of others, thinking maybe God will listen to other Christians since he won’t listen to me. But nothing has changed! God still won’t permanently get rid of my tormentors, and my life is still a literal living hell.

It isn’t too much to ask God to give me credit for all the time I was flawless and didn’t sin and use it to get rid of my tormentors. Nor is it too much to ask God to explain why, if he chooses to reject my prayer request, he won’t give me the credit I’ve earned. Yet God does nothing, he says nothing, and he hurts me with his ignoring me!

I feel so hopeless that I want to buy materials to harm myself. If God still refuses to answer me, I feel like I have to cause significant physical harm to myself in order to elicit a reply from God. I don’t want things to come to this, so will others please pray for me and ask God to give me credit for all the time I didn’t sin and use it to get rid of my tormentors, and if he chooses to reject that request, for God to explain why? I’m so tired of God ignoring me and I wish he would just answer so that I don’t have to hurt myself!

I feel so depressed and hopeless, and my motivation to do anything is practically zero. My enemies are still here, and they are making my life a literal living hell.

Romans 5:6 says that Christ died for the ungodly. Which is to say, Jesus came to save sinners; he didn’t come to save the righteous, the flawless, and the perfect. Therefore, it doesn’t make sense why God is telling me he won’t get rid of my enemies, who are causing me untold grief and despair, unless I’m perfect and don’t sin. What I am experiencing with God’s very strange conduct towards me is not consistent with what the Bible teaches about his nature. Let me be clear: I am saved and born again.

If God wants me to forgo my main sins, then fine: I’ll do it. But I can’t accomplish this unless God permanently gets rid of my enemies first.

What are my main sins? Even though the Bible says drinking alcohol is okay, as demonstrated by the fact that Jesus drank wine during the Last Supper and turned water into wine in another part of the Gospels, God says my main sin is drinking alcohol. Yet the whole reason why I drink alcohol is to drown out the pain and anguish I feel over the fact that God won’t get rid of my enemies! Therefore, if God would actually listen to me for once instead of ignore my cries for his mercy and help, he would permanently get rid of my enemies first, then I would stop drinking because, given that my enemies would be permanently gone, I would have no reason to drink in the first place! Does God even care to listen to my opinion?

My other main sin is that I have a nicotine addiction. But there isn’t really any reason why God would hold this against me because I am using the nicotine gum to taper off my addiction and slowly wean from the nicotine tolerance so that, once I finally go off it, the withdrawal process won’t cause as much head pain and will be much more tolerable than a cold turkey quit. Thus, I don’t see any reason God would hold this particular sin against me because I’m trying hard to do what I can to get off of it, slowly but surely.

Here is something that is really bothering me. On many other occasions, I have gone the whole day without my mains sins, nor did I commit any other sins. One time I went over a month without having a drink and managed to quit nicotine cold turkey, not drinking or smoking or even having a piece of nicotine gum once during this over month-long period. Yet God did not do anything about my enemies, letting them stay and torment me and make my life hell, because he moved the goalposts and didn’t sufficiently explain what he wanted me to do. His instructions were very unclear, and even though I cried out to him multiple times asking him why he wouldn’t help me, he refused to clarify what he wanted me to do! Thus, it seems reasonable and fair that I earned credit for all these days where I didn’t sin, indeed went for a long period without sinning, yet God didn’t keep his word to permanently get rid of my enemies. Therefore, I believe it is fair and just and reasonable to ask God to permanently get rid of my enemies tonight, since I’ve already earned so much credit for God to do something that would require minimal effort on his part and would result in me having a normal life again.

But why won’t God listen to me? My request is reasonable: all I want is for God to permanently get rid of my enemies with all the credit I’ve earned, but he hasn’t done it yet and refuses to even explain why!

Can everyone please pray for me and ask God to give me credit for all the many days where I fulfilled his requests by not sinning, and use that credit to permanently get rid of my enemies?

If God doesn’t permanently get rid of my enemies with the credit I’ve earned, I want to hear from him and have him explain why he is treating me so unfairly and unjustly, leaving me to suffer literal hell. I’ve been asking God to explain why he won’t help me this way, and the fact that he won’t respond and explain why hurts me so much. I feel so apathetic and hopeless, and it’s all because God won’t even communicate with me! I don’t want him to tell me it’s because I sinned and was imperfect. I know that! The whole point of giving me credit that I’ve earned to permanently get rid of my enemies is precisely so I can stop my main sins, since my enemies won’t be around to torment me and cause me to drink to numb the pain they cause, irrespective over the fact that I sinned today.

My enemies have been attacking me and assaulting me recently, and God didn’t do anything to put a stop to it. For this reason, it’s likely that God isn’t going to give me the credit I earned for him to do me a very simple favor and get rid of them tonight, which would be a very humane favor to ask for and require little effort on his part, but will instead make me suffer with them because I sinned and failed to be perfect. What I want to know is why? Please pray for me and ask God to tell me why he won’t give me credit for the favor I’ve earned with all the countless days where I lived up to his impossibly high standards, but instead reneged on his word to help me on those days because he unfairly moved the goalposts, found some trivial "flaw" in me, or otherwise didn’t bother telling me how I offended him with literally nothing.