So I kind of wanna post every day to see how everything‘s going do you have any advice for every day so yesterday I was trying to be a little bit more happy I went to the store and I watched a movie but Right all that I stopped and I cried again and I was sad because I feel no believe no nothing and I feel now I don’t even want to sometimes but I know somewhere I do because I wouldn’t be crying every time I wake up I’m worried I don’t know what to do I cry I want to go back in time out I was such a good Christian I hear read the Bible but I read the Bible a few times a day or a listen to it or play it and they say pray I do that all day I’ll pray a few times a day pretty sure anyway so I don’t know what to do I can’t feel beliefs I can’t feel anything but sadness I was such a good Christian I think around seven when I was 7 i’m pretty sure run around saying do you know Jesus on the playground and stuff and at the age of 13 I was considering getting baptized because I have been trying so long I can’t feel anything I just want my face and believe I wanna go back in time I don’t know what to do it’s hard to trust but I’m trying is that there’s so much doubt and unbelief I don’t know what to do how to get rid of it God change my personality so much such a better person but these two months been really hard because I haven’t been able to feel him at all and I’ve been hit with so much Unbelief i’m just worried I think because it’s so hard every day this is my daily routine in the morning at least I pray and cry twice and then I get on my phone and make a threat or talk to someone and that’s really it for the morning so which is I have lost so much weight from sadness and I haven’t done really anything was in a room and cry I don’t know what to do just I feel like so sad I am I stopped looking up stuff because in the beginning I tried that and it got worse I looked up proof of Jesus and it got worse in the beginning I don’t know what to do should I look up stuff and testimonies so I kind of just been sitting in the room and crying I think I’m losing my faith and belief in that scares me so do you have any advice I don’t know if this is OCD or me because before I had no doubt no one believe if someone ask me why do you believe in God I’ll just say because i do
do you have any advice because I’m just so sad I to stop doing everything I liked because I to shut down if I can’t feel my face I’m not doing anything technically the first thing I did well in a long time as watch a movie i’m just very sad this morning I have so much Unbelief and out I wanted to stop so bad but I said no my parents said I can get my faith and belief back when I come home I don’t know how but they said that because right now I’m not at their house so I just worried worried and scared that’s all I think about i’m sorry for auto cracks my face=faith
do you have any advice because I’m just so sad I to stop doing everything I liked because I to shut down if I can’t feel my face I’m not doing anything technically the first thing I did well in a long time as watch a movie i’m just very sad this morning I have so much Unbelief and out I wanted to stop so bad but I said no my parents said I can get my faith and belief back when I come home I don’t know how but they said that because right now I’m not at their house so I just worried worried and scared that’s all I think about i’m sorry for auto cracks my face=faith
