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Hey man, I know how you feel, sad, tired, anxious and exhausted almost everyday. You feel like you're already living in hell as it is so you get desperate and anxious. But just listen man, just yesterday I had a episode where I thought I committed the unforgivable sin for real, and I'm still obsessing about it honestly. But listen, Jesus said we only need a mustard seed of faith to move mountains and I know how you feel man honestly, it's so hard, the doubt and the uncertainty day and night everyday but just know that your feelings are misleading at times. Remember what it says in the Bible, "The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?" -Jeremiah 17:9. Our feelings are not facts but Jesus's love is, it's also a fact that Jesus said "All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away." Remember that man, don't even worry about these things because realize that you fighting wanting any type of faith is proof you have faith because it's ok to feel this way! The Bible also says "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!" Thomas also doubted until he saw Jesus in his resurrected body! So don't worry about these things. Pray, pray, pray and hold on to God's word. And also remember that it's not YOU who has unbelief but your brain. It's a brain glitch due to a mental illness, trust me I know. God bless you man, from one OCD struggler to another, hold on to Jesus and just believe. <3

Things do get better with Jesus dear battler, honestly true.

i used to struggle with doubt, unbelief, unovercomable sins. It was horrible. i have a severe mental illness as well. And struggled rock bottom for years. Yet Jesus taught me to have faith in God's love. He taught me that when we sow in fear and inner turmoil then we harvest whirlwinds, He loves us to find safety in His loving truth.

It is about finding Jesus in your life. If you have faith in Him, then He dwells in your heart through His Spirit and will be able to rebuild you into a new person who does not succumb to mental illness.

Go to Jesus even now and bring Him your inability and humble ask for ability back and then practise your faith and trust He will make things okay as He promised.

So open the bible and begin to read God's address to you and know that fear builds us hell but faith in God's love builds us paradise within. Honestly true.

Be of good courage.


Are you medicated? If not that might help a lot as well. No shame in needed medication, finding the right ones can be a real challenge though. So if your symptoms keep reappearing consider trying another drug.

Jesuslove70708 said:

I’m not Diagnosed so I’m trying to get Dino’s tomorrow though but Sometimes I feel like I don’t care and I don’t like that a lot of times I feel like that and it hurts is it normal for a person to have ocd feel feel like they don’t care and they feel like they don’t want their faith I noticing I’m caring less every day and that bothers me pretty sure anyway so do you have any advice currently I’m in foster care and most the time I spend looking up at the ceiling so if you have any time that will be great

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The best is to rebuild yourself with God's loving truth. Find your identity in Him. Get Him to love you so you don't have to feel so empty. That empty feeling is depression, a monster if ever there is one, best fight that growing emptiness with God's love. Let His loving truth fill you up to the brim.

Honest that is how escaped my inner demons. Going to Jesus with my bad life and trusting Him to make something good out of it.

Jesus is the one you need, He is the one who can take that empty feeling away. Build yourself anew with love, faith, kindness, openness, honesty, gentleness, self control, hope, joy, thankfulness and paience and you will reap a good harvest.

Be of good courage and put your faith in God's love - time and again - and let His word rebuild you into a warrior of righteousness.




The Beggar Of My Existence

Begging I lay beside the road, unable to get-up or move on.
Paralysed after a viscous assault when I was just a little kid
bloodied I stared at my wretched existence for many years.
Hope had gone, pain throbbing, hungry and thirsty, cold and alone,
the inner demons dragging me deeper and deeper down the drain,
helpless the wicked abused my life, robbing me of all my possessions.

Most of my life I lay there beside the road alone
I don't know how I survived my miserable existence,
by-passers often bashed me, blaming me for their hate.
At first I was raped night after night for years,
lately mainly tortured for cruel fun and cheap thrills,
oh yes, those wicked ones have been hurting me!

Not often have peels been part of my diet,
weeds, grass, rotten fruit and insects,
that's what I ate, such meagre meals.
I was skin over bones and smelled like sewage.
Walking dead, longing for an early ending.
I didn't feel worthy to carry the name human.

Suddenly I became aware of a pleasant aroma,
a beautifully perfumed visitor, a rich stranger,
he knelt beside beside me and took hold of me
I thought, maybe he'll give me something worthwhile,
I'd better ask quickly before he goes on his way,
normally the rich don't ever stop to talk to me!

Facing the visitor I croaked through parched lips,
please? I am unable to move and very hungry,
my last visitor abused me and I'm hurting bad,
could you spare me some food or money,
a sip of water, I'm so thirsty right now?
Expectantly I looked up into the man's eyes.

Chewing delicious bread I stared at the stranger,
the young wine had refreshed me completely
where did all this come from I wonder?
My taste-buds were in Heaven and so was I
I couldn't believe what I was hearing
I remember his lips pronounce the words;

"Shalom... Beloved...

..You're most welcome, my child," he said,
"Eat your fill, here, have another sip of wine,
your clothes are all worn, dirty and broken.
At home I have some new clean garments your size,
a warm bath and a place of safety and rest,
awaiting my dwelling-place high-up New Eden street."

That's what he said, and that's what he did for me!
Amazed I watched as out of nowhere servants arrived,
gently lifting me out of my grime and of the street,
carrying me along an all together different route,
right to the top of a most beautiful mountain hill,
halting before a mansion I didn't know could exist.

A doctor came and tended my wounds and sores
ointments soothing, smelling like fragrant herbs
a massage, gently, carefully rejuvenating me.
Years long ache disappearing, well-being arriving,
heaven on earth how could all this be for me,
when did I do anything to deserve this treatment?

A gentle knock on my door, as I lay sleeping
in a massive bedroom, adorned for royalty.
"You've been invited at The Feast tonight."
I recall this loving moment fleetingly pass by,
how lovely he looked standing there,
"and Dad said he likes to meet you as well."

I remember how confused I had been, Dad?
A party tonight, seeing Dad, who and what else?
Why is he looking after me so fantastically well?
My mind was in turmoil after all these events,
several hours ago I still lay dying in my filth,
and now..? now I was so alive and so fulfilled!

Gratitude arose like paradise restored within,
never before did I feel so much thankfulness,
I'd been rescued from a life of painful misery,
saved from the wretchedness of my existence,
restored to human dignity, loved and cared for,
deep down I knew Life had found me for good.

Jesuslove70708 said:

Thxs i feel so numb tho

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How long did you suffer from depressive thoughts before this numbness came about? It is about reversing the trend and rebuild yourself having good wholesome loving thoughts towards God, yourself and your neighbour.

Disown bad life and its power over you by focusing on good life and letting it rebuild you - every day again.

Fight the negative thoughts and feelings and seek after positive thoughts and feelings reading His word to yourself.

Faith in His love can conquer the darkness and its numbing grip on our hearts.

Be of good courage.