I go in for c section this friday in the morning. I have lot of emotions. Im nervous but mostly depressed. Im depressed because I have 1 baby already and I love him and I never been away from him so long.
I also feel sad because I have no clue how Ill handle 2 babies, and work. I feel unprepared and the father is so ambitious-less. He works but not hard enough"m, no car, no place of his own still with mom( hes 40) I did the work to get places together( set asidr deposit and stuff) he doesnt call or come see me. I feel alone.
I feel he won't be present for the birth unless someone picks him up he has no intiative to to things. I feel he likes to be chauffered and catered to .
Lastly, I had a very disturbing dream that my csection went wrong and i end up dying. I was walking with my son and at one point I disappeared and my mom was holding his hand. Then i asked my mom to watch over my kids she said why wouldnt I?
It still chokes me up.
Anyway please pray ill be ok.
I also feel sad because I have no clue how Ill handle 2 babies, and work. I feel unprepared and the father is so ambitious-less. He works but not hard enough"m, no car, no place of his own still with mom( hes 40) I did the work to get places together( set asidr deposit and stuff) he doesnt call or come see me. I feel alone.
I feel he won't be present for the birth unless someone picks him up he has no intiative to to things. I feel he likes to be chauffered and catered to .
Lastly, I had a very disturbing dream that my csection went wrong and i end up dying. I was walking with my son and at one point I disappeared and my mom was holding his hand. Then i asked my mom to watch over my kids she said why wouldnt I?
It still chokes me up.
Anyway please pray ill be ok.
