so basically the title says it. I can't stand going to church. My fiance is the worship director and shes going to start preaching after we get married. I also sometimes volunteer for the tech stuff. I recently told her how much i really don't like going to church ( I've told her this before, but i really drove home the point this time). I don't like the music, the messages are boring, or too shallow, i never get anything from it and I'm very introverted. Ive been to many churches in my life, and church always feels like a chore. I'm not a "feeler" either though, so i have never really "felt" God, and probably never will. However, i DO believe the bible and what it says. I'm just a very logic brained person.
She was really upset by me telling her this and she feels like we need to share the same values and etc if we are going to be married. I told her we DO share the same values, i just don't like going to church, but she is still bothered by this and says it's important to her because its a big part of her life and she wants us to share that i guess.
I wish i could just flip a switch and like it, but i can't. I'm not sure what to do about it, i just needed to vent and get some advice. I'm also not the best at communicating, so if something is unclear, let me know please
I really think the issue here is that your wife is deceived into believing false doctrine. The Bible makes the roles of a man and woman, the roles within the church very clear.
"But I would have you know, that the head of every man is Christ; and the head of the woman
is the man; and the head of Christ
is God." 1 Corinthians 11:3
"Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord." Ephesians 5:22
“But I suffer not a woman to teach, nor to usurp authority over the man, but to be in silence.” 1 Timothy 2:12 (A good example of woman's role in the church)
YOU are to be the head of your household, the one who leads your wife and family. Many people misconstrue this as God giving man some sort of leeway to "abuse his wife". Which is a lie. The man is called to love his wife the way Christ loves the church. And Jesus gave His very life for the church. God is pleased with a woman who does not battle and quarrel with her husband every time she feels like she needs to get her way. For a wife, obedience to Christ is also obedience and respect and honor and trust in her husband. To honor his decisions as head of the family, while to also trusting in his decisions.
Your fiancée cannot please God while trying to be pastor in a church, because that directly goes against the very teachings within the scriptures. I would recommend sharing these verses with her. Read the entire chapters so that way you can get the full context. There are many verses that talk about this. And if she wants to lead a whole flock, well then she's going to have to ignore some pretty detrimental verses within the Bible, just to continue pursuing being a "pastor". Even though that isn't the role God has assigned for her.
If she continues to fight you after you share these things with her, well then that's a good glimpse as to what your marriage will be like. If she's trying to lead a church, who then will lead your children? Who will have the final say with what they learn doctrinally, if your wife has been given so much authority already? If they see mom up there teaching everyone and dad being silent in the church, that's a clear distortion of the roles God set in play for man and woman. And in turn can confuse your own children.
Really think this through and discuss these things with her. Because once you marry, there is no room for divorce unless adultery was committed.