Please pray for my mind. I worry that my heart/flesh/ mind is rebelling against God. I sometimes feel He dislikes me. I feel so different from other people( too tired to explain) and my mind is struggling. (My own sin my own fault) Does anyone else whilst believing in the sanctity and importance of life wish they were never born? Sorry for being so dark- my thoughts feel very dark. I was given a prophetic word years ago that I would be helping people who were suicidal and depressed in the future this gives me hope but i’m tired of struggling sorry I don’t even know why I’m writing this I’m fed up. God bless everyone
You need to go through this battle before you will be able to help those going through it. The battle is simple - what you sow you shall harvest. If you sow bad thoughts into your heart then you will reap desolation but if you sow good thoughts into your heart then you will reap and gain ability.
i struggle with a depressive illness myself and have had to learn to fight the constant negativity of my depression. i do that by finding my Identity in God's word and in His promises.
Amazing how well this works fighting depression. In the mean time you have to get rid of all that bad life you are carrying. Take it to Jesus and give it all to Him and accept His loving grace back in return and serve Him with Joy.
Honest, get rid of the old life by letting Jesus replace it into His truth. All you have to do is crown love for God king of your heart instead of your big I and begin to serve the Lord one minute into the next.
When Jesus told me to get rid of my bad life i was deep down in my pit, Where i had lingered for 7 long years suicidally depressed. i longed to die then. Life was unbearable and sin i was unable to stop.
Then Jesus told me the truth and showed me how for years i had build my daily reality with despair, hopelessness, sadness, guilt, shame, fear, oh so much fear, and that if i would build myself with faith in His love then i would soon have hope again. True hope.
Unbelievable has life gotten better serving Jesus actively. Bringing Him my bad life - everything - time and again - and asking Him humble for good life back. i bought all the music of Sons of Korah, who sing out of the psalms, straight scripture to have me learning to walk in His truth and do things His way.
How i have learned to love Jesus for saving me from my desolation. It is absolutely awful down there. So glad i got rid of my bad life. It took me less than four years building with His truth to climb out of my pit even though my depressive illness just keeps on going. Jesus made me stronger than my depression can throw at me and i love Him for it.
He is the greatest Saviour to know.
Peace.
