Reintroducing Myself

Pia. said:

Hello again. I've been gone for a few years so I thought it'd be good to reintroduce myself.

My name is Pia. I'm struggling.

I feel like I've turned away from God and have denied him over and over but he keeps pulling me back in. There's no other explanation but that God is at work in my life.

I used to be a very devout Christian. I even declared my intention to be a nun as a small child. Now, however, it seems all I can do is doubt.

The thing is, I know he's there. I've heard his voice. As I was sitting in an airport years ago and I heard a voice that told me something very specific that I never could have known myself nor could anyone else. I thought for weeks on it but soon asked for the blessing to be taken back—that I couldn't do it. And he did. Since that day I have felt so distant. Alone. I doubted what I'd heard, thinking I'd made it all up.

Recently though, I've felt like I'm being pulled back in. Almost like I was in timeout and my punishment is almost over. Is that something that God does? Is it like wandering the desert?

I don't know but I'm here. And I'm trying.

So I ask that you all pray for me. Maybe point me in the direction of some relevant verses, threads, or helpful books. Anything works, really.

Pia.

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Pia. said:

Hello again. I've been gone for a few years so I thought it'd be good to reintroduce myself.

My name is Pia. I'm struggling.

I feel like I've turned away from God and have denied him over and over but he keeps pulling me back in. There's no other explanation but that God is at work in my life.

I used to be a very devout Christian. I even declared my intention to be a nun as a small child. Now, however, it seems all I can do is doubt.

The thing is, I know he's there. I've heard his voice. As I was sitting in an airport years ago and I heard a voice that told me something very specific that I never could have known myself nor could anyone else. I thought for weeks on it but soon asked for the blessing to be taken back—that I couldn't do it. And he did. Since that day I have felt so distant. Alone. I doubted what I'd heard, thinking I'd made it all up.

Recently though, I've felt like I'm being pulled back in. Almost like I was in timeout and my punishment is almost over. Is that something that God does? Is it like wandering the desert?

I don't know but I'm here. And I'm trying.

So I ask that you all pray for me. Maybe point me in the direction of some relevant verses, threads, or helpful books. Anything works, really.

Pia.

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Pia. said:

I feel like I've turned away from God and have denied him over and over but he keeps pulling me back in. There's no other explanation but that God is at work in my life.

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Pia. said:

Hello again. I've been gone for a few years so I thought it'd be good to reintroduce myself.

My name is Pia. I'm struggling.

I feel like I've turned away from God and have denied him over and over but he keeps pulling me back in. There's no other explanation but that God is at work in my life.

I used to be a very devout Christian. I even declared my intention to be a nun as a small child. Now, however, it seems all I can do is doubt.

The thing is, I know he's there. I've heard his voice. As I was sitting in an airport years ago and I heard a voice that told me something very specific that I never could have known myself nor could anyone else. I thought for weeks on it but soon asked for the blessing to be taken back—that I couldn't do it. And he did. Since that day I have felt so distant. Alone. I doubted what I'd heard, thinking I'd made it all up.

Recently though, I've felt like I'm being pulled back in. Almost like I was in timeout and my punishment is almost over. Is that something that God does? Is it like wandering the desert?

I don't know but I'm here. And I'm trying.

So I ask that you all pray for me. Maybe point me in the direction of some relevant verses, threads, or helpful books. Anything works, really.

Pia.

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