He has not saved me from some of those things yet and I have been foolish and led astray. I pray to Him but I do not feel He hears me very well, and I wait on Him in prayer, but He does not show up. I read His word and love Him so much. I have been called to fast but I do not know how to do it safely and have never done it. My husband has become a naysayer and I am not happy. When I pray for him it gets worse. I am at a crossroads.
Dear Jaxxi,
This is what I have heard:
Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be taken up and thrown into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but
believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. -Mark 11:23
So, when I believe and say this :
when the goodness and loving kindness of God my Savior appeared,
He saved me from being foolish, being disobedient, being led astray.
I just believe and it will come to pass. It will be done for me.
I just have in faith in God, that is, believe in the the words that the Son of God have said.
How I don’t become foolish and led astrayed ?
I just hold onto His words. I submit His words daily and believe God give me wisdom on how to live aright. If I make mistake, I just pray for forgiveness because I know Jesus is a holy man who plead for me before His Father. He will help me. He will forgive me his child for the sake of His name.
Until today, there are things that I have been foolish doing, that is, holding onto my self righteousness and self love — that offend family whom I love. I didn’t know many things that I have done — wrong them so much — pain them. I just ask them for forgiveness, seek their mercy and tell them I need help because there are things that they ask of me — that I can’t do yet — I am emotionally fatigued— may be eventually I can do if God gives me the strength and wisdom.
So don’t be downcasted, jaxxi. Don’t be dismayed. For this is what we have heard:
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go." -Joshua 1:9
Jaxxi, I understand if your loved one is naysayer. It hurts. It pains. Many crying moments. Yes, afflicted in every way. I have the same resistance from my papa, and he can talk for hours with he disagrees with me on many things and remembered so well past events.
But I just choose a path to humble myself. I don’t insist my own righteousness. I want to be thoughtful to him; putting aside my rightness or his rightness, I just choose to make peace with him. Be first to confess wrong. This strength I get from the Lord because I keep asking God to give me strength to forgive those who wronged, offended me, distorted what I have said and done. I just keep pressing to release forgiveness in prayer and took courage to meet him. When my papa boils anger and frustration, I am just emotionally fatigued to be close to him or talk to him. Eventually God gives me the strength to push away anger and frustration with the strength of His love. I just press and believe that I can do things to love my papa. I believe God is with me. For God is love. I just tell myself how much I owe my papa and God love— I just need to work something to pay back this love. I believe God can help me build many memorable memories of love and affection though I didn’t see yet I believe there will be many.
Dear Jaxxi,
I understand your cross road. I have been naysayer husband, too. I am ashamed. But God changed me, humbled me.
Before I never appreciate the little things my wife has done for me and children ; eventually I see her thoughtfulness and diligence.
We just need to believe God gives us His people strength. In His righteousness, He can bring us out of distress. He can bring us relief and favor.
Jaxxi, I come to understand more about God from what I have heard:
steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the LORD. -Psalms 32:10
So we need to trust in the steadfast of love of God in the journey of our life, then the manifestation of His love will surround us.
So who need to act first to trust ? We are ! Why ? Because it mean much the manifestation of His love to surround us in our afflictions. His love bring comfort to us that we dearly need.
That is how we become overcomer through Christ who loved us.
Jaxxi, just trust God gives you the strength.
Remember you are dearly loved — called chosen because the Lord have loved you and gave Himself for you.
Remember in your afflictions, you are not alone if you have taken the Lord’s yoke. Why? Taking His yoke means that the Lord suffered with us. That is how much we owe our Lord Jesus Christ our love.