This is a tough one. Use to suffer from what was clinically known as bi-polar. A lot of my problems stimmed from my experiences growing up in life. Was an angry human being, sometimes would be depressed and speaking openly to myself statements such as ' I hate myself, I am better off dead, Shut up Matthew! A lot of self doubt, no understanding of the motivation of which direction to go (because of being hardheaded and having things my own way compared to what anyone else had to say).
Mother was never really around to teach me anything, so suffered from anxiety, also a lot of selfishness because of not properly addressing the issues going on my life.
There was no father figure, and I had to live and learn a lot on my own though people came in and out of my life, in the past almost now 30 years.
Also made a bucket load of choices of misusing others, manipulations, lying, stealing, whatever you can name hating God, using drugs, hating Christians, hating people in general.
Around the age of 26 is when it all started to change, was still angry, also accepting the Lord Jesus Christ helped a little bit, had to really address my early life and why was I the way I was, observing the experiences, realized that I was a selfish hateful human being, who desired his own way, but also in times where no one was around ; where seeing the world with their friends and social media ; I was in my room alone : Though did go on webcam sites to see other people and react with them like yahoo chat sites to fill in my times of lonelyness.
Life is tough, and sometimes we really need to be open about what the issues we experiences in life where, why we did the things we did, what led us to do them, and what are the alternatives to the negatives, and how do we face these problems.
At this point, God worked in me and changed me alot from the manic depressive person that once was, who use to take medications but some people need medications to help them.
Not everyone is like myself, but also this was my experiences that had to be dealt with and addressed slowly through out my life.
God bless!