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Some weeks ago I felt like I came to a point where I can no longer truly repent I feel like I can no longer repent and that I no longer can go to heaven now I feel like Esau I feel like I'm trying to repent but I cant I'm trying so hard to truly repent and I cant like it's not there true repentance seems to be no where in me and I dont know what to do I feel doomed
 

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Some weeks ago I felt like I came to a point where I can no longer truly repent I feel like I can no longer repent and that I no longer can go to heaven now I feel like Esau I feel like I'm trying to repent but I cant I'm trying so hard to truly repent and I cant like it's not there true repentance seems to be no where in me and I dont know what to do I feel doomed
Continue to ask God for His graces. The Bible is full of stories of sinners just like you and me who often sinned along the way to Heaven. Know that God loves you and will never let you lose your immortal soul.
 
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Continue to ask God for his graces. The Bible is full of stories of sinners just like you and me who often sinned along the way to Heaven. Know that God loves you and will never let you lose your immortal soul.
Yea but why couldnt Esau repent ? I Could be another Esau I feel like him and I feel like there is no chance for me
 
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Repentance is a gift...

Ask for repentance if you really want it...

Forget about how you feel - our Father is merciful and harkens unto those who call on Him.

Cry out with your whole heart.

Say sorry to God - He doesn't want to condemn folks to a Godless eternity.

On your knees - cry out to Him with your whole heart.
 
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A couple of decades ago, I was in a similar state as you. I thought I was void of repentance, that God was silent and that I was doomed. Quite depressing as i am sure you know. Anyway, I decided I was going to still follow Jesus the best I could. After all, I hated Satan, despised my sin and really there is no other choice. Sure I knew the tough scriptures about not being able to repent. However, there are other scriptures that offer the mercy and forgiveness that I needed too. Anyway, rather than meditating on all the negatives, keep moving toward God and let Him catch you. At some point, (hopefully soon) you will gain your confidence back. In the meantime quit condemning your self. The devil is trying to shipwreck you, and you got to get the sails back up and running toward God. Read the word, get taught the word in and out of church, pray, have fellowship and praise. You can't earn your salvation but you never could. YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT! God bless.
 
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Yea but why couldnt Esau repent ? I Could be another Esau I feel like him and I feel like there is no chance for me

It is not Father's wish that anyone would perish not you either. Believing you will be doomed based on your feelings is a really silly thing to do when it contradicts the truths of Scripture. God is stronger than your heart. He seeks you even now to repent and turn to Him.

1 Timothy 2:3-6
"This is good, and pleases God our Savior, who wants all people to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the truth. For there is one God and one mediator between God and mankind, the man Christ Jesus, who gave himself as a ransom for all people."
 
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"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." I John 1:9

Plus when we've repented, our Savior who knows everything, chooses not to even remember them! "And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more" Heb 10:17
 
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Are you sure that you’ve interpreted that verse correctly? Specifically, did you read that article by John Piper on Desiring God?

Better to pray and seek God about what He wants you to understand rather than follow celebrities who cant agree with each other.
 
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Better to pray and seek God about what He wants you to understand rather than follow celebrities who cant agree with each other.
Would you agree that the verse of reference is saying that Esau could not repent because Isaac had already given the blessing to Jacob? That it wasn’t a matter of repenting of his sin?
Esau wept because Isaac couldn’t give him the blessing.
 
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Would you agree that the verse of reference is saying that Esau could not repent because Isaac had already given the blessing to Jacob? That it wasn’t a matter of repenting of his sin?
Esau wept because Isaac couldn’t give him the blessing.

What God is saying to you is much more important than some theological take on a verse.
 
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Yea but why couldnt Esau repent ? I Could be another Esau I feel like him and I feel like there is no chance for me
Esau was not truly sorry for his sins, it sounds very much like you want to have a good relationship with Jesus so you must be sorry for anything that you did to harm that relationship. Feeling are not always reliable they are based on emotions that can change moment to moment, so look at the long view.
 
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Some weeks ago I felt like I came to a point where I can no longer truly repent I feel like I can no longer repent and that I no longer can go to heaven now I feel like Esau I feel like I'm trying to repent but I cant I'm trying so hard to truly repent and I cant like it's not there true repentance seems to be no where in me and I dont know what to do I feel doomed

If you're trying to repent, you're not doomed.

What do you mean by "trying to repent"? What do you feel should happen?
 
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Yea but why couldnt Esau repent ? I Could be another Esau I feel like him and I feel like there is no chance for me

Which passage are you referring to?
If it's the one where Jacob tricked Esau out of his father's blessing; Esau was very unhappy that he had been tricked - but he couldn't do anything to change the situation. He did receive a blessing from his father, but a lesser one.

But if you read Genesis 25:23, God told Rebekah that she was expecting twins and said "the older will serve the younger" - before they were born it was known that Esau would serve Jacob.
Jacob shouldn't have needed to trick anyone.
 
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But Isaac didn't seem to accept the prophetic word given to Rebekah by God Isaac told Esau "...I will give you my final blessing before I die.”

It's evident in the blessing he gave Jacob thinking it was Esau "He said, “The pleasant smell of my son is like the smell of a field which the Lord has blessed. 28 May God give you dew from heaven and make your fields fertile! May he give you plenty of grain and wine! 29 May nations be your servants, and may peoples bow down before you. May you rule over all your relatives, and may your mother's descendants bow down before you. May those who curse you be cursed, and may those who bless you be blessed.” Gen 27

Believe this verse explains why "And Isaac loved Esau, because he did eat of his venison: but Rebekah loved Jacob." Gen 25 In other words, Isaac put his personal feelings over God's prophetic word. We emphasis what Jacob and Rebekah did but don't mention how Isaac dropped the ball.
 
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Some weeks ago I felt like I came to a point where I can no longer truly repent I feel like I can no longer repent and that I no longer can go to heaven now I feel like Esau I feel like I'm trying to repent but I cant I'm trying so hard to truly repent and I cant like it's not there true repentance seems to be no where in me and I don't know what to do I feel doomed.
What are you basing 'true repentance' on?

Esau did not truly repent, he just moaned and groaned in complaint. However the man in Luke 18:13 did truely repent. But the beating of breasts and the ripping of clothes and sitting in ashes is according to the Jewish culture.

I haven't ever seen a Christian repent in that manner. I've just seen/heard a person say "I repent" (describing what they'd done and stating that it was wrong).
No one could've followed them around all day to scrutinize their behavior. No one could read their mind or know their thoughts to judge if they were sincere. But seeing them be emotional is not the way to know for sure.

Because I've done the wrong thing without any emotion. While the person reacted in the wrong way with a lot of emotion.

So it's what you say or do that is the evidence of having done wrong. Repentance is not an emotion. Repentance is words that describe your response to a convicting from the Lord. You could have emotions but they aren't necessary.

The word repentance actually means "to turn away from". So if I told you to go and face your kitchen sink then I told you to turn away from it. How much emotion do you think you'd need to do it?

Now. If I encouraged you to repent for any wrongdoings.. how much emotion do you think you'd need to do it?

If you are saved then you have heaven as your eternal home already. There isn't any scripture that states that repentance must be done with emotion. There's no scripture that says that emotional repentance will guarantee your place in heaven.
 
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Some weeks ago I felt like I came to a point where I can no longer truly repent I feel like I can no longer repent and that I no longer can go to heaven now I feel like Esau I feel like I'm trying to repent but I cant I'm trying so hard to truly repent and I cant like it's not there true repentance seems to be no where in me and I dont know what to do I feel doomed

You're not doomed. Esau didn't have Jesus. You do. You have God's Grace.

We repent and keep trying to live the way God wants us to live.. because we love God. Sin drags us down and makes us feel guilty.. because we know our God hates sin. So we repent and turn away from it. But that repentance isn't what gets us into heaven. The fact that Christ sacrificed His life and paid for our sin.. is what gets us into heaven.

Scripture says that 'our own righteousness is as filthy rags'. Nothing we ourselves can do.. can make us of worthy of God. That is why He sent His Son to die and pay for our sin. Because He loved us anyway. In spite of our unworthiness. So keep repenting. Keep turning away from whatever it is that seems to be holding you hostage. Accept the gift of the Holy Spirit to help you fight against it. Realize that all your own efforts fail to make you worthy of God. But that you desperately want to be what He wants you to be. Keep trying. But also praise God that He loves you anyway.. and accepts you into His kingdom, and that He will never abandon you. That He has bought you with His Son's sacrifice. That you belong to Him and always will. You are very young in the Lord. But you will grow. And so will your faith.
 
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Yea but why couldnt Esau repent ? I Could be another Esau I feel like him and I feel like there is no chance for me
God's mercy is so great, FAR greater than any sin, this is something that I did not realize for many years. You acknowledge your sin, which you certainly have done, and obviously you care, that is repentance. You don't need perfect repentance, you can strive for it, but God made us human. I don't want to go to hell, that is actually enough for Jesus, but I try for more. As to Esau, perhaps this explanation will help, I will give you the words of John Chrysostom in this excerpt from Homily 29 around 400 A.D.:

But he not only wept (you say), but also sought earnestly." He does not then exclude repentance; but makes them careful not to fall.

[4.] As many then as do not believe in Hell, let them call these things to mind: as many as think to sin without being punished, let them take account of these things. Why did Esau not obtain pardon? Because he repented not as he ought. Wouldest thou see perfect repentance? Hear of the repentance of Peter after his denial. For the Evangelist in relating to us the things concerning him, says, "And he went out and wept bitterly." (Matt. xxvi. 75.) Therefore even such a sin was forgiven him, because he repented as he ought. Although the Victim had not yet been offered, nor had The Sacrifice as yet been made, nor was sin as yet-taken away, it still had the rule and sovereignty.

And that thou mayest learn, that this denial [arose] not so much from sloth, as from His being forsaken of God, who was teaching him to know the measures of man and not to contradict the sayings of the Master, nor to be more high-minded than the rest, but to know that nothing can be done without God, and that "Except the Lord build the house, they labor in vain who build it" (Ps. cxxvii. 1): therefore also Christ said to him alone, "Satan desired to sift thee as wheat," and I allowed it not, "that thy faith may not fail." (Luke xxii. 31, 32.) For since it was likely that he would be high-minded, being conscious to himself that he loved Christ more than they all, therefore "he wept bitterly"; and he did other things after his weeping, of the same character. For what did he do? After this he exposed himself to dangers innumerable, and by many means showed his manliness and courage.

Judas also repented, but in an evil way: for he hanged himself. Esau too repented; as I said; or rather, he did not even repent; for his tears were not [tears] of repentance, but rather of pride and wrath. And what followed proved this. The blessed David repented, thus saying, "Every night will I wash my bed: I will water my conch with my tears." (Ps. vi. 6.) And the sin which had been committed long ago, after so many years, after so many generations he bewailed, as if it had recently occurred.

[5.] For he who repents ought not to be angry, nor to be fierce, but to be contrite, as one condemned, as not having boldness, as one on whom sentence has been passed, as one who ought to be saved by mercy alone, as one who has shown himself ungrateful toward his Benefactor, as unthankful, as reprobate, as worthy of punishments innumerable. If he considers these things, he will not be angry, he will not be indignant, but will mourn, will weep, will groan, and lament night and day.

He that is penitent ought never to forget his sin, but on the one hand, to beseech God not to remember it; while on the other, he himself never forgets it. If we remember it, God will forget it. Let us exact punishment from ourselves; let us accuse ourselves; thus shall we propitiate the Judge. For sin confessed becomes less, but not confessed worse. For if sin add to itself shamelessness and ingratitude, how will he who does not know that he sinned before be at all able to guard himself from falling again into the same [evils]?

Let us then not deny [our sins], I beseech you, nor be shameless, that we may not unwillingly pay the penalty. Cain heard God say, "Where is Abel thy brother? And he said, I know not; am I my brother's keeper?" (Gen. iv. 9.) Seest thou how this made his sin more grievous? But his father did not act thus. What then? When he heard," Adam, where art thou?" (Gen. iii. 9), he said, "I heard Thy voice, and I was afraid, because I am naked, and I hid myself." (Gen. iii. 10.) It is a great good to acknowledge our sins, and to bear them in mind continually. Nothing so effectually cures a fault, as a continual remembrance of it. Nothing makes a man so slow to wickedness.

[6.] I know that conscience starts back, and endures not to be scourged by the remembrance of evil deeds; but hold tight thy soul and place a muzzle on it. For like an ill-broken horse, so it bears impatiently [what is put upon it], and is unwilling to persuade itself that it has sinned: but all this is the work of Satan. But let us persuade it that it has sinned; let us persuade it that it has sinned, that it may also repent, in order that having repented it may escape torment. How dost thou think to obtain pardon for thy sins, tell me, when thou hast not yet confessed them? Assuredly he is worthy of compassion and kindness who has sinned. But thou who hast not yet persuaded thyself [that thou hast sinned], how dost thou think to be pitied, when thou art thus without shame for some things?

Let us persuade ourselves that we have sinned. Let us say it not with the tongue only, but also with the mind. Let us not call ourselves sinners, but also count over our sins, going over them each specifically. I do not say to thee, Make a parade of thyself, nor accuse thyself before others: but be persuaded by the prophet when he saith, "Reveal thy way unto the Lord." (Ps. xxxvii. 5.) Confess these things before God. Confess before the Judge thy sins with prayer; if not with tongue, yet in memory, and be worthy of mercy.

If thou keep thy sins continually in remembrance, thou wilt never bear in mind the wrongs of thy neighbor. I do not say, if thou art persuaded that thou art thyself a sinner; this does not avail so to humble the soul, as sins themselves [taken] by themselves, and examined specifically. Thou wilt have no remembrance of wrongs [done thee], if thou hast these things continually in remembrance; thou wilt feel no anger, thou wilt not revile, thou wilt have no high thoughts, thou wilt not fall again into the same [sins], thou wilt be more earnest towards good things.

[7.] Seest thou how many excellent [effects] are produced from the remembrance of our sins? Let us then write them in our minds. I know that the soul does not endure a recollection which is so bitter: but let us constrain and force it. It is better that it should be gnawed with the remembrance now, than at that time with vengeance.

Now, if thou remember them, and continually present them before God (see p. 448), and pray for them, thou wilt speedily blot them out; but if thou forget them now, thou wilt then be reminded of them even against thy will, when they are brought out publicly before the whole world, displayed before all, both friends and enemies, and Angels. For surely He did not say to David only, "What thou didst secretly, I will make manifest to" (2 Sam. xii. 12) all, but even to us all. Thou wert afraid of men (he said) and respected them more than God; and God seeing thee, thou caredst not, but wert ashamed before men. For it says, "the eyes of men, this is their fear." Therefore thou shalt suffer punishment in that very point; for I will reprove thee, setting thy sins before the eyes of all. For that this is true, and that in that day the sins of us all are [to be] publicly displayed, unless we now do them away by continual remembrance, hear how cruelty and inhumanity are publicly exposed, "I was an hungered" (He says) "gave Me no meat." and ye (Matt. xxv. 42.) When are these things said? Is it in a corner? Is it in a secret place? By no means. When then? "When the Son of Man shall come in His glory" (Matt. xxv. 31, 32), and "all the nations" are gathered together, when He has separated the one from the other, then will He speak in the audience of all, and will "set" them "on His right hand" and "on" His "left" (Matt. xxv. 33): "I was an hungered and ye gave Me no meat."

See again the five virgins also, hearing before all, "I know you not." (Matt. xxv. 12.) For the five and five do not set forth the number of five only, but those virgins who are wicked and cruel and inhuman, and those who are not such.

So also he that buried his one talent, heard before all, even of those who had brought the five and the two, "Thou wicked and slothful servant." (Matt. xxv. 26.) But not by words alone, but by deeds also does He then convict them: even as the Evangelist also says, "They shall look on Him whom they pierced." (John xix. 37.) For the resurrection shall be of all at the same time, of sinners and of the righteous. At the same time shall He be present to all in the judgment.

[8.] Consider therefore who they are who shall then be in dismay, who in grief, who dragged away to the fire, while the others are crowned. "Come" (He says), "ye blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom which hath been prepared for you from the foundation of the world." (Matt. xxv. 34.) And again, "Depart from Me into the fire which hath been prepared for the devil and his angels." (Matt. xxv. 41.)

Let us not merely hear the words but writes them also before our sight, and let us imagine Him to be now present and saying these things, and that we are led away to that fire. What heart shall we have? What consolation? And what, when we are cut asunder? And what when we are accused of rapacity? What excuse shall we have to utter? What specious argument? None: but of necessity bound, bending down, we must be dragged to the mouths of the furnace, to the river of fire, to the darkness, to the never-dying punishments, and entreat no one. For it is not, it is not possible, He says, to pass across from this side to that: for "there is a great gulf betwixt us and you" (Luke xvi. 26), and it is not possible even for those who wish it to go across, and stretch out a helping hand: but we must needs burn continually, no one aiding us, even should it be father or mother, or any whosoever, yea though he have much boldness toward God. For, it says, "A brother doth not redeem; shall man redeem?" (Ps. xlix. 8.)

Since then it is not possible to have one's hopes of salvation in another, but [it must be] in one's self after the loving kindness of God, let us do all things, I entreat you, so that our conduct may be pure, and our course of life the best, and that it may not receive any stain even from the beginning. But if not, at all events, let us not sleep after the stain, but continue always washing away the pollution by repentance, by tears, by prayers, by works of mercy.

What then, you say, if I cannot do works of mercy? But thou hast "a cup of cold water" (Matt. x. 42), however poor thou art. But thou hast "two mites" (Mark xii. 42), in whatever poverty thou art; but thou hast feet, so as to visit the sick, so as to enter into a prison; but thou hast a roof, so as to receive strangers. For there is no pardon, no, none for him who does not do works of mercy.

These things we say to you continually, that we may effect if it be but a little by the continued repetition: these things we say, not caring so much for those who receive the benefits, as for yourselves. For ye give to them indeed things here, but in return you receive heavenly things: which may we all obtain, in Christ Jesus our Lord, with whom to the Father be glory, together with the Holy Ghost, now and ever, and world without end. Amen.
The Oxford Translation Revised By Rev. Frederic Gardiner
 
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I felt exactly how you felt for a long time. I walked away from god. Was mad at god and figured god would harden my heart and not allow me to repent. When I came back I felt like god wouldn't accept me back and felt like nothing was there when I would pray etc .
what happened was I stopped going by how I feel. I trust in God word. I repented and came back to continue my walk with the lord. Feelings can be fickle.
God is not a liar tho and he is there knocking and waiting for us to come to our senses. Trust gods word.

I pray that you would stop feeling like that. Sounds like the enemy lying to you and putting things in your head. I pray that you would stop going by feelings but stand on the word of God and trust in him completely.
 
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