I am struggling with my walk with Christ. Any help??

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I grew up in a Christian family for most of my life and I have attended Sunday school. I don't know what is wrong with me because it seems like I am not a normal person anymore. I have read parts of the Bible where it says that God hates sinners. I have something wrong with me because I started hating God and Jesus. I want to stop being like this but I believe that I am permanently lost. I tried to get help online but nobody is helping me. I tried to read the Bible and pray but I lose strength. I lost connection with God. I started to hate Jesus literally like anybody else because of what I read. I can't stop. I want to be a normal person but I can't. It's like I don't love Jesus at all. For some reason, I am always getting annoyed when someone is praying to God or worshipping Jesus Christ. I want to stop doing this and have the desire to follow Jesus but I can't at all. I need help. Any thoughts?? Please understand that I am just asking for help and I wanted to get some advice for knowing Jesus. I am not trying to attack the Christian faith but I do need some help because I am struggling a lot and I am aware that hell, heaven, Satan, God and Jesus is real.
 

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I grew up in a Christian family for most of my life and I have attended Sunday school. I don't know what is wrong with me because it seems like I am not a normal person anymore. I have read parts of the Bible where it says that God hates sinners. I have something wrong with me because I started hating God and Jesus. I want to stop being like this but I believe that I am permanently lost. I tried to get help online but nobody is helping me. I tried to read the Bible and pray but I lose strength. I lost connection with God. I started to hate Jesus literally like anybody else because of what I read. I can't stop. I want to be a normal person but I can't. It's like I don't love Jesus at all. For some reason, I am always getting annoyed when someone is praying to God or worshipping Jesus Christ. I want to stop doing this and have the desire to follow Jesus but I can't at all. I need help. Any thoughts?? Please understand that I am just asking for help and I wanted to get some advice for knowing Jesus. I am not trying to attack the Christian faith but I do need some help because I am struggling a lot and I am aware that hell, heaven, Satan, God and Jesus is real.
Just remember that it's the sin that God hates, not the person. Think about it buddy we are all sinners. Just remember the verse of John 3:16. God and Jesus really really love you. Jesus died a terrible death because of how much He loves you.
 
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Hello Stars: Growing up in my life, knew about God and the Darkness (Devil). There were points in my life where not going to hell sounded like a good idea, so I believed in God, but I was still going around lying, stealing, not really loving God, or loving others at all. Hated God and mocked Christians for believing in the Jesus, called them hurtful names and slandered God anytime a chance was given.

Today though am a firm believer in the transformative power of the spirit that God gives us, trusting him has been more better for me in life to have peace. Believing and accepting the forgiveness of God to cleanse me of my past mistakes and sins by placing faith on the Lord Jesus Christ who took on the sin of all mankind. That we may have forgiveness and acceptance of our faults, and change from our ways of life that we use to have from hatred of God, Jesus, People, and the lifestyle choices of lying, cheating others out, and selfishness ways of living and we start to live for God, and the Lord Jesus Christ.

We are changed by the mercy and kindness of God when really believe. Here is some scriptures for you.

1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.

Romans 5:
Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. 2 Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.

3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.

6 When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time and died for us sinners. 7 Now, most people would not be willing to die for an upright person, though someone might perhaps be willing to die for a person who is especially good. 8 But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners.

Luke 23: 34 Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” And they divided up his clothes by casting lots.

Ephesians 2: As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2 in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. 3 All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath. 4 But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5 made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. 6 And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, 7 in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. 8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9 not by works, so that no one can boast. 10 For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Colossians 4: 2 Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. 3 And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. 4 Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. 5 Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. 6 Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.

Romans 10: 8 But what does it say? “The word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart,” that is, the message concerning faith that we proclaim: 9 If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved. 11 As Scripture says, “Anyone who believes in him will never be put to shame.” 12 For there is no difference between Jew and Gentile—the same Lord is Lord of all and richly blesses all who call on him, 13 for, “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”

14 How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? 15 And how can anyone preach unless they are sent? As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!”

You can take these scriptures for what they are worth, but God bless you on your journey and may your eyes be opened to the truth of the Lord Jesus Christ.


John 14:6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

Hebrews 4:
6 Therefore since it still remains for some to enter that rest, and since those who formerly had the good news proclaimed to them did not go in because of their disobedience, 7 God again set a certain day, calling it “Today.” This he did when a long time later he spoke through David, as in the passage already quoted:

“Today, if you hear his voice,
do not harden your hearts.”

8 For if Joshua had given them rest, God would not have spoken later about another day. 9 There remains, then, a Sabbath-rest for the people of God; 10 for anyone who enters God’s rest also rests from their works, just as God did from his. 11 Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will perish by following their example of disobedience.
 
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I grew up in a Christian family for most of my life and I have attended Sunday school. I don't know what is wrong with me because it seems like I am not a normal person anymore. I have read parts of the Bible where it says that God hates sinners. I have something wrong with me because I started hating God and Jesus. I want to stop being like this but I believe that I am permanently lost. I tried to get help online but nobody is helping me. I tried to read the Bible and pray but I lose strength. I lost connection with God. I started to hate Jesus literally like anybody else because of what I read. I can't stop. I want to be a normal person but I can't. It's like I don't love Jesus at all. For some reason, I am always getting annoyed when someone is praying to God or worshipping Jesus Christ. I want to stop doing this and have the desire to follow Jesus but I can't at all. I need help. Any thoughts?? Please understand that I am just asking for help and I wanted to get some advice for knowing Jesus. I am not trying to attack the Christian faith but I do need some help because I am struggling a lot and I am aware that hell, heaven, Satan, God and Jesus is real.
This is a spiritual infection that happens with some churches, If you leave and find a church that doesn't teach the same things as when you started to notice an absence of connection, it should be fixed.
 
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'stars,' you are most apt to find your bearings through the help of an ordained pastor, either in private or as part of an inquirers' class. Some specific issues can be handled online, but your problem is not the kind that can be resolved with a few online posts. Some good advice can be gotten here, that's true, but I doubt that it has much of chance of really solving the problem.
 
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Does it kind of feel like you don’t care? I can’t say I’ve ever felt any physical affection toward Jesus, no matter how much I try. I think about the cross, and I get this cringing feeling inside me, like I’m against Him. My prayers and Bible study times feel dry too, like I just want to get them out of the way so I can go about my day. It’s been said to me that it’s all part of the mental illnesses I have, but I still can’t help but feel evil, and I only sorrow over my sins because they result in condemnation. While reading through the Old Testament I’ve read about, of course, how God had the Israelites destroy every man, woman, and child, and some of the laws also seemed really harsh, and stirred some resentment in me. I want to see all of His laws as good because they are.

Edit: Not trying to hijack the thread, just letting you know that I feel this way too.
 
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I grew up in a Christian family for most of my life and I have attended Sunday school. I don't know what is wrong with me because it seems like I am not a normal person anymore. I have read parts of the Bible where it says that God hates sinners. I have something wrong with me because I started hating God and Jesus. I want to stop being like this but I believe that I am permanently lost. I tried to get help online but nobody is helping me. I tried to read the Bible and pray but I lose strength. I lost connection with God. I started to hate Jesus literally like anybody else because of what I read. I can't stop. I want to be a normal person but I can't. It's like I don't love Jesus at all. For some reason, I am always getting annoyed when someone is praying to God or worshipping Jesus Christ. I want to stop doing this and have the desire to follow Jesus but I can't at all. I need help. Any thoughts?? Please understand that I am just asking for help and I wanted to get some advice for knowing Jesus. I am not trying to attack the Christian faith but I do need some help because I am struggling a lot and I am aware that hell, heaven, Satan, God and Jesus is real.
There is help available for you. From your brief description, it would seem as if you are being tormented by evil spirits. I don't know where you get the idea that God hates sinners. One of the greatest truths we need to know is that God loved us while we were still sinners. Nothing you can do will make Him love you more. Even better, nothing that you do can make Him love you less.

God hates sin for two reasons. First, it offends His perfect and holy nature. Second, He hates what sin does to us. God has dealt with the sin problem completely. It is a finished work and does not depend on us at all. All God expects us to do is accept it as a gift. When we receive Christ, we receive all that He is and all that He has done for us. You are aware that you are a sinner. That's excellent, because God only saves sinners. You need to know some basic facts, which no doubt you do already. Jesus died for you. He has already paid the price of all your sins, no matter how bad you think they are.

When you receive Christ you get all that He is. That means you have eternal life right now. If you have accepted Christ in the past, then you already have all that He is and and you are entitled to the benefits of all that He has done for you. How do you get Christ? If I offered you $100.00, it becomes yours when you take it from me. Jesus offers you Himself. You need only to take Him, as if He was a friend you were letting into your home. You may well have done this before. OK, do it again. Let Him back on the throne of your life. Let Him take control completely.

All of our problems are a result of us trying to do God's job for Him. We need to learn to cooperate with God. He will lead us. We need to learn to follow. It's a lifetime process, so do not despair. What is impossible for us is a breeze for our heavenly Dad. I'm nearly 70, I've been saved for nearly 50 years but I still have battles. Perfection is not available in this life. But we can and should experience great change. It all depends on our willingness. God can even take care of that. We can ask Him to make us willing to be willing!

If you can find a copy of "The Cry of the Human Heart" by Juan Carlos Ortiz, I suggest that you read it until you can grasp what he is saying. It will be a great help to you.
 
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I grew up in a Christian family for most of my life and I have attended Sunday school. I don't know what is wrong with me because it seems like I am not a normal person anymore. I have read parts of the Bible where it says that God hates sinners. I have something wrong with me because I started hating God and Jesus.

Big possibility you're feeling this way for you have perhaps a distorted mental view about the character of God. I'd contend you have a false image in your spirit and mind about the character of God thus maybe leading you not to love him. Consider that God doesn't hate anyone in the way you're thinking. Understand how language sometimes in the Old Testament was used.
God doesn't hate anyone.

God is LOVE 1 John 4:8 and in him there is no darkness or hate. 1 John 1:5 He even told us we're to LOVE our enemies Matt 5:44 so would God tell us to do something he wasn't willing and committed to do? Yes I know one can cite a few verses in Psalms which seems to suggest he does but one I think needs to understand the way and manner these words were used.

Even as parents in the natural I've seen parents who are enraged at the actions of their adult offspring and almost say they feel like they hate their own kid. Do they really though? Not really. Their heart would be full of grief if they discovered they died or had an accident. We see as well God takes no pleasure in the death of the wicked. Eze 18:23

I want to stop being like this but I believe that I am permanently lost.

As stated you might stop being like this is if you locked in and embraced an understanding of the true character of God. God is LOVE. He doesn't just have LOVE. He is LOVE. 1 Jn 4:8 Here's the thing. If you actually believe God hates you because of your weakness then yes if makes it truly hard to approach God in love. Remember the story of the prodigal son. What was the shocking thing he learned. It was that the Father loved him regardless as to whether or not he was pleasing him and to know that the Father was willing to accept him and joyfully do so with great delight went all the way to make him love his Father and appropriate him.

It's like I don't love Jesus at all.

And there can be a possibly that some, maybe not you but some hate God because they're making a decision to love sin. Much of that is even deception of the mind. Lot of that is hinged on a thought that God is trying to take away fun. NOPE. If God is against what is called sin it's because it's a spiritual degenerating force which ultimately destroys one.
 
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I grew up in a Christian family for most of my life and I have attended Sunday school. I don't know what is wrong with me because it seems like I am not a normal person anymore. I have read parts of the Bible where it says that God hates sinners. I have something wrong with me because I started hating God and Jesus. I want to stop being like this but I believe that I am permanently lost. I tried to get help online but nobody is helping me. I tried to read the Bible and pray but I lose strength. I lost connection with God. I started to hate Jesus literally like anybody else because of what I read. I can't stop. I want to be a normal person but I can't. It's like I don't love Jesus at all. For some reason, I am always getting annoyed when someone is praying to God or worshipping Jesus Christ. I want to stop doing this and have the desire to follow Jesus but I can't at all. I need help. Any thoughts?? Please understand that I am just asking for help and I wanted to get some advice for knowing Jesus. I am not trying to attack the Christian faith but I do need some help because I am struggling a lot and I am aware that hell, heaven, Satan, God and Jesus is real.
I would say that nobody whoever loved never had doubts or even feelings of hatred. If you hate someone there is at least a relationship to explore and try to understand; to explore and either deepen or lose. and even losing the relationship is not a problem, though not desirable, as Yeshua is patient. Perhaps you need to look at your own life: what/who do you love? What/who do you hate? What is your Concrete goal in life, your calling? Yeshua was as young man a tradie, then he became a healer and teacher where I am sure he used his life experience as a tradie to understand people and their needs. (Some may dispute this but if Jeshua was fully human, and I feel only a fully human Jeshua can really be an inspiration to mankind). Find your calling and do it in service to others and you will reconnect with Jeshua along the way.
P.S. The Way is your path in life. Talk to G'd. praise, whisper, talk, curse shout, scream He will listen and love you. Whatever you do. But do not turn away. Even if you do "REMBER YOU WILL BE WELCOMED BACK"
Relationships all take work and loving service. Some human relationships do not workout and departure in love is only answer but not in relation to God for he is faithful else He is not God.

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we are all unique but many others have had similar experiences, so it is normal - it always helps me to realize that we are on a journey and there is light at the end of the tunnel. how do I know? because God said so! Later on, as you look back, you will see how God has been with you all the time and you will be able to use your experiences to comfort others 2 Corinthians 1:4
 
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I grew up in a Christian family for most of my life and I have attended Sunday school. I don't know what is wrong with me because it seems like I am not a normal person anymore. I have read parts of the Bible where it says that God hates sinners. I have something wrong with me because I started hating God and Jesus.

Why? Why do you hate God and Jesus?

I want to stop being like this but I believe that I am permanently lost.

It's a little early for thinking you're permanently lost, isn't it? You'd have to have died in your sins for this to be the case.

I'll tell you, though, that the more you say such things to yourself, the more you set yourself in them. Take up a new line of thinking, a line of truth, and let it shape who you are. Here's a good one:

Matthew 11:28-30
28 "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.
29 "Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS.
30 "For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."


I tried to read the Bible and pray but I lose strength. I lost connection with God.

"Lose strength"? Reading the Bible? What strength does it take to read the Bible? Do you have reading issues?

One who has made a connection to God through Christ cannot lose that connection with Him. If you are one of God's children, you are irreversibly so. God doesn't go back on His word, He doesn't act unfaithfully, reneging on His promises and commitments.

Hebrews 13:5
5 ...being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, "I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU,"


I started to hate Jesus literally like anybody else because of what I read. I can't stop. I want to be a normal person but I can't.

Baloney. You are what you tell yourself you are. You can stop. Affirm this in your thinking, rather than the lie that you are powerless to stop yourself.

Being bound up in self-lies is very normal for human beings. I don't see why, then, you should think the self-lies you're bound up in make you abnormal.

It's like I don't love Jesus at all. For some reason, I am always getting annoyed when someone is praying to God or worshipping Jesus Christ.

There's possibly some demonic oppression going on. And, of course, you've been telling yourself some kooky lies so this'll make things topsy-turvy, too. Check out this channel on YouTube:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrFGO0rDfr2N-E7Dtfrftlw

I want to stop doing this and have the desire to follow Jesus but I can't at all. I need help.

Are you a born-again disciple of Jesus? Is God your Heavenly Father? Have you been saved by trusting in Christ as your Saviour and yielding to him as your Lord? This is where the freedom God offers to us begins:

Romans 10:9-13
9 ...if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved;
10 for with the heart a person believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation.
11 For the Scripture says, "WHOEVER BELIEVES IN HIM WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED."
12 For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, abounding in riches for all who call on Him;
13 for "WHOEVER WILL CALL ON THE NAME OF THE LORD WILL BE SAVED."


This sounds straightforward, but it requires that you understand and accept certain other things first.

1. You're a wicked sinner standing under the wrathful, holy judgment of God.

2. You need saving from the punishment of God that your sin rightly deserves.

3. You can't do anything to save yourself, so God sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to bear the punishment for your sins in your stead.

4. Jesus perfectly atoned for all your sin by shedding his blood and dying on a cross for your sin.

5. By faith, trusting that Jesus fully atoned for your sins on the cross, that he died and rose again from the dead three days later, and by yielding yourself to him as your Lord, you will be saved.

John 3:16-17
16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
 
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There's possibly some demonic oppression going on.

I would have to agree with this person that some type of oppression is going on. I don't think we naturally think those things. Sometimes we unknowingly open ourselves to negative influences and oppression - maybe like through ouija boards, Seances, even objects. I started by getting rid of all this crap.

I think opening up a portal somehow to negative influences and being Christian is one of the worst things that can happen.
 
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