- Mar 26, 2020
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I've struggled with doubting my Salvation on and off in my life sometimes it lasts only a few moments other times it will be days in a row even weeks, even in those doubts I just want to live a life for God, I know Jesus loves me and died for me and my sins and rose from the dead and only by faith in Him am I saved, and to believe what the biblical account is of his life death and resurrection and his shed blood on the cross for a sinner like me and all of us. Even when I feel helpess and look at my life and see all the bad things I've done I just want to live more for Jesus.
I wonder sometimes what if Im trusting my works and not trusting Jesus or what if I didn't accept right ? I've asked so many times for Jesus to save me to give me the holy spirit to rid me of the voices that say im not saved at times in my life, I struggle from ocd and scrupulosity for those of you who know what that is and its a hard struggle, but even if im not saved I still want to live a life for Jesus even. Even if an angle told me I could not be saved id still want to live my life for God to read the bible pray daily and try to win souls to Jesus. I just wish I could beat this feeling of me being lost and hopeless at times, maby God is teaching me a lesson in all of this tho.
I want His will in my life not my own, I struggled with inappropriate content for 2 years and have been freed from that sin for a good year now and I can't thank God enough for that, I did things my way and it was awful and im so concerned one day the doubts will bring me back to that.
Im not sure what advice im looking for in this and im not sure if this is the right place to post it, but I ask for prayers for me to beat this battle if fought most of my life. And that one day I'll be free of it so I can accomplish God's will for me better than ever. Thank you all God bless.
I wonder sometimes what if Im trusting my works and not trusting Jesus or what if I didn't accept right ? I've asked so many times for Jesus to save me to give me the holy spirit to rid me of the voices that say im not saved at times in my life, I struggle from ocd and scrupulosity for those of you who know what that is and its a hard struggle, but even if im not saved I still want to live a life for Jesus even. Even if an angle told me I could not be saved id still want to live my life for God to read the bible pray daily and try to win souls to Jesus. I just wish I could beat this feeling of me being lost and hopeless at times, maby God is teaching me a lesson in all of this tho.
I want His will in my life not my own, I struggled with inappropriate content for 2 years and have been freed from that sin for a good year now and I can't thank God enough for that, I did things my way and it was awful and im so concerned one day the doubts will bring me back to that.
Im not sure what advice im looking for in this and im not sure if this is the right place to post it, but I ask for prayers for me to beat this battle if fought most of my life. And that one day I'll be free of it so I can accomplish God's will for me better than ever. Thank you all God bless.