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After one of the hardest, toughest weeks I have had for many years, I am so glad I went online to listen to our church's sermon today.

Earlier this week I was so low and depressed, I literally stopped eating for a couple of days. Later in the week, little by little, I started to get my appetite back, but not fully.

This morning's sermon was about the baptism of Jesus and through it, we were asked to remember the promises we made at our baptism and the promises Jesus made to us.

Earlier this afternoon I felt God speaking to me with a word of encouragement. He wanted me to prepare a meal. He didn't want me to cook up something just for the sake of it, but to prepare something I really love and enjoy. Two scriptures came to mind. The first was Jesus's promise in Revelation 3:20 "Listen! I stand at the door and knock; if any hear my voice and open the door, I will come into their house and eat with them, and they will eat with me". The second was Luke 19:5 where Jesus requested to come to spend the day at Zacchaeus's house. I felt the Lord telling me that he wanted me to eat a meal and He wanted me to share that moment with Him.

The food is cooking and the praise and worship CD is playing. It is going to be a blessed Sunday lunchtime.

Feeling depressed is terrible. I'm glad you found your light. Be blessed!
 
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I think that is one of Bernadette Farrell's songs?
She's produced some amazing hymns. My favourite is O God You Search Me
yes it is Bernadette Farrell, we used to sing them at my last Church. Wonderful hymns, it is in Laudate no. 883.
O God you search me is no. 779.
time to sleep, blessings
 
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This is maby the hardest thing for me ever but I need to do this.

So im now ready to give my testimony.
Im sorry this text is kind of a mess im not good writer but I hope this message comes through. I can´t tell my whole life story but I can say that I have lived in
abusive home when I was child and it continued to abusive romantic relationships (years and years of
emotional and physical abuse)
I have committed maby every sin you can imagine.
There has been drugs, alcohol, promiscuity, I have been lying, I was using abusive language
when I felt that I was hurt by someone I was so afraid of anybody to hurt me. Also in my teen years I was a thief, later a witch, a murderer (abortion)
What else? Before I knew Jesus, I was living absolutely in darkest darkness you can imagine.
I was totally clueless what I was doing. I was totally blind. I still can´t believe I had to go through it all
to come back to Jesus. When I was a child I believed in God but I didn´t know Jesus as I know now. I liked to pray a lot so God gave me strenght to endure abuse in home and I think worst was just the feeling of being not loved, being abandoned. So God was there for me.
I really don´t want to blame my parents, they did their best for the
knowledge and experience they had from their own childhood and life in general.
I know this and I respect my parents and I love them
both and I pray that they accept Jesus as their saviour too and would live in Christ and
they would be saved.
I want best for them. All things are well with us today.
I have forgiven everything in Jesus name. And it changed everything for me.
2015 I bought kjv bible because I was curious about it. Also I was listening a lot of Derek Prince´s
teachings. I had been trying to "find the truth" about life for years.
I had been reading philosophy, conspiracytheories, occult, I had learnt to read tarot cards and so on.
But when I started reading bible, I cried and I felt like something divine touched my heart. I
can´t remember these verses anymore but I felt like God was really speaking to me. I was kind of a in the
middle of darkness and light studying occult and bible at the same time I find this a bit hilarious today
but I was just trying to find answers and trying to help myself to come back to life.
Then 3 years ago, I have a mentalbreakdown. I realised that I had been dealing with forces who are evil and
that was the warning from God. So then socialworkers took my 12 year old daughter
from me who I raised alone, and she still are not allowed to come back living with me.
After that breakdown there was few very dark years
I was dealing with the heaviest depression I had never experienced
(I had been suffered from depression and anxiety my whole life from teen years until I met Jesus. sometimes depression was very mild and other times heavy)
And I was worrying about my child who was living in other town. I still can´t understand how I survived. It took my every piece of effort in those days to just be awake and handle this suffering which was endless.
But im sure it was only by God´s mercy that I survived. And I think I had been so used to feel depressed that for me it was just another "normal" day.
God had been keeping me in His arms my whole life so I can be safe, even I didn´t see it before.
Before I saw only darkness.
I was far from God in those days, even in my heart I believed in God. But I didn´t know Jesus.
Everything would have been so much easier for me if I would have known Jesus then.
So, then it´s 2020 I listen a lot Derek Prince´s teaching, been listening them several years and
learn all wonderful things about bible and what it is to be christian. I can´t remember a day, but it was march 2020 when I met Jesus. It was Derek Prince´s teachings and God operating in me. I decided to put my pride to the side and forgive everyone who has ever been hurting me and I prayed that God will give his love and wisdom so I can really forgive them, because in me, there was not so much love and wisdom that I could forgive this all by myself. From my heart. Not just saying I forgive, but really forgive from the bottom of my heart. I cried like no tomorrow, then after that I felt so light and happy, so pure. Burden was lifted from me and I smiled and thanked God for helping me. Then I started confessing my sins (oh yes, very big list of things)
and I cried for the relief I got from Jesus and I felt so happy that i have never felt before and I felt this
love which I never even knew existed. It was so wonderful experience.
I felt how His face shined on me and He spread His arms on me saying "Everything is good, don´t worry. Im here for you I never leave you nor forsake you" "I love you" And I said I love you Jesus. And I thanked Him again. After this I have slept better than ever in my life,
I don´t have any addictions anymore, Jesus has healed me from trauma, loneliness, depression, anxiety, overeating, jealousy, pride, anger, extremely low self-esteem...
He has been protecting me. He is my bestfriend forever. And I live my life serving Him the best I can.
God has made me see, that no matter we are going through we can be saved by Jesus.
God has made me see the whole world in completely new eyes for example I see behind peoples behaviour, what I mean is I can see when someone is just hurting that when he is hurting others he doesn´t do that because he is evil and wants to just destroy and hurt what I see is someone who is lost and hurt and needs help of God. With the help of God im still alive
and alive in a way I haven´t been alive before. Thank you God!
 
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Sunshinee777, what a testimony to Jesus of His love, care, protection, grace, and mercy. Just amazing how He has healed and helped you, His daughter. Encouraging to see you so strong in Him. Yes, thank you God!
 
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This is maby the hardest thing for me ever but I need to do this.

So im now ready to give my testimony.
Im sorry this text is kind of a mess im not good writer but I hope this message comes through. I can´t tell my whole life story but I can say that I have lived in
abusive home when I was child and it continued to abusive romantic relationships (years and years of
emotional and physical abuse)
I have committed maby every sin you can imagine.
There has been drugs, alcohol, promiscuity, I have been lying, I was using abusive language
when I felt that I was hurt by someone I was so afraid of anybody to hurt me. Also in my teen years I was a thief, later a witch, a murderer (abortion)
What else? Before I knew Jesus, I was living absolutely in darkest darkness you can imagine.
I was totally clueless what I was doing. I was totally blind. I still can´t believe I had to go through it all
to come back to Jesus. When I was a child I believed in God but I didn´t know Jesus as I know now. I liked to pray a lot so God gave me strenght to endure abuse in home and I think worst was just the feeling of being not loved, being abandoned. So God was there for me.
I really don´t want to blame my parents, they did their best for the
knowledge and experience they had from their own childhood and life in general.
I know this and I respect my parents and I love them
both and I pray that they accept Jesus as their saviour too and would live in Christ and
they would be saved.
I want best for them. All things are well with us today.
I have forgiven everything in Jesus name. And it changed everything for me.
2015 I bought kjv bible because I was curious about it. Also I was listening a lot of Derek Prince´s
teachings. I had been trying to "find the truth" about life for years.
I had been reading philosophy, conspiracytheories, occult, I had learnt to read tarot cards and so on.
But when I started reading bible, I cried and I felt like something divine touched my heart. I
can´t remember these verses anymore but I felt like God was really speaking to me. I was kind of a in the
middle of darkness and light studying occult and bible at the same time I find this a bit hilarious today
but I was just trying to find answers and trying to help myself to come back to life.
Then 3 years ago, I have a mentalbreakdown. I realised that I had been dealing with forces who are evil and
that was the warning from God. So then socialworkers took my 12 year old daughter
from me who I raised alone, and she still are not allowed to come back living with me.
After that breakdown there was few very dark years
I was dealing with the heaviest depression I had never experienced
(I had been suffered from depression and anxiety my whole life from teen years until I met Jesus. sometimes depression was very mild and other times heavy)
And I was worrying about my child who was living in other town. I still can´t understand how I survived. It took my every piece of effort in those days to just be awake and handle this suffering which was endless.
But im sure it was only by God´s mercy that I survived. And I think I had been so used to feel depressed that for me it was just another "normal" day.
God had been keeping me in His arms my whole life so I can be safe, even I didn´t see it before.
Before I saw only darkness.
I was far from God in those days, even in my heart I believed in God. But I didn´t know Jesus.
Everything would have been so much easier for me if I would have known Jesus then.
So, then it´s 2020 I listen a lot Derek Prince´s teaching, been listening them several years and
learn all wonderful things about bible and what it is to be christian. I can´t remember a day, but it was march 2020 when I met Jesus. It was Derek Prince´s teachings and God operating in me. I decided to put my pride to the side and forgive everyone who has ever been hurting me and I prayed that God will give his love and wisdom so I can really forgive them, because in me, there was not so much love and wisdom that I could forgive this all by myself. From my heart. Not just saying I forgive, but really forgive from the bottom of my heart. I cried like no tomorrow, then after that I felt so light and happy, so pure. Burden was lifted from me and I smiled and thanked God for helping me. Then I started confessing my sins (oh yes, very big list of things)
and I cried for the relief I got from Jesus and I felt so happy that i have never felt before and I felt this
love which I never even knew existed. It was so wonderful experience.
I felt how His face shined on me and He spread His arms on me saying "Everything is good, don´t worry. Im here for you I never leave you nor forsake you" "I love you" And I said I love you Jesus. And I thanked Him again. After this I have slept better than ever in my life,
I don´t have any addictions anymore, Jesus has healed me from trauma, loneliness, depression, anxiety, overeating, jealousy, pride, anger, extremely low self-esteem...
He has been protecting me. He is my bestfriend forever. And I live my life serving Him the best I can.
God has made me see, that no matter we are going through we can be saved by Jesus.
God has made me see the whole world in completely new eyes for example I see behind peoples behaviour, what I mean is I can see when someone is just hurting that when he is hurting others he doesn´t do that because he is evil and wants to just destroy and hurt what I see is someone who is lost and hurt and needs help of God. With the help of God im still alive
and alive in a way I haven´t been alive before. Thank you God!
That is an amazing testimony,'Sunshinee,. The message has come right through. Awesome LORD,please continue to bless and strengthen our precious sister,'Sunshinee'. Amen!
 
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