what are you feeling right now? (24)

Jeshu said:

i hope it was a nice cake. Did you thank the Lord for the cake? Always cement a relationship with the Lord where you are weak so that He can grow you strong in those parts of yourself.

Who can accuse of something wrong when you thanked the Lord for it? The more grace you eat the more thankful you get, the more thankful you get the more you love Him. The more you love Him, the more self control you will get for that is one of the gifts of the Holy Spirit.

Peace.

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it was a really good cake. but unfortunately I forgot to thank God before or after eating it.

ironically I lost 3 pounds the next day lol

I find the main problem of the church is not western or eastern, but the ambitious and hypocritical human's characters. Maybe mental or physical illness is a good way to be farther from the ambitious and hypocritical things.

blessings, Yusuph

I want to cry. I am so messed up.

DragonFox91 said:

I want to cry. I am so messed up.

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Oh brother is there any way i can comfort you with the love of Jesus? Keep bringing your fallen life to Him. Don't let go of His hand.

Depression is a terribly affliction to suffer from.

i pray you will be comforted by Jesus even today.

Jeshu said:

Oh brother is there any way i can comfort you with the love of Jesus? Keep bringing your fallen life to Him. Don't let go of His hand.

Depression is a terribly affliction to suffer from.

i pray you will be comforted by Jesus even today.

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I did well today. Today is only my second full day w/ the Buspro. OCDing like hell & I felt sad at church, but much better overall.

i'm feeling a little better today. i have been pretty down since last week Thursday but today it looks like i'm breaking even again.

i found a nice song From Andrew Ripp

Yusuphhai said:

I find the main problem of the church is not western or eastern, but the ambitious and hypocritical human's characters. Maybe mental or physical illness is a good way to be farther from the ambitious and hypocritical things.

blessings, Yusuph

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Being mentally ill really dented my ego into a smallish kind of i. i like a humble disposition, it is best not to think too much of ourselves. Success can be a real curse in a persons life for such people often times are arrogant and prideful. Claiming their success on their own wittiness.

i know they are in Church leadership positions, especially those Churches where dogma or politics rule the roost. They love the honour of men rather than from God. We should pity them, if only they didn't give the Christian religion such a bad name. That is why i bank on faith in Jesus and the living word rather than religious dogmas, however useful such might be.

i have a real weak spot for Churches where Christ is loved in deed, not just served according to a set set of rules. Jesus loving Christians i get on best with i found, whatever their denomination. Such never matter at all in our walk together. When love for God rules our hearts then we are guided by that. Who cares what Church a Jesus lover goes to? We be able to commune together regardless of the obstacles, all because we will find unity in our love for Jesus.

Amazing how that works.

How have you been going otherwise brother? i remember last year around this time you were very depressed, has that subsided now, or do you still get major depressive bouts?

Jeshu said:

Being mentally ill really dented my ego into a smallish kind of i. i like a humble disposition, it is best not to think too much of ourselves. Success can be a real curse in a persons life for such people often times are arrogant and prideful. Claiming their success on their own wittiness.

i know they are in Church leadership positions, especially those Churches where dogma or politics rule the roost. They love the honour of men rather than from God. We should pity them, if only they didn't give the Christian religion such a bad name. That is why i bank on faith in Jesus and the living word rather than religious dogmas, however useful such might be.

i have a real weak spot for Churches where Christ is loved in deed, not just served according to a set set of rules. Jesus loving Christians i get on best with i found, whatever their denomination. Such never matter at all in our walk together. When love for God rules our hearts then we are guided by that. Who cares what Church a Jesus lover goes to? We be able to commune together regardless of the obstacles, all because we will find unity in our love for Jesus.

Amazing how that works.

How have you been going otherwise brother? i remember last year around this time you were very depressed, has that subsided now, or do you still get major depressive bouts?

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Peace Brother,

You are always so kind. My depression has been improved since November last year because of the adjusting of Medicines. I understand what you have experienced in your congregations. Everyone is experiencing a battle, wish the purpose of our battles is for the justification for the Lord and the benefit of whom the Lord loves ( including our enemies). I am experiencing a spiritual battle. Wish it would not disturb you.

When a leader of the Chinese House Christian Church leads the congregation to pray, she uses the second person "you" to say to God and then also uses “you” to teach the congregation, again and again many times. I sent a separate message to point out her obvious logic error. All know in prayer we can’t use the second person “you” to point to human. Instead, she said that logic was useless and I looked down her degree of education and drove me out of her house congregation.

I replied to her with a message:” Please don't deliberately change the subject. The second person "you" used in prayer refers to God, but not to man. It is a problem that even illiterate believers know. It has nothing to do with their educational level. If you deliberately evade this core issue, you will find that deceit and ambition are playing tricks. If you want to be the mouth of God in public, you would openly offend the only God of Israel.”

She is kind to others, maybe the hidden ambitions deceit herself. There are a lot of this kind of Christians in China who are not false Christians. Even worse, there is also another kind, false Christians, who will deceit themselves forever.

Glad you are always vibrant, even in difficult time. Wish you enjoy the overcoming of hard time, which is a gift from the Lord.

Blessings, Yusuph

Yusuphhai said:

My depression has been improved since November last year because of the adjusting of Medicines

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That is great, that the medicine works i meant to say. So glad life is easier on you now. Thank God for answered prayer, you were in it deep 14 months ago, but now He has brought you relief.

Sorry to hear about your troubles in Church. Such is hard to come to grips with. At the moment i'm in quiet good relationship with our new pastor. i share him my experiences and critique his sermons. i hope to influence this man to preach on the love of God through Jesus Christ. i know when the word is preached in its fullness that it attracts lots of hurting people. This pastor is young and dedicated to preaching Jesus and Him crucified. i always get on with Jesus lovers.

Yusuphhai said:

Glad you are always vibrant, even in difficult time. Wish you enjoy the overcoming of hard time, which is a gift from the Lord.

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i wish i was always vibrant, i could use some of it right now for i'm feeling pretty down. Still i know Jesus will lift me up again it is just waiting on Him. Jesus is my all time hero because He made me able to endure my illness with dignity instead of feeling like a worm all the time.

We serve an awesome Master brother. Our Lord Jesus is very best King of all.

Tomorrow I go to the doctor. I'm going to let him know I'm feeling a lot better, the Buspro's been really helping

i have been feeling very depressed this last week and haven't been able to catch much sleep.

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Feeling down again today, but had two good days, thank God for His blessings. Thank you for praying friends.

i'm feeling well and had plenty of sleep. Thanks for praying people!

Starting to feel broken again.....If I wasn't still taking Buspro, I'd probably be crying.

DragonFox91 said:

Starting to feel broken again.....If I wasn't still taking Buspro, I'd probably be crying.

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Did you do a lot of building with the good life you experienced the last few weeks? i found that asking God to bless my good times has really increased those times even when bad times reign.

See whatever we build with Jesus and in Jesus is for forever this means the good stays available to us no matter what for as long as we exercise our faith in God.

Faith in God's love brings hope for better. It is that hope which doesn't disappoint us.

Be of good courage and bring all your bad life to Jesus to take care of.

Peace.

Asks friend. Hey Joe are you going to have the Covid vaccine?

Answers Joe. No way i don't believe in conspiracy theories!

Feeling rather sad again today. No fun. i hope everybody else is doing better.

I am done w/ pills. All they do is trick your brain into thinking everything's fine. When I'm done w/ the Buspro & the crying breakdowns return, **** it, I won't stop them.

Jeshu said:

Feeling rather sad again today. No fun. i hope everybody else is doing better.

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Sorry to hear. Do you ever feel your brain almost likes being sad? That it's just so used to it, being happy or content seems like the 'negative' emotion?