what are you feeling right now? (24)

Noxot said:

might as well, it feels good to cry.

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I hurt so much. I should try to distract myself but I can't motivate myself too. What's the point in distracting myself when it'd just be a distraction?

DragonFox91 said:

I am waiting for it to go away but it's not.

I hate this so much

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DragonFox91 said:

I hurt so much. I should try to distract myself but I can't motivate myself too. What's the point in distracting myself when it'd just be a distraction?

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The best way of getting rid a bad mood is to sow good life during it. i used to remember what it felt like to feel good and then i bring that moment to the Lord and ask Him to bless my life with good and to take the bad away. i brought love, kindness, gentleness, patience, long suffering, joy, thankfulness, forbearing etc to the Lord and asked Him humbly to plant those back in my heart, acknowledging that i had lost them in the first place.

Sure it took a few years in the making but Jesus did grow good life back into me doing that. He told me what you sow you shall harvest so please resist the depressive feelings and pray for good ones. The more we work with our good life the bigger it grows, so that is the way out of depression, even if depression as an illness stays, as it is with me.

Peace.

To God's Depressed Child
To think less of yourself then God's own
Brings you much pain and suffering.
Your worth is an incredible high price
For you as well did Jesus die on the cross.

Depression is also what devil's lies brings inside
letting a low-self-esteem your good life rob
Untruths roaming freely through heart and mind
Evil lies extinguishing all happiness and fun.

His loving truth brings you His good life
While to believe lies brings pain and grief
So hold onto the promises Jesus made to you
and don't let Satan your good life squander.

Take hold of God's precious loving truth.
A life in Him stays safe from lies that hurt.
Jesus' truth will comfort your bleeding heart
Lovingly remaking your fallen life anew.

Noxot said:

for me I don't see a point in existing in this world. I don't like slavery and I don't like being forced and I hate burdens. I have no desire to win at the games that people make up, no desire to try to succeed through the channels that everyone else is succeeding through, no desire to compete against others for things I don't care about.

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My dear brother. Your life in this world seems lost, yet so what? Jesus did say whosoever tries to save his life will loose it and whosoever loose his life will gain it.

Loosing your life down here is no big deal when our life can be build by Christ. You can let Him rebuild you into a lethal weapon against the world you hate.

i pray constantly for Jesus to come and take over the reigns for i long for a world where He is King of kings and Lord of lords, not a world steeped in lies destroying itself.

So i encourage you to let the Holy Spirit rebuild your psyche so what is no good now can become good in and with Him.

Your life is precious Jesus died to save it. Ask Jesus even today to make something useful out of you. You have a keen eye for wrong that should help building right if you bring the wrong to Jesus and ask for right back in return.

It is absolutely amazing what our Lord can do in lives that hate this world but love Him and neighbour. Wouldn't that interest you? Be a soldier in God's army? A light in this dark world? A pillar for others to lean on? Jesus is the one who can achieve that in us if we let Him. Honestly true.

Blessings on your way.

My heart still aches, but I am doing better today.

DragonFox91 said:

My heart still aches, but I am doing better today.

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Since posting this, I've done nothing but wanted to cry. My heart is so empty

Jeshu said:

To God's Depressed Child
To think less of yourself then God's own
Brings you much pain and suffering.
Your worth is an incredible high price
For you as well did Jesus die on the cross.

Depression is also what devil's lies brings inside
letting a low-self-esteem your good life rob
Untruths roaming freely through heart and mind
Evil lies extinguishing all happiness and fun.

His loving truth brings you His good life
While to believe lies brings pain and grief
So hold onto the promises Jesus made to you
and don't let Satan your good life squander.

Take hold of God's precious loving truth.
A life in Him stays safe from lies that hurt.
Jesus' truth will comfort your bleeding heart
Lovingly remaking your fallen life anew.

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I love this. Thanks for posting. I read it as a prayer twice thru.

DragonFox91 said:

Since posting this, I've done nothing but wanted to cry. My heart is so empty

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i'm sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. Did you bring this bad life to Jesus? That is how i got rid of severe depression bringing my bad life to Jesus and asking for my good life back in return. It took several years to materialise but those heavenly seed grow nice fruit trees.

Have you got a depressive illness? Have you been to see a doctor? Are you on medications?

i hope and pray you will have a better day tomorrow.

Jeshu said:

i'm sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. Did you bring this bad life to Jesus? That is how i got rid of severe depression bringing my bad life to Jesus and asking for my good life back in return. It took several years to materialise but those heavenly seed grow nice fruit trees.

Have you got a depressive illness? Have you been to see a doctor? Are you on medications?

i hope and pray you will have a better day tomorrow.

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I get anxiety. I take paxil. The paxil's really helped but I'm afraid it's not working as well as it used to. These past couple weeks wouldn't have been as bad if it was working.

There's also one item I'm anxious about it never worked on & never helped with.

This week I am feeling very blessed with reassurance of God's close presence with me.
Last week was quite a different story. I had not eaten for quite a few days. Felt so low and lost interested in a lot of things, yet alone eating.
On Sunday, I felt the Lord speak to me. He wanted me to cook a meal. I wasn't really that interested, so I went to the freezer to find anything I could just pick up and chuck into the oven. But He told me that he wanted me to prepare something I would really enjoy. And so I did. When I was dishing it up, I was going to just slouch on the settee and eat it, but I felt Him telling me to set up the table. I was reminded of the verse in Revelation 3:20 "I will come in to him, and will sup with him". It was meant to be not just a meal, but a meal spent be with Him, and it was going to special. And that it definitely was. I felt the presence of God in such a deep way. Even though I live by myself, I felt the Lord present with me all day, reassuring and comforting me. The past couple of days have been very busy and tiring, yet I have felt peace and joy throughout.

DragonFox91 said:

There's also one item I'm anxious about it never worked on & never helped with.

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Anxiety is hard to fight and if our fears are deep enough hard to medicate. i found that as the love of God grew in me i became stronger to fight my anxiety. His perfect love casts out fear and comforts us in our fearful one.

If Paxil isn't working any more then you might need a higher dosage or you might need another medication. Medications can stop working in particular when we haven't brought our bad life to Jesus to take care off. Medications only help us to deal with the issues that are making us depressed but when we fail to deal with our issues then medications will cease to work effectively. Or at least it was like that with me.

Depression is one of the hardest afflictions to befall us but be of good courage Jesus knows how to best deal with it. He can makes us stronger than our depression can bring to bear. Go to Jesus even now as you bring your sadness and grief to Him to help you deal with.

Anthony2019 said:

This week I am feeling very blessed with reassurance of God's close presence with me.
Last week was quite a different story. I had not eaten for quite a few days. Felt so low and lost interested in a lot of things, yet alone eating.
On Sunday, I felt the Lord speak to me. He wanted me to cook a meal. I wasn't really that interested, so I went to the freezer to find anything I could just pick up and chuck into the oven. But He told me that he wanted me to prepare something I would really enjoy. And so I did. When I was dishing it up, I was going to just slouch on the settee and eat it, but I felt Him telling me to set up the table. I was reminded of the verse in Revelation 3:20 "I will come in to him, and will sup with him". It was meant to be not just a meal, but a meal spent with Him, and it was going to special. And that it definitely was. I felt the presence of God in such a deep way. Even though I live by myself, I felt the Lord present with me all day, reassuring and comforting me. The past couple of days have been very busy and tiring, yet I have felt peace and joy throughout.

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i'm so glad Jesus supped with you and comforted you Anthony. That is so good. Thank you for sharing. Give Jesus a hug from us all. He is my Hero when it comes to dealing with my depression as well.

Jeshu said:

Anxiety is hard to fight and if our fears are deep enough hard to medicate. i found that as the love of God grew in me i became stronger to fight my anxiety. His perfect love casts out fear and comforts us in our fearful one.

If Paxil isn't working any more then you might need a higher dosage or you might need another medication. Medications can stop working in particular when we haven't brought our bad life to Jesus to take care off. Medications only help us to deal with the issues that are making us depressed but when we fail to deal with our issues then medications will cease to work effectively. Or at least it was like that with me.

Depression is one of the hardest afflictions to befall us but be of good courage Jesus knows how to best deal with it. He can makes us stronger than our depression can bring to bear. Go to Jesus even now as you bring your sadness and grief to Him to help you deal with.

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The fears are very deep.

I've been trying to turn to Jesus about it like crazy this past week, so I wonder if that's why I've been depressed this past week, because the bad spirits are fighting back, wanting me to resist Jesus & give in to them?

DragonFox91 said:

The fears are very deep.

I've been trying to turn to Jesus about it like crazy this past week, so I wonder if that's why I've been depressed this past week, because the bad spirits are fighting back, wanting me to resist Jesus & give in to them?

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Yes that is how my anxiety fought against me going to Jesus. At times the fears would rage for months, it was about not giving into it and when i did letting Jesus grow me stronger.

Hang onto Jesus with all you got. Tell Him about your fears - everything - and ask Him to give you the ability to overcome that fear.

i used to be paranoid about my attacker coming to finish me off like he said he would if i would pimp on him, which i did. i brought my fear to Jesus time and again and then once i was so scared he was there outside ready to kill me, the hairs on my arms stood straight up from my fear and yet Jesus had me walking to the door to let him in. He wasn't there of course and i have never been so scared in my life about him again for Jesus took the fears from me each step towards the door i took.

satan hates it when we go to Jesus so he will try and confuse the issues, making you look to yourself and to others instead of Jesus.

That the peace of God may comfort you in your struggles


Song of Battle.
The arrows streak their flame.
I'm under attack again!
Opening the treasures of my defence,
His loving Word my only chance,
Of surviving the fiery weather.

"Do, don't, eat, abstain, go or stay."
Is what my inner attackers say.
Scornfully throwing their hate around.
My sins sizzling at their sound.
Surrounding me with my own misery.

Now one grabs me by the throat.
My life his scornful gloat.
"How can you trust in God's grace,
When I rub this dirt in your face?"
He demands in accuser's tone.

In humble voice I bow my head.
Lord can You hear what they said?
Yet who can charge Your elect?
Jesus sacrifice makes us perfect.
Please give me faith to stand.

His sword streaks its flame.
Attacking my enemies once again.
His loving Word fells them all.
In the fire of His love they fall,
A wonderful happy ending.

For Jesus is victorious over my sin.
Eternal life He for me did win.
Praises to Him from my heart swells.
As His Spirit of Truth in me dwells.
All glory to Him!

Jeshu said:

Yes that is how my anxiety fought against me going to Jesus. At times the fears would rage for months, it was about not giving into it and when i did letting Jesus grow me stronger.

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My fear is always there. Even when the paxil was working at full force for other anxieties. But I'm trying to that anxiety to Jesus this past week. I don't usually get depressed about it, tho I do get a lot of other emotions about it. I'm trying to give them all to Jesus, his death on the cross.

Jeshu said:

Hang onto Jesus with all you got. Tell Him about your fears - everything - and ask Him to give you the ability to overcome that fear.

satan hates it when we go to Jesus so he will try and confuse the issues, making you look to yourself and to others instead of Jesus.

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That's what I'm trying. Praise Jesus. Rejoice rejoice rejoice. Be happy. Sing & dance. So much to be thankful. He's been so good to me. Give all the fears to him, he'll hold me, he'll keep me close. The fears are lies, they're trying to keep me away from him, the depression this past week is the new snake. It's attacking me but Jesus is beating it so it fights harder for me.

Jeshu said:

i used to be paranoid about my attacker coming to finish me off like he said he would if i would pimp on him, which i did. i brought my fear to Jesus time and again and then once i was so scared he was there outside ready to kill me, the hairs on my arms stood straight up from my fear and yet Jesus had me walking to the door to let him in. He wasn't there of course and i have never been so scared in my life about him again for Jesus took the fears from me each step towards the door i took.

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whoa

Jeshu said:

Song of Battle.
The arrows streak their flame.
I'm under attack again!
Opening the treasures of my defence,
His loving Word my only chance,
Of surviving the fiery weather.

"Do, don't, eat, abstain, go or stay."
Is what my inner attackers say.
Scornfully throwing their hate around.
My sins sizzling at their sound.
Surrounding me with my own misery.

Now one grabs me by the throat.
My life his scornful gloat.
"How can you trust in God's grace,
When I rub this dirt in your face?"
He demands in accuser's tone.

In humble voice I bow my head.
Lord can You hear what they said?
Yet who can charge Your elect?
Jesus sacrifice makes us perfect.
Please give me faith to stand.

His sword streaks its flame.
Attacking my enemies once again.
His loving Word fells them all.
In the fire of His love they fall,
A wonderful happy ending.

For Jesus is victorious over my sin.
Eternal life He for me did win.
Praises to Him from my heart swells.
As His Spirit of Truth in me dwells.
All glory to Him!

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I read that as a prayer. Thank you

DragonFox91 said:

That's what I'm trying. Praise Jesus. Rejoice rejoice rejoice. Be happy. Sing & dance. So much to be thankful. He's been so good to me. Give all the fears to him, he'll hold me, he'll keep me close. The fears are lies, they're trying to keep me away from him, the depression this past week is the new snake. It's attacking me but Jesus is beating it so it fights harder for me.

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Depression is a monster, as is anxiety, for us it is to learn to have faith in God's love as revealed in the word. That way we can grow stronger than depression or anxiety can throw our way. When we get to know Jesus rock bottom as well as Highest high then we are completely safe in His arms and nothing can harm us any longer even if we do still suffer a lot.

Hope Jesus makes you stronger than anxiety and depression can bring about. Keep going to Jesus and get to know Him and His truth also in your low moods, so you can successfully fight the lies anxiety and depression fire your way.

Praying Jesus keep you close to His heart.

How do I feel right now?
Like punching a wall or just jumping in cold water to tame the fumes that are consuming my emotional self

look4hope said:

How do I feel right now?
Like punching a wall or just jumping in cold water to tame the fumes that are consuming my emotional self

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i relate to feeling like that, though it has been awhile i felt like that. It used to happen often, each time i was triggered in my rage.

i found meditating on Jesus when He hang there on the cross, so unfairly and cruelly so, was really helpful. It was in Jesus' power to consume them all with God's wrath, but He prayed for their souls instead, taking the brunt of it. Jesus showing me that has really helped me ground my raging emotions and prayed The Lord to make me truthfully loving like Him instead. For i could see that my angry heart was not often as good as it could be.

i hope whatever the reason for feeling so bad will go away.

Jeshu said:

Depression is a monster, as is anxiety, for us it is to learn to have faith in God's love as revealed in the word. That way we can grow stronger than depression or anxiety can throw our way. When we get to know Jesus rock bottom as well as Highest high then we are completely safe in His arms and nothing can harm us any longer even if we do still suffer a lot.

Hope Jesus makes you stronger than anxiety and depression can bring about. Keep going to Jesus and get to know Him and His truth also in your low moods, so you can successfully fight the lies anxiety and depression fire your way.

Praying Jesus keep you close to His heart.

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I don't see an out with this.

Days go by when even with the faith and love and hope in my heart and mind, the feeling of hating everyone and mostly everything does not go away.
Instead, I will pretend everything is alright and place a fake smile on my face

I am hurting