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BlessedWithBeingCursed said:

My problem is bullies beating up on me and Christians. People with no rhyme or reason. Only in it for themselves. We have one thing in common. We're trying to better ourselves. They're trying to defeat us.

It makes me really angry the way they treat me but also the way they treat you. Kicking a dog when it's down. I don't know about God's love but you have mine. Technically speaking if he does exist he gave me that to give to you so it's his love too.

I think many Christians do get some things wrong. For example on contraception. I think pleasure should always be balanced of my own volition but the story used doesn't speak to that. It's obvious to me his wickedness was deception in failing to fulfil his duty saying he would and doubting God's ability to see all in combination with a wicked motive out of jealous trying to get out of giving his dead brother an heir so he could have it all to himself even getting the carnal pleasure free of charge. I can bring up other arguments that makes that situation worse and speaks to things related but that story does not elaborate on. A good strategy is that a reward for the sake of reward you eventually cannot afford. Using contraception is not what that story is talking about though rather abusing it as part of a grander scheme.

I don't know if this is a problem with not enough bible study or too much or both as one person can give one interpretation for you and the other another both wrong, right or either. I wonder how different schools of discipline approach that. I've met many Christians who tell me things about God I know would not normally be so based on the Bible making mistakes like thinking when God was speaking to a particular person in a story he is speaking to them. Most of the stories actually make sense but it can be really hard without context so if you just read a Bible alone I think you can be coerced into misreading it.

Instead you can end up reading yourself instead when faced with what you cannot read and also wanting instruction when what's on offer is meaning or understanding.

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BlessedWithBeingCursed said:

I am here to introduce myself as an "atheist". I do not intend to curry favour, earn sympathy, wrestle or be converted but rather to share myself.

I call myself an atheist but this is merely pragmatic. I live life as if I'm on my own. Though when alone in a room, able to steal, I do consider the lesson of what would you do if being watched, who are you truly? This is a Christian lesson and its value is enormous.

Philosophically I'm agnostic. I cannot know. I live in the superposition. I can switch between atheist or christian at will. I have free will. Regardless of who or what this came from I am thankful for the gift of being able to see the many faces of the unknown and to assume any position I will.

I've been called a militant atheist. Though it might not be literally true it may at times be spiritually true. Sparring with Christians has always been a benefit in confronting the real hard problems rather than being buried only in science which by definition is knowledge that is easy and then they say that is all knowledge. They say there are no atheists in fox holes. They are wrong. Atheists these days can only be found in fox holes.

The reason for my wariness of Christianity is that I don't like to be imposed upon. These days Christianity barely poses any such threat. I find myself deeply concerned today to see atheists desperately trying to impose themselves on Christians and everyone else. Not their good ideas but their wrong ideas.

I myself have long been persecuted. Some of my earliest memories. When I was six they would beat me, molest me in every possible way, spit on me, stone me and things which thankfully I don't remember in addition to things I simply will not say. It is the psychological abuse that is the worst. It is easy to break a body but a soul cannot be directly injured.

This kind of persecution is the one thing I cannot abide by. Whether it's against Christians and even if I don't fully believe as they do. First and foremost you're a person, with a soul, subjective experience and that takes precedence. Science has cracked many eggs gaining ground over religion a lot but it hasn't cracked that even, the hard problem of consciousness. For example, that we feel pain for real.

Whether in the hands of God or if I must wield myself this sword shall cut down evil where ever it hides and there's no hiding place. Evil has convinced me to fight against it better than your holy words ever could.

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