i'm a 35 year old male who has stayed distant from God for most of my life, when i thought about God i considered myself Agnostic. In the last year or so i've started feeling differently and feeling more open to God and feeling like i want to seek God. I started reading the bible and for the first 100 or so pages it wasn't registering with me and i felt bored/annoyed reading it. I was reading it while lying or sitting on my bed and i just kept wanting to stop reading.
But then after i got past 100 pages something changed and i started to feel it. And i suddenly decided to kneel with my hands behind my back and read the bible on my knees. Something changed and i felt really good and i felt like i was drunk even though i hadn't even had any alcohol at all and i just read on my knees for about an hour and i didn't even want to stop but by then i needed a break so i had to.
This literally only happened today. I'm still a very very long way away from really understanding God and serving and worshipping him the correct way. i feel that i've made a start on the journey but i need some help and support to guide me.
I guess my question really is which is the best way to read the bible? Is kneeling to read the best way? i feel like for me i should probably kneel because it felt right and that was when i finally started to understand what i was reading and pay it attention. When sitting or lying down i was not doing very well with it much to my shame and i guess kneeling is the best way to show God some respect?
Sorry if i seem dumb or asked stupid things, i really am just starting to find God after spending all my life keeping my distance. so i'm a very new Christian and it can be a bit scary but at the same time its exciting.
But then after i got past 100 pages something changed and i started to feel it. And i suddenly decided to kneel with my hands behind my back and read the bible on my knees. Something changed and i felt really good and i felt like i was drunk even though i hadn't even had any alcohol at all and i just read on my knees for about an hour and i didn't even want to stop but by then i needed a break so i had to.
This literally only happened today. I'm still a very very long way away from really understanding God and serving and worshipping him the correct way. i feel that i've made a start on the journey but i need some help and support to guide me.
I guess my question really is which is the best way to read the bible? Is kneeling to read the best way? i feel like for me i should probably kneel because it felt right and that was when i finally started to understand what i was reading and pay it attention. When sitting or lying down i was not doing very well with it much to my shame and i guess kneeling is the best way to show God some respect?
Sorry if i seem dumb or asked stupid things, i really am just starting to find God after spending all my life keeping my distance. so i'm a very new Christian and it can be a bit scary but at the same time its exciting.
