Scared and struggling

Emily7584 said:

Hi
I’ve been a Christian for about 7 months

Most of the time I spent worrying weither I had committed the unpardonable sin after I read about the unpardonable sin verse. Because of my ocd I had blasphemous thoughts for months. I still get triggered when I read about the Holy Spirit...

I struggle to pray to God because I get tempted to think bad things to him because I’ve spent months struggling with blasphemous thoughts in my mind because of my ocd and fear of the unpardonable sin.
I could never get close to God because of it. And I barley pray to him because sometimes I’m not able because of my head


the past like 4/5 days I’ve been hearing my name being whispered, I know it’s the enemy

My ocd , obsessive compulsive thinking is severe. As soon as I find out there’s a way to loose God, my head goes crazy over it.

like the unpardonable sin for eg

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it
And it triggered my anxiety and ocd and I was trying to think I’m my head ‘glorious God’ to distract myself from it sorta and then my ocd said things about the .......
And the word glorious
I’m scared incase I’ve lost God because


my mummy and brother need to be born again and it makes me sad and worried

I also don’t know what it means to demy myself and take up my cross even though I’ve asked loads of people and googled it I still don’t understand.
I don’t think I’ve been following properly or well enough. A lot of the time I’ve felt like Jesus didn’t like me at all
I’ve spent the last few days complaining in my head because of all my struggles.
This week some nights I’ve had to leave my room and stay up all night because of the enemy whispering my name and other things and other stuff I couldn’t make out. Scaring me

I’m depressed and feel miserable. I’m not close to Jesus. I want to be saved and want to go to heaven.
I don’t think I’m ready. I’m scared of the rapture and of the second coming aswell.

God scares me and so does Jesus
I feel like I’m getting nowhere every day

I’m concerned incase the Christmas star is a sign from God.
I don’t know if I have enough oil in my lamp and I don’t think I’m living holy enough.

my mummy is also getting me Christmas presents and it scares me because I dont want her to waste her money because what if I don’t get to use them (rapture)


She believes in Jesus and that he died for her but i don’t think she’s interested idk
What if it’s too late for me to have a relationship with God.

sorry this was long
Thanks for reading

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No you didn't commit it.
Also when you get saved , you get eternal life , its not eternal if you could lose it get it ?
Don't judge others and thier acting as for being saved or not cuz its not of works but what you believe.

22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?

23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.

God is in the heart business. He's concerned about our hearts ( I Sam 16:7, Pro 4:23, 21:2, Matt 5:8, Psa 44:21++++). Your heart is crying out to Him.

This is how it works:
"For godly grief and the pain God is permitted to direct, produce a repentance that leads and contributes to salvation and deliverance from evil, and it never brings regret; ..." (II Cor 7;10).

After we have confessed and repented, we accept God's forgiveness. Our sins and shortcomings aren't greater than Jesus' sacrifice and resurrection. Instead of our sins describing us, God defines our Christian identity as righteous - not ashamed (Psa 34:5), not disgraced (Isa 50:7), nor shameful (Isa 50:7, Eph 4:15, I Joh 1:9).

Then - we proceed, we believe Scripture that says we are forgiven such as "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (I John 1:9). "As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us." (Psa 103:12) God's Word is His truth. (II TIM 3:14-16). We have to renew our minds with His Word. (II Cor 10:5). When those doubts come, immediately switch to Scriptures that says who you are - that way we come closer to understanding who He is and who we are because of Him.




(Armor up Eph 6:10-18).

Emily7584 said:

Hi
I’ve been a Christian for about 7 months

Most of the time I spent worrying weither I had committed the unpardonable sin after I read about the unpardonable sin verse. Because of my ocd I had blasphemous thoughts for months. I still get triggered when I read about the Holy Spirit...

I struggle to pray to God because I get tempted to think bad things to him because I’ve spent months struggling with blasphemous thoughts in my mind because of my ocd and fear of the unpardonable sin.
I could never get close to God because of it. And I barley pray to him because sometimes I’m not able because of my head


the past like 4/5 days I’ve been hearing my name being whispered, I know it’s the enemy

My ocd , obsessive compulsive thinking is severe. As soon as I find out there’s a way to loose God, my head goes crazy over it.

like the unpardonable sin for eg

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it
And it triggered my anxiety and ocd and I was trying to think I’m my head ‘glorious God’ to distract myself from it sorta and then my ocd said things about the .......
And the word glorious
I’m scared incase I’ve lost God because


my mummy and brother need to be born again and it makes me sad and worried

I also don’t know what it means to demy myself and take up my cross even though I’ve asked loads of people and googled it I still don’t understand.
I don’t think I’ve been following properly or well enough. A lot of the time I’ve felt like Jesus didn’t like me at all
I’ve spent the last few days complaining in my head because of all my struggles.
This week some nights I’ve had to leave my room and stay up all night because of the enemy whispering my name and other things and other stuff I couldn’t make out. Scaring me

I’m depressed and feel miserable. I’m not close to Jesus. I want to be saved and want to go to heaven.
I don’t think I’m ready. I’m scared of the rapture and of the second coming aswell.

God scares me and so does Jesus
I feel like I’m getting nowhere every day

I’m concerned incase the Christmas star is a sign from God.
I don’t know if I have enough oil in my lamp and I don’t think I’m living holy enough.

my mummy is also getting me Christmas presents and it scares me because I dont want her to waste her money because what if I don’t get to use them (rapture)


She believes in Jesus and that he died for her but i don’t think she’s interested idk
What if it’s too late for me to have a relationship with God.

sorry this was long
Thanks for reading

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It's never too late. God does not hold you responsible for thoughts planted in your mind by the enemy. Being tempted is not sin. You do need to focus on what Lord has done for you by His death and resurrection. You need to know that He loves you enough to die in your place.

Being a Christian means to be born of Christ. An Australian is one who is born in Australia. That person has all the rights and responsibilities of being an Australian. A Christian has all the rights and responsibilities that come with being born of Christ.

The death of Jesus is way more than for forgiveness of sin. It also puts an end to the sinner. One of my favourite verses is Colossians 3:3, "For you have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God."

If the old "you" is dead, it means that you are free from its hold over you. What can be done with a dead person? No one bothers to take them to court. It's too late. No one expects them to work, to answer questions, to be nice to others or anything else. Dead people are....... well, dead! I know, you don't feel dead, you don't think like you are dead and you are not behaving as if you were dead. That's because you don't realise yet what God has done for you in Christ.

Better yet, God included you in Christ and raised you up to new life in Him. Galatians 2:20 and 2 Corinthians 5:17 are important truths that need to get into our hearts.

There is also the daily aspect of the cross that you've read about. What does it mean? God knows that we have a lifetime of programming by our upbringing, education and the inner demands of self will. Carrying the cross means to deny those things and accept God's ordering for our lives instead. It can be pretty simple. Perhaps your favourite TV program is not doing you any good spiritually. God will ask you to quit watching. I had to give up competitive sport (at the lowest level!) because it was making me aggressive and taking up too much time. When we obey on these issues, self becomes weaker and our new man becomes stronger.

Above all else, know that God loves you. He is not bothered by your problems. He is intent on setting you free (Luke 4:18). Come to God, hiding yourself in Jesus. Ask God to set you free from all that hinders you from being the kind of person that you want to be. It will take time and it won't always be easy. But God will deliver you. That's His promise - and God cannot lie.

Emily7584 said:

Hi
I’ve been a Christian for about 7 monthsMost of the time I spent worrying weither I had committed the unpardonable sin

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A lot of believers struggle with this idea that they have committed the unpardonable sin.
The reason they do, is because they have no idea what it is, and because they don't know they become convinced that they can do it, or that they have, or that they might.
This is always related to sinning after you are saved and in this mental condemnation, you have thoughts about this idea of "unpardonable sin".

So, let me tell you what it is, and then you'll know.

The unpardonable sin, is the sin of dying un-pardoned.
To be un-pardoned, is to die not being forgiven of your sins.
The unpardonable sin, is to die rejecting Christ, NEVER having been BORN AGAIN.
The end result?....Jesus will say to you...."depart from me, i never KNEW you".
"knew you" = born again.
"never knew you" = Christ rejector.......never born again.

So, who is that?
It can't be the born again, as to commit this sin, you have to DIE a CHRIST REJECTOR.
Or as Jesus The Christ explains..."if you dont BELIEVE that I am the Messiah, then you will die in your sins"...
That is the exact and only sin, of unbelief.
So, that is strictly referring to everyone who is not born again.
Being born again is proof you have not rejected Christ.
Sinning later, fumbling your faith, backslidding, "falling from grace", is not to be un-born again, ...that is all just carnal behavior that a CHRISTIAN who is BORN AGAIN, can find themselves AS....
Always remember and understand that Once you are born again, you are ALWAYS born again.

The unpardonable sin, is simply to die never being forgiven, never being saved, never being born again.

If you are saved, you can't commit this sin... and never believe the devil led who will try to convince you that you can, as they are faith subverted, and that is why they teach this lie.

Saint, think Logically, is often how you recognize Truth.
So, is it Logical that if you reject forgiveness, you die unforgiven?
Is it LOGICAL that if you reject pardon, you die un-pardoned?

Its really that simple., and if you are born again, you can't commit this sin, so, never worry about it again.

However......If you not born again, then God's wrath is currently resting on you and you are not forgiven your sin, and you are currently deemed and esteemed a CHRIST REJECTOR, who is currently committing the unpardonable sin.
This literally means you are DAMNED to HELL< while you are still on earth, and breathing.
That is a bad place to exist.....!!
If you die like this today, you will soon meet God as your Judge and He will not forgive you, accept you, or keep you.

John 3:36

Emily7584 said:

Hi
I’ve been a Christian for about 7 months

Most of the time I spent worrying weither I had committed the unpardonable sin after I read about the unpardonable sin verse. Because of my ocd I had blasphemous thoughts for months. I still get triggered when I read about the Holy Spirit...

I struggle to pray to God because I get tempted to think bad things to him because I’ve spent months struggling with blasphemous thoughts in my mind because of my ocd and fear of the unpardonable sin.
I could never get close to God because of it. And I barley pray to him because sometimes I’m not able because of my head


the past like 4/5 days I’ve been hearing my name being whispered, I know it’s the enemy

My ocd , obsessive compulsive thinking is severe. As soon as I find out there’s a way to loose God, my head goes crazy over it.

like the unpardonable sin for eg

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it
And it triggered my anxiety and ocd and I was trying to think I’m my head ‘glorious God’ to distract myself from it sorta and then my ocd said things about the .......
And the word glorious
I’m scared incase I’ve lost God because


my mummy and brother need to be born again and it makes me sad and worried

I also don’t know what it means to demy myself and take up my cross even though I’ve asked loads of people and googled it I still don’t understand.
I don’t think I’ve been following properly or well enough. A lot of the time I’ve felt like Jesus didn’t like me at all
I’ve spent the last few days complaining in my head because of all my struggles.
This week some nights I’ve had to leave my room and stay up all night because of the enemy whispering my name and other things and other stuff I couldn’t make out. Scaring me

I’m depressed and feel miserable. I’m not close to Jesus. I want to be saved and want to go to heaven.
I don’t think I’m ready. I’m scared of the rapture and of the second coming aswell.

God scares me and so does Jesus
I feel like I’m getting nowhere every day

I’m concerned incase the Christmas star is a sign from God.
I don’t know if I have enough oil in my lamp and I don’t think I’m living holy enough.

my mummy is also getting me Christmas presents and it scares me because I dont want her to waste her money because what if I don’t get to use them (rapture)


She believes in Jesus and that he died for her but she needs to call to him to be saved
What if it’s too late for me to have a relationship with God.

sorry this was long
Thanks for reading

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It may not resonate with you to hear this, because it took me years, to figure out: This life is not about me. God created this, controls it, and that is for HIS GLORY, not ours, not to exalt us or condemn us, but to accomplish what he made us for. In other words --this whole thing is God's work. It does not depend on us.

I don't say that to indicate that we need not be careful or obey or otherwise walk with God, but to emphasize that we are not the ones in control. To me, Christ has become more precious, righteousness has become more desirable, and my satisfaction and joy is in seeing God's satisfaction with his plan for the ages. My life is no longer about me. Even my heartbreaking sin is part of his plan --it is no surprise, though it killed Christ-- and it has not derailed what he intends for me.

It is a different worldview; I pray God will open something like this up for you. Meanwhile, try to give yourself a little slack. We are mere children, to God. He does not take us seriously in the ways we do.

Whether any of this makes headway with you or not, make it a habit to talk to God about everything. There is no better therapy even though you may not feel like it is even real at first.

Your cross is what you are discussing here. Your thoughts, intrusive thoughts like the fiery darts of Satan. If you believe, be assured in Christ that God’s promises are true, He will never leave you, nor forsake you. Everyone has thoughts that do not line up with Gods goal and intent for our lives. An example I deal with is a lack of patience with idiots. (Who am I to decide? Perhaps I am not the one to teach them.) I know the fruit of the Spirit, “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.” Galatians 5:22, yet my thoughts after what I consider ample opportunity to have learned a lesson some continue in what I consider foolish, self serving, and disingenuous behaviors.

Satan is the accuser, he speaks those words of doubt, he whispers lies so you will fall from the security of knowing Christ’s love is eternal.

Do not fear, nor be anxious of when the “Father of lies” scatters the seed of doubt for any who will allow it to take up residence. Before we are introduced to Christ Satan seems to leave us alone. Many new Christians experience a confusing war within themselves. Hold firm, God will do His part, rest assured. Here is what I consider to be a progression in new believers.

First, fear as used in scripture;

1. Fear, dread, terror.

2, That which strikes terror.

3. Reverence for one’s husband.

Following are verses of a relationship in which fear has no home. Therefore the intent is 3.

Pro, 9:10 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

2 Tim 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

1 John, 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.

Heb 4:16 Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace.

Romans 8:15 For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.

Mark, 4:40. … “Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?”

It is my firm belief that the one sin which will condemn a man to eternal separation from God is the failure to believe and accept God’s offered grace and forgiveness through the sacrifice of Christ. Other sin quenches the Spirit over time and hearts become hard, ears lose hearing and hearts no longer follow truth. This allows for the risk of losing faith. 1st John, 5:16 “If any man see his brother sin a sin which is not unto death, he shall ask, and he shall give him life for them that sin not unto death. There is a sin unto death: I do not say that he shall pray for it. All unrighteousness is sin: and there is a sin not unto death.” There is no pardon for a man who will not accept it because of unbelief.

Scripture refers to the “Church” as the “Bride of Christ.”

2 Corinthians, 11:2 For I am jealous over you with godly jealousy: for I have espoused you to one husband, that I may present you as a chaste virgin to Christ.

Revelations, 19:7 Let us be glad and rejoice, and give honour to him: for the marriage of the Lamb is come, and his wife hath made herself ready. And to her was granted that she should be arrayed in fine linen, clean and white: for the fine linen is the righteousness of saints.

Isaiah, 54:5 For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.

Fear may be the beginning, but fear finds no home in trusting love. And God, is Love. 1st John, 4:8 He that loves not, does not know God; for God is love.

We will never be perfect in this life. Our hope relies on the perfect work of God in Christ. Our righteousness is our faith in Him.

2, Co, 5:21 For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.

Exercise faith my friend, you are forgiven.

In Christ

Emily7584 said:

Hi
I’ve been a Christian for about 7 months

Most of the time I spent worrying weither I had committed the unpardonable sin after I read about the unpardonable sin verse. Because of my ocd I had blasphemous thoughts for months. I still get triggered when I read about the Holy Spirit...

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The only really "unpardonable sin" is the sin of rejecting God's way of salvation through Jesus. All other sins have been covered by the blood of Christ.

When you start having blasphemous thoughts, use them to trigger a new thought-habit of quoting to yourself the truth of God's word and trusting it wholeheartedly.

Emily7584 said:

I struggle to pray to God because I get tempted to think bad things to him because I’ve spent months struggling with blasphemous thoughts in my mind because of my ocd and fear of the unpardonable sin.

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When you get tempted, submit yourself entirely to God and turn your thoughts to His truth. And every time blasphemous thoughts arise, submit yourself to God again, anchoring your thinking to His truth (that's found in your Bible).

Why are you afraid? God loves you! Very, very much. Don't you believe it? Do you doubt God loves you?

Emily7584 said:

the past like 4/5 days I’ve been hearing my name being whispered, I know it’s the enemy

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Well, use the whispers as a prompt to submit yourself to God, to His control, and then focus your mind upon Scripture. The whispering voices don't have to confuse and disturb you. Make them serve as a trigger to good, spiritual habits.

Emily7584 said:

like the unpardonable sin for eg

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it

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You know, the Pharisees were the ones guilty of the "unpardonable sin," calling the work of God a work of the devil. But they didn't do so because they were OCD. They called God's work demonic because they hated God, they hated Christ, and wanted to diminish him in the eyes of others. Is this your motivation? No. The "unpardonable sin" was about the wicked hearts of the Pharisees, not about compulsive thinking or a particular sort of statement.

Emily7584 said:

I’m scared incase I’ve lost God because

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But God loves you. Don't you know this? Don't you believe it? If you do believe it, why are you scared? God isn't going around looking for a reason to cast you away; He's gone to crazy lengths to make it possible for you to know Him and walk with Him through life! Does this sound like a God you should be afraid of?

1 John 4:16-19
16 We have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.
17 By this, love is perfected with us, so that we may have confidence in the day of judgment; because as He is, so also are we in this world.
18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.
19 We love, because He first loved us.

Romans 8:15
15 For you have not received a spirit of slavery leading to fear again, but you have received a spirit of adoption as sons by which we cry out, "Abba! Father!"

Romans 8:38-39
38 For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers,
39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Emily7584 said:

I also don’t know what it means to demy myself and take up my cross even though I’ve asked loads of people and googled it I still don’t understand.

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You don't know what it means to deny yourself? Have you never said to yourself, "I want to do that but I won't"? Have you never desired something but turned away from it because it wasn't good for you or another in some way? Sure you have. And when you did, you denied yourself. Jesus says that we deny ourselves in order to live as he lived and to fulfill the will of God in Heaven as Jesus did. And so, the follower of Jesus doesn't watch certain movies, doesn't read certain books, doesn't listen to certain sorts of music, doesn't dress in particular ways, doesn't use various kinds of language, and so on, in order to serve God well.

Emily7584 said:

This week some nights I’ve had to leave my room and stay up all night because of the enemy whispering my name and other things and other stuff I couldn’t make out. Scaring me

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I think you ought to give this man a listen:

https://www.youtube.com/c/FreedomInChristMinistries/videos

"What if" is the question that usually plagues the OC person. The answer from God is, "Don't worry about it. I love you and will work out everything for your good. Trust me."

1 John 4:9-10
9 By this the love of God was manifested in us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might live through Him.
10 In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins.

Emily7584 said:

Hi
I’ve been a Christian for about 7 months

Most of the time I spent worrying weither I had committed the unpardonable sin after I read about the unpardonable sin verse. Because of my ocd I had blasphemous thoughts for months. I still get triggered when I read about the Holy Spirit...

I struggle to pray to God because I get tempted to think bad things to him because I’ve spent months struggling with blasphemous thoughts in my mind because of my ocd and fear of the unpardonable sin.
I could never get close to God because of it. And I barley pray to him because sometimes I’m not able because of my head


the past like 4/5 days I’ve been hearing my name being whispered, I know it’s the enemy

My ocd , obsessive compulsive thinking is severe. As soon as I find out there’s a way to loose God, my head goes crazy over it.

like the unpardonable sin for eg

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it
And it triggered my anxiety and ocd and I was trying to think I’m my head ‘glorious God’ to distract myself from it sorta and then my ocd said things about the .......
And the word glorious
I’m scared incase I’ve lost God because


my mummy and brother need to be born again and it makes me sad and worried

I also don’t know what it means to demy myself and take up my cross even though I’ve asked loads of people and googled it I still don’t understand.
I don’t think I’ve been following properly or well enough. A lot of the time I’ve felt like Jesus didn’t like me at all
I’ve spent the last few days complaining in my head because of all my struggles.
This week some nights I’ve had to leave my room and stay up all night because of the enemy whispering my name and other things and other stuff I couldn’t make out. Scaring me

I’m depressed and feel miserable. I’m not close to Jesus. I want to be saved and want to go to heaven.
I don’t think I’m ready. I’m scared of the rapture and of the second coming aswell.

God scares me and so does Jesus
I feel like I’m getting nowhere every day

I’m concerned incase the Christmas star is a sign from God.
I don’t know if I have enough oil in my lamp and I don’t think I’m living holy enough.

my mummy is also getting me Christmas presents and it scares me because I dont want her to waste her money because what if I don’t get to use them (rapture)


She believes in Jesus and that he died for her but she needs to call to him to be saved
What if it’s too late for me to have a relationship with God.

sorry this was long
Thanks for reading

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The fact is that you have not committed the unpardonable sin. Let first look at the scripture.

Mark 3:29 But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost hath never forgiveness, but is in danger of eternal damnation:

The scripture its-self says that a person committing the unpardonable sin is only in danger of eternal damnation. They are not damned.

Let's first examine the cross and what sin it covers. If you see Hebrews 9:27-28 (below) you will see that as man dies once, has a lifetime of sins, so Christ was offered once to cover sin.

Heb 9:27-28 We die only once, and then we are judged. So Christ died only once to take away the sins of many people.

The fact is that any sin or blasphemy can be forgiven. So we have to ask what was the unpardonable sin. The Pharisees were not using blasphemous language or having blasphemous thoughts, that is not the unpardonable sin. They were as the bible says saying: Mar 3:30 "that he had an evil spirit in him. ". The Pharisee's had seen all the mighty works of power that Jesus had done, but would rather than repent, call Jesus works the works of the devil. It was a state of heart that refused to believe in Jesus. But the good news for anyone wanting forgiveness for any sin is that the cross is available, for it covers our lifetime of sins.

You have not committed an unpardonable sin, in fact there is no sin you can commit that could not be forgiven.

Emily7584 said:

Hi
I’ve been a Christian for about 7 months

Most of the time I spent worrying weither I had committed the unpardonable sin after I read about the unpardonable sin verse. Because of my ocd I had blasphemous thoughts for months. I still get triggered when I read about the Holy Spirit...

I struggle to pray to God because I get tempted to think bad things to him because I’ve spent months struggling with blasphemous thoughts in my mind because of my ocd and fear of the unpardonable sin.
I could never get close to God because of it. And I barley pray to him because sometimes I’m not able because of my head


the past like 4/5 days I’ve been hearing my name being whispered, I know it’s the enemy

My ocd , obsessive compulsive thinking is severe. As soon as I find out there’s a way to loose God, my head goes crazy over it.

like the unpardonable sin for eg

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it

Like 2 days ago I read a verse in revelation about worshipping the ....

it says if anyone does it... that’s it basically it
And it triggered my anxiety and ocd and I was trying to think I’m my head ‘glorious God’ to distract myself from it sorta and then my ocd said things about the .......
And the word glorious
I’m scared incase I’ve lost God because


my mummy and brother need to be born again and it makes me sad and worried

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When Jesus taught about the unforgivable sin, he was addressing people who were maliciously speaking against him. These people were eyewitnesses to a miracle and they hated Jesus so much that they disregarded any possibility of him being from God, and blasphemed against the Holy Spirit. You're not one of those people. God knows your heart and your mind, what you intend and what you don't, and how much you love him. He knows the difference between you and them.

Emily7584 said:

I also don’t know what it means to demy myself and take up my cross even though I’ve asked loads of people and googled it I still don’t understand.

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It means that you do what Jesus commands, even if it's inconvenient for you. But before you dwell too much on that, learn what Jesus commands, as opposed to what he does not command.

Emily7584 said:

my mummy is also getting me Christmas presents and it scares me because I dont want her to waste her money because what if I don’t get to use them (rapture)

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Don't worry about that. Be grateful to her for these presents. If the rapture happens before you get the chance to make use of her presents, the money she would have saved wouldn't matter.

Emily7584 said:

What if it’s too late for me to have a relationship with God.

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It's never too late for anyone who is still alive, in this age.

Mark 3:29

Mark 3:30

The Pharisees attributed Jesus' miracles to the enemy or unclean spirit. Because Jesus is not here today performing physical miracles it is impossible to commit the unpardonable sin. Period. Keep up the good fight.

God is good. Keep praying and do not be afraid to approach God or Jesus.