God, Christ, would be the one Who knows more, Who would know the answer better than anyone mortal. We do at least understand that includes words via the prophets like Jeremiah who are conveying from the Lord. So when I read
Jeremiah 29:13 You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. then I remember the "all of your heart" and know then that this is a kind of all-in. It's like someone that runs out and leaps to try to cross the chasm, jumps out into the air over the cliff face, a kind of total "all-in" real leap, to use a metaphor. It wasn't...where I'd been. It was leaping into the unknown. "All" was itself an act of faith, itself. And since God gives grace to the humble, then several key things were happening: I was humble (truly), and all-in totally with all of my heart, and
had been earnestly also doing the instructions Christ said to do, and also I was reading His words, and keeping them in my mind, in an ongoing way. None of that was by plan. It just came about over time. So, seeking of this kind is a kind of truly...different thing than just trying to find something for a few days. It's more as if it was had-to. I was seeking as if it was life or death. It was a total. Because He is God, and to seek the infinite, while being finite, is...risking total utter change, it's like giving up what you were, because you are finite and may be acted on by the infinite, so it already involved willingness to lose all I had in a sense -- what I thought of as self -- because I was truly risking that all I knew/lived might get replaced by a new reality.