Hello, all who are reading! Just let me take the time to introduce myself I will be brief my name is Ricardo, I'm a father and a Husband. I was blessed with 3 beautiful children My oldest 15 y/o Intelligent Son Isaac, My Sweet, Loving and caring Daughter Ava who is 13, Finally, my Baby boy full of Joy Ezra who is 5, and its been almost a year now dec 4 will be a year when I finally surrendered after a very long time almost 13 years of Drug abuse and Alcoholism.
I remember that day when my wife was ready to give up and take our children out of this Toxic environment that had been manifesting because I was allowing it. I remember her gathering belongings to go to her mother's and I just remember this empty feeling like a piece of me was being ripped out of my heart and Feeling just utterly alone. It felt so dark I was lying in my daughter's bed hungover in disgust with myself and I heard someone and I look over my shoulder and a police officer was standing at the door. I realized my wife didn't feel safe alone with me and let me tell the shame and guilt and the cowardness reigned over me. Nonetheless, when they left I started crying out to God and noticed I wasn't alone all this time even in my darkest hours it's like he told me Finally son your starting to see I've been waiting and watching you. Waiting for this day for you to open your eyes and look to see what you are doing not only to yourself but Mainly to your family. See I didn't think my actions would affect everyone around me as much as they did.
So I finally told myself enough I'm not gonna live like this I don't know how I'm gonna do this but let me give it all to you lord. I don't know how this works but I've tried it my washy for too long and I wasn't getting anywhere but deeper into the hole I dug. There was a Program I found in my hometown called Rise Discipleship and there main focus was on the bible and it was a 6-month program completely free that helped men who struggled with drug addiction, alcoholism, Suicidal tendencies, PTSD, any problem under the sun even for some who want to get closer to God. So I step into something wholeheartedly and have no idea how it's gonna go. So I told my family exactly what I was going to do and that was back Dec 4, 2019, and here we are Nov 28, 2020. I graduated from the program on June 7, 2020, and the journey I went through was unbelievable every single wall I had built came crumbling down. I was Defeating the Giants (Goliaths) in my life so my children and their children wouldn't have to. These chains had been broken and I had been set FREE. All the Glory Goes to God. Thank you, King Jesus. I never could understand the undying love I would hear about till I experienced it myself. I had a special encounter with God so no one can come around and tell me that he is not real. I am a product of my Wifes answered prayers. Let me tell by me staying in the home and finishing what God had started Restored so much Faith and Hope in my Wifes Spiritual Life it's so wonderful.
Thanks for your time I could go on and on but I guess that's for another thread. God Bless everyone! Prayers out to you and your Families
I remember that day when my wife was ready to give up and take our children out of this Toxic environment that had been manifesting because I was allowing it. I remember her gathering belongings to go to her mother's and I just remember this empty feeling like a piece of me was being ripped out of my heart and Feeling just utterly alone. It felt so dark I was lying in my daughter's bed hungover in disgust with myself and I heard someone and I look over my shoulder and a police officer was standing at the door. I realized my wife didn't feel safe alone with me and let me tell the shame and guilt and the cowardness reigned over me. Nonetheless, when they left I started crying out to God and noticed I wasn't alone all this time even in my darkest hours it's like he told me Finally son your starting to see I've been waiting and watching you. Waiting for this day for you to open your eyes and look to see what you are doing not only to yourself but Mainly to your family. See I didn't think my actions would affect everyone around me as much as they did.
So I finally told myself enough I'm not gonna live like this I don't know how I'm gonna do this but let me give it all to you lord. I don't know how this works but I've tried it my washy for too long and I wasn't getting anywhere but deeper into the hole I dug. There was a Program I found in my hometown called Rise Discipleship and there main focus was on the bible and it was a 6-month program completely free that helped men who struggled with drug addiction, alcoholism, Suicidal tendencies, PTSD, any problem under the sun even for some who want to get closer to God. So I step into something wholeheartedly and have no idea how it's gonna go. So I told my family exactly what I was going to do and that was back Dec 4, 2019, and here we are Nov 28, 2020. I graduated from the program on June 7, 2020, and the journey I went through was unbelievable every single wall I had built came crumbling down. I was Defeating the Giants (Goliaths) in my life so my children and their children wouldn't have to. These chains had been broken and I had been set FREE. All the Glory Goes to God. Thank you, King Jesus. I never could understand the undying love I would hear about till I experienced it myself. I had a special encounter with God so no one can come around and tell me that he is not real. I am a product of my Wifes answered prayers. Let me tell by me staying in the home and finishing what God had started Restored so much Faith and Hope in my Wifes Spiritual Life it's so wonderful.
Thanks for your time I could go on and on but I guess that's for another thread. God Bless everyone! Prayers out to you and your Families
