Well said,
I do agree, My faith is probably fake.
I think that I just need to try harder I guess. Over the years, I have never "felt" anything from my (so-called) relationship with God. So I'm obviously doing something inadequately wrong
What are you looking for?
Why is your faith fake - because you don't feel something? Who told you that it's imperative that faith feels something?
Faith, foundationally, is a belief that Jesus is the Christ. Read Psalm 2 and see a bit of who Christ is. Do you think we're all obligated to do what He says because of who & what He is or because of how we feel?
Read Acts 13:16-41 where Paul presents a more comprehensive Gospel, including pointing us to Psalm 2 and the death, burial & resurrection of Jesus Christ, the Davidic King. Where do you see him say something about what you're supposed to feel?
What about this being we call "God" - the One who created all things, including us - the One who owns all things - the One to whom all knees shall bow - don't you think that just by who He is, we should be thankful to Him & submitted to Him? Why do some call Him, Lord, and not do what He says & think they believe in Him just because they feel something?
Why are you trying to find a feeling? Feelings come & go & all of us feel different things. It's not about what we feel, but about what we believe & do. Let those who feel things feel things. Build upon what you have. Study God's Word. Learn from those who do. Learn from God's Spirit. Be influenced by what God says in His Word.
You don't need to try harder to feel something & there's nothing wrong with building from a sense of obligation.
Where do you see a feeling in this explanation of Love written by Paul?:
NKJ 1 Cor. 13:4-7 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love is primarily what what one does, not what one feels.
God says your love for Him is doing what He says:
NKJ 1 John. 5:3 For this is the love of God, that we keep His commandments. And His commandments are not burdensome.
NKJ John 14:21 "He who has My commandments and keeps them, it is he who loves Me (Jesus Christ). And he who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and manifest Myself to him."
Note how God commanded Israel to Love Him. Do you think He's commanding a feeling, or that this commanded Love has something to do with obeying, keeping & handing down all the commands He gave them about how to live?:
NKJ Deut. 6:4-9 "Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one! 5 "You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength. 6 "And these words which I command you today shall be in your heart. 7 "You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, when you walk by the way, when you lie down, and when you rise up. 8 "You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. 9 "You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.
What do you know & believe about Jesus Christ?
What do you know & believe about God?
Love is primarily a loyalty. And our loyalty is to the Lord God we believe in.
With feeling, today I feel one way, tomorrow I have a stomach ache. Today I feel love, tomorrow I fell out of love & move on. Sounds worldly to me, especially based upon my study of His Word.
Start with Faith-Obedience. Your belief that Jesus is the Christ to whom all knees shall bow is Faith-Obedience. Know what our God & Father, and our Lord Jesus Christ have done for us and require of us. Pray to Him to develop all of you. It'll come as He determines & as you continue to pursue Him........
It's called Faith-Obedience, not feeling.